Surrender

I heard Your voice 

when my world

caved in around me

When darkness tried 

to steal my future

When I was at my lowest

I heard You say “Surrender

Trying to put my broken heart at ease

Trying to put my bruised ego to rest

I didn’t want to listen

because how could I surrender?

When all I had, I lost

Nothing to hold on to

Still I couldn’t bring myself 

to give You, what was of no 

value in my hands

Years came and they went

Yet I couldn’t let go

I sunk deeper into despair

Pain part of my every move

Written all over my face

Flowing from my mouth

Would I ever taste freedom?

Would I ever know love?

Would I ever be free 

from these demons haunting me?

You followed me through

my darkest nights

You pursued me 

when I begged 

You to give up

You had hope, when I did not

You had faith, when I gave up

You saw my future

When I clung to my past

I never knew that Your love 

had the ability to break down my barriers

All my life I had been searching 

for something or someone to fill 

this void within

Had unrealistic expectations 

of people who were also in search

To be known

To be loved

Craving for something 

to calm the storms within

In a distance, I could hear You

Though I didn’t want to believe

That You saw me

That You heard me

That You knew me

I could feel the enemy drawing me in

The atmosphere was loaded

Heaven and hell in a battle, 

but don’t You always win?

Surrender

I’ll be ready when you fall

Into My arms of love

I have paid the price 

You don’t have to walk alone

Empty handed, it is ok

Surrender and give it all away

Don’t cling to your past

There is hope in surrender

There is faith in surrender

There is victory in surrender

Surrender, is for the brave ones

You will find everything you need 

when you come to the end of yourself

Supernaturally I will invade 

all the broken places in your life 

and make you whole

It’s time my child 

Don’t limit the extent 

of My love at work in your life

You will find that when 

you are weak

I am strong

When you let go 

I will take control

There is beauty in surrender

~ Ebigale Wilson 

My Life 

May my life be 

an avalanche

of Your love

Flowing like waves 

into people’s lives

Crossing every border

Erasing every stop sign

Till every person has 

an encounter with 

the One called love

Drawing them closer

To the Giver of life

May my life be 

a fountain 

of Your waters unending

That quenches every thirst 

and hunger within

Flowing like billows 

into people’s lives

So that the weary and lost 

can draw from You

And never again thirst 

for what cannot satisfy

May shackles fall 

and bondages break

May hearts be healed 

and lives restored

When they drink from You 

and never thirst again

May my life be 

an artwork

portraying You

May no one see me

but only You

As all the different colours 

of Your heart covering me

Bringing forth more 

of Your love in me

May my life be 

an expression of a surrendered life

Dying daily at the cross

Touching every weary soul

crossing my path

Leaving Your fingerprints 

all over each life

May they see only You

As I fade in the background

May my life be

a mosaic 

of Your grace and love

May I love on the forgotten 

and rejected ones

May they taste Your kindness 

and deep mercy for them

You specialize in putting broken lives 

together again

I pray that each human being

would have encounters 

with Your love

Discovering how real You are

Discovering their identity in You

Forever mesmerized and overtaken

by the different facets 

of Your love for them

~ Ebigale Wilson 

Arise 

An Army is rising

All over the earth

They’re marching as One

United by His love

They have been sanctified and purified

With God’s heartbeat

They will take the land

No enemy will stand

Coming out of hiding

Ready for the Battle

We have been prepared 

in the Secret Place

Our King and Commander, 

Leading the way

We will go, wherever He leads us

Trained in the worst conditions

We know that the battle 

has already been won

The kingdom of darkness 

will have to retreat

For our Commander, 

never loses a battle

I see chains falling 

I see battle’s won

We can’t be stopped

His glory will be seen

All over the earth

As His army arises

To take their place

~ Ebigale Wilson 

Set Free 

I looked at her

Her past written all over her face

No joy

No peace

No love

Her face reflects the pain she endured, 

for as long as she can remember

A life full of hurt

Scars not healed

Her heart still bound by chains

Her body bowed low by shame

No one took the time to 

pause by her for a while

She is not free to embrace 

the future luring her in

He whispers her name

Ever so gently

He knows she is bruised 

in so many ways

She does not know her worth

How precious she is

How deeply she is loved

She listened for too long to the 

