The Grey Days

I remember the “grey days” before going with Father on my wilderness journey…It seemed like a dark cloud followed me everywhere I went. My mind was like a war zone and I never knew peace. Every “challenge” would unknowingly take me back to when I was a little girl. The only way I knew how to cope with my pain and brokenness was “anger” and retreating to my “drugs”. 

I was married and a mom, but yet I was still a “little girl”, because I never took the time to go back to visit the places of my brokenness. For mere moments light would break through and I would tread on glimpses of what Jesus had planned for me. I wanted to dwell in that place of overflow, of a peace that surpasses all understanding and a deep joy…but as soon as a challenge would come I would retreat to the little wounded girl…

More then 7 years ago, when I was at my lowest, I had a dream and in the dream a lady said to me “I am so excited about the journey that God is going to take you on”. No one ever told me that it is important to go on a healing journey.

Father had to convey this important process to me through a dream…There was something different in the atmosphere and I knew that it was time to visit the “graves” I have avoided for years and to take off my masks and to open up about my struggles and pain.

Father took me aside and we started to unpack my heart and He addressed every hurt and character trait that did not represent Him. Some things were easy to lay down and overcome and some would take time, but I pushed through the pain and frustration and I did not give up. Worship was my greatest weapon when my past begged me to give up and turn around to the familiar. When my heart was lighter, I discovered my love for writing and for mentoring women.

I remember one December morning waking up around five in the morning to spend time with Papa God and for the first time in my life I experienced the love of God. A Christian for years and I heard hundreds of teachings of His love for me, but I had to have an encounter and revelation of His great love for me. His love flowed like billows over my broken heart and I was instantly transformed in many areas of my life.

When I discovered that Jesus was madly in love with me…the shy girl with the countless issues and the low self esteem, I was changed never to be the same again. I stepped out of the shadows in His  authority, bold and fearless only because I finally knew how deeply loved I was.

I want to encourage everybody to make time to go on a wilderness journey with Papa God.

Only in Him there is a peace that surpasses all understanding and a joy unspeakable. No more “grey days” for me, Jesus filled my every void and I am head over heels in love with Him. I am forever dressed in who He says I am…an overcomer, beautiful, His warior princess, fearless, a container of His love in the earth…called and prepared for such a time as this…

— Ebigale Wilson

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The Grey Days

I remember the “grey days” before going with Father on my wilderness journey…It seemed like a dark cloud followed me everywhere I went. My mind was like a war zone and I never knew peace. Every “challenge” would unknowingly take me back to when I was a little girl. The only way I knew how to cope with my pain and brokenness was “anger” and retreating to my “drugs”. 

I was married and a mom, but yet I was still a “little girl”, because I never took the time to go back to visit the places of my brokenness. For mere moments light would break through and I would tread on glimpses of what Jesus had planned for me. I wanted to dwell in that place of overflow, of a peace that surpasses all understanding and a deep joy…but as soon as a challenge would come I would retreat to the little wounded girl…

More then 7 years ago, when I was at my lowest, I had a dream and in the dream a lady said to me “I am so excited about the journey that God is going to take you on”. No one ever told me that it is important to go on a healing journey.

Father had to convey this important process to me through a dream…There was something different in the atmosphere and I knew that it was time to visit the “graves” I have avoided for years and to take off my masks and to open up about my struggles and pain.

Father took me aside and we started to unpack my heart and He addressed every hurt and character trait that did not represent Him. Some things were easy to lay down and overcome and some would take time, but I pushed through the pain and frustration and I did not give up. Worship was my greatest weapon when my past begged me to give up and turn around to the familiar. When my heart was lighter, I discovered my love for writing and for mentoring women.

I remember one December morning waking up around five in the morning to spend time with Papa God and for the first time in my life I experienced the love of God. A Christian for years and I heard hundreds of teachings of His love for me, but I had to have an encounter and revelation of His great love for me. His love flowed like billows over my broken heart and I was instantly transformed in many areas of my life.

When I discovered that Jesus was madly in love with me…the shy girl with the countless issues and the low self esteem, I was changed never to be the same again. I stepped out of the shadows in His  authority, bold and fearless only because I finally knew how deeply loved I was.

I want to encourage everybody to make time to go on a wilderness journey with Papa God.

Only in Him there is a peace that surpasses all understanding and a joy unspeakable. No more “grey days” for me, Jesus filled my every void and I am head over heels in love with Him. I am forever dressed in who He says I am…an overcomer, beautiful, His warior princess, fearless, a container of His love in the earth…called and prepared for such a time as this…

— Ebigale Wilson

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#PoeticallyProphetic 

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Back To Life

I can stay here forever
In Your holy presence
This space in You
Reserved for me
Nothing compares
To knowing You
Tears fill my eyes
Remembering my past
Of how far I have come
When my world caved in
You showed up
You always did
To pick up the pieces
Of my shattered heart
You knew what to do
When I had no clue
Human intervention was not necessary
All I needed I found in You
You walked me through the valley
of the shadow of death
Your love tamed my wild emotions
Worship my greatest weapon
Till I ran on waves with You
A revelation of Your love
Brought me back to life
A lifetime will not be enough
To worship You Jesus
Every day I fall more and more
in love with You
I found myself
When I found You…

—Ebigale Wilson

Maybe … just maybe

A few weeks ago I read an article about a satanist who came to Jesus. I remember scrolling through the comments and what hurt most was the negative comments coming from “Christians”.

While pondering on this Father said to me “Ebigale these are the people that are going to come to Me in this hour and the church is not ready for their arrival”. How are we going to embrace and love on “high level sinners” when we have become “inclusive” and judgemental with religious standards to be part of our “little Christian groups”?

Love is high on Fathers heart but we as the body of Christ do not always represent Him well. My journey through the wilderness was probably 80% about my “character” and “love walk” with Father and people. We are dealing with a broken world, a people in pain who do not need a people who think that they have arrived and are perfect.

Father is taking us back to the basics again, the book of Acts…Are we really ready for “Pentecost” when our character and love walk says something totally different from what Father expects from His bride? May Father help me to represent heaven well when the hurting, the broken, the frustrated, the ones who do not look like me, cross my path.

May I stay teachable and may the secret place still be my place of dying daily where I exchange my agendas and perceptions to glean from the perfect Lover Jesus Christ.

When speaking at events I have experienced that people love it when I am transparent about my pain and struggles and not this “holier- than- thou” person that they cannot relate to.

Those who have been forgiven much, love much I have come to realise. As a prophetic voice I can still address sin, but how I do it is important. May I be remembered by how well I have loved and not my wonderful rèsumè as a Christian.

Maybe…just maybe it is time to step out of the walls of perfectionism and our little holy groups and tread into uncharted territories to meet with the outcasts, the imperfect, the prodigals, the sinners…

1 Peter 4: 17~ For the time has come for judgment to begin at the house of God, and if it begins with us first, what will be the end of those who do not obey the gospel of God?

Matthew 7:16 ~ You will know them by their fruits.

1 Corinthians 13:1 and 2~ Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but I have no love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.

And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but I have not love, I am nothing.

—Ebigale Wilson

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Shulamite Daughter

A space in You

Reserved for now

Never been this way before

A desire unknown 

A heavenly kiss

A holy encounter 

I bow down low

A time in You

A place in You

A love sick bride

intoxicated by only You

My whole being

in search of You

Uncontrollable longing 

It tears my heart

Unleashed fire

Burning high

Spreading wide

Going deep

Unquenchable thirst

Ravenous hunger

A heart ablaze 

No restrictions 

Shulamite daughter

A dormant volcano 

Waiting to erupt

Ready to be One with You…

— Ebigale Wilson

A Focused Bride

The remnant bride of Christ have awakened to deeper places in Father especially over the past two years.

Many succumbed to fear when our lives were turned up side down in 2020, but a sold out remnant bride used this time wisely and kept her focus.

A fearless and bold people are emerging all over the earth who have made the secret place their dwelling place during this time.

A focused bride used what the enemy wanted to distract and frustrate her with to her advantage, and pressed into Fathers new.

Five months before the lock-down, my then sixteen year old son had a dream where we were driving on a bridge (connecting of 2 different seasons). There were many cars and trucks he said, and an evil looking man in a beautiful and expensive black car, was driving into us in an effort to kill us. When he failed in doing so, he drove past us and looked at me with so much hatred. He then proceeded to drive into the other cars and trucks.

I said to my son that something was going to happen that would affect people, businesses, and churches (represented in the dream as “cars and trucks”).

I knew that in the dream that the enemy was furious and desperate, because I represented a remnant bride that would soon emerge. 

When the lock-down happened, Father gave me significant dreams for the time we are now in. In one of the dreams, Father showed me a new laptop with writings on the screen. As I looked closely, many of the paragraphs were highlighted in red. He then said: “Ebigale, you need a new laptop the old one will not be able to handle the new I am calling you to do.”

I instantly knew that Father was referring to my mind… He proceeded and said “What I am about to do through you, you won’t be able to do with your old laptop” (mindset). At that time much of the effects of the wilderness still clung to me, and I knew that my mind had to go through more transformation in order to embrace Fathers new. I also knew that it was a corporate dream for Fathers end-time army. 

Prophetic voices are emerging in this time with a different sound, a heavenly sound that was reserved for such a time as this! They have had glimpses of Fathers “new”, through prophetic dreams, visions, supernatural encounters and prophetic imaginations.

The veil between earth and heaven is tearing and there is a convergence of the two realms. Our Spirit man is stronger (we have dealt with our “soul issues” during our wilderness journey) and we are awakening to spiritual atmospheres and realms not visited before.

I have seen and experienced glimpses of what Father has reserved for now, and I believe many others have as well. The preparation of our hearts (in the secret place!) were necessary to make Fathers “new” steadfast against the counterfeit supernatural experiences.

In the past, I was very frustrated when I had unusual supernatural experiences and no one to turn to. The Holy Spirit reminded me of a dream my spiritual mother (Prophet Carol Matthyse) had of me. At the last scene of her dream, I was standing with a “Parachute” (someone who is prepared to function in the heavenly realm) on,  and it had a button that I could press. She said at first I went up into the sky and there were many others around me. I came back with the biggest smile and said: “I want to go again!” When I pressed the button again, I went past the people in the sky (first heaven) and she knew I was in Fathers presence.

Intimacy with Father is the only way we can unlock His new. His Spirit will be the driving force and power behind our supernatural experiences.

There are end- time assignments and mandates attached to the realms we are called to invade and occupy; they are not for personal gain or “goosebumps experiences.”

Father is preparing His remnant bride to rule and reign in this new era, and the interaction between heaven and earth will become our natural. The enemy is still busy attempting to steal our focus, and to invoke fear, but a remnant / forerunner bride, will now run with Fathers new, to awaken and activate others.

Earth is groaning for the unveiling of the true sons and daughters!!!

Joel 2: 28~ And it shall come to pass after That I will pour out My Spirit on all flesh…

Verse 30~ And I will show wonders in the heavens and in the earth…

Acts 7: 55 to 56~ But he, being full of the Holy Spirit, gazed into heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God, And said “Look I see the heavens opened and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God!”

Ephesians 2: 6~ And God has raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus. 

— Ebigale Wilson

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A Wilderness Detour

Day after day

You emptied me

Every idol

You cut loose

A much needed work

A sacred work 

Painful…to die daily

My selfish desires

You were never part of it

A Wilderness Detour 

Stripped me of my flesh

Nothing of this world

I long for 

Only Your approval 

In everything I do

Completely under Your control 

My plans and dreams 

I gladly exchanged 

To be known by You

My highest call

My only desire

Standing here

I reach for You

The edge of Your robe

Do not cut me loose

Find me faithful 

In a world where the lust

of the eyes lead many astray

In Your presence 

I live

I move 

I have my being 

If I do not have You 

I have nothing…

— Ebigale Wilson

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Transitioning

Mesmerized only by You

Hearts beating as One

Realms reserved for the desperate 

Who laid their lives down

Endless dark nights brought them here

A peculiar people

A special breed

Laid down lovers

Living sacrifices

Burning flames

Pillars of Light

Bride of Christ 

Sons and daughters 

Overcomers

Heaven and earth colliding 

Spirit man awakened 

Transitioning into Your new

Soon we will look like You…

— Ebigale Wilson

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Come

Come Shulamite daughter

I have so much to show you…

Heaven is waiting to sing My beauty over you…

Let us run on the clouds…

Twirl around stars…

Every planet announcing My Majesty…Glimpses are not enough…It is time to go higher with Me…You were made to visit new spaces and atmospheres with Me…

You came for me in the midnight hour

I felt Your touch

Your breath upon my face

Hurriedly I got ready

My hand in Yours

Unknown territories are waiting 

My eyes comprehend the beauty 

Beloved lovingly smile

A daughter taken aback at the treasures of heaven

Will I ever do justice to 

Your Omnipotence 

Your Greatness 

Your love for sons and daughters 

Will my limited mind find the words to rightly describe that which You have prepared for now….

— Ebigale Wilson

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Anticipation Building

Just be with Me, it is in the being with Me that you will be fulfilled…dancing in My presence seeking My face…Just being…

My daughter…do not be so busy with things…Be intoxicated by only Me…in love with Me…

Many are so busy, they do not really know Me…Portals are opening up to draw you into My presence…Yearn for Me, love Me…

The secret of My power is hidden in My presence, everything flows from that deep, intimate place in Me…

I cannot wait to be with You

Anticipation building

Your presence calls my name

You are waiting for me

I run past the obstacles

Keeping me away from You

Nothing satisfies me

Like You do

Your chamber awaits the desperate 

Veil tearing

Face to face

Two hearts merging…

— Ebigale Wilson

~ The Journey Home 

~ Beloved and Shulamite daughter 

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