voice of the enemy

Numbing her

Holding her captive

Ruling her heart and her mind

Keeping her bound in the past

She was made to slay giants

She was made to gain ground

She was made to face her fears

She was made to win each battle 

coming her way

I walk past many of her kind

All with a story of hurt and betrayal

But I never stop to linger for a while

What would people say if I, 

a godly women keep company 

with the wrong crowd

I forgot I was her not too long ago

Trapped in my mind, heart and soul

Ruled by fear and not freedom

Ruled by hate and not love

Ruled by the ghosts of my past, 

that would not let me go

Till someone looked past my mask 

into my eyes

Saw the pain I try to hide

Took me in and showed me 

that the love of the Father 

can forever change my story

Now when I look at her

I see the glory of God covering her

His love radiates from her

She lights up when she 

shares her story of freedom 

and discovering His

all consuming love for her

His love had the power 

to rewrite her story

She discovered herself when she found Him

She laid her past down to be One with Him

She carries the fragrance of heaven 

wherever she goes

His name is engraved on her lips

She now works for her King

Gathering His hurting daughters 

to experience His redeeming love for them

To be Set Free 

~ Ebigale Wilson 

The Invitation 

Many of My sons and daughter’s

were called to the wilderness

Away from the crowd

My voice their only guide

Invitations went out

Few were accepted 

For some the price was too high

They could not surrender to My will

Their flesh shouted louder still

In the wilderness away from 

everything familiar

Deep cleansing I have done

Under the wilderness sun

Heart surgery was necessary

To break the hold of the enemy

from all that have kept them bound

At times they wanted to give up

At times they missed their comfort zone

At times the purification process 

took all their energy

But they pushed through

Giving up was never an option

They knew My love would pull them through

Intimacy with Me, 

made them stronger 

day by day

They worshiped 

when warfare was intense

They prayed in their heavenly language 

when all hell broke loose

Giving up was never an option

This battle was to be won

They kept their focus

They held their position

They were not moved by 

the pictures the enemy painted 

They were moved by what they 

saw in the Spirit

They bathed in oils of myrrh

Till there was no trace of them 

Their flesh had to die a thousand deaths

Till all I could see was My glory shining through

Till all I could smell was my love on them

The sound of My voice on their lips

The fragrance of heaven all over them

There is always a price to pay

My anointing is not for free

You have to go through processes

Till you are more like Me

Your character is important

Your heart, should mirror Mine

That’s why I take My son’s and daughter’s 

on these adventures

To unlock what is dead inside

To leave what’s of no use behind

I want to put you on display, 

but dying daily will be part of your journey

The wilderness will be your fruitful place

I will become your closest companion

Together we will run this race.

The Invitation 

~Ebigale Wilson 

Amazing Love 

I want to know You intimately

Every facet of Your heart

I want to explore

I want to go deeper and deeper with You

Past every obstacle keeping me from You

There must be more than the normal I live 

You are the God of the bible

You don’t do normal

I want to be one of Your history makers

A planet shaker running with You

Be known for exploring 

uncharted territories with You

Be known for a water walking faith 

that could only be found in knowing You

I want to be mesmerised only by You

Always hungry for Your presence, 

captured by Your gaze

The waves can go higher, 

but so will my faith

We will be unstoppable in running this race

You will say that I can

and I will believe

That I am more than my past

and all my mistakes

You have created me to be extraordinary

An atmosphere changer

Who drips with your oil

Releasing Your fragrance 

wherever I go

To let go of my past 

and run with You

You are the God of second chances

Your love heals all my broken places

You love the unlovely

You pursue the outcast

You love the prodigal back to life

Back to Your heart

To be One with You

No other god compares to You

When I found You

My broken heart

Became alive

I found myself

When I found You

I am Your daughter

Enslaved by You

I’ll go where You lead

I am in love with You

Your voice my compass

Your gaze my focus

Forever I am overtaken by You

Now that I know 

how much I am loved

I am totally free to run with You

Everything I need I find in You

I can do whatever You say I can

You are my strength

You are my joy

The One who fights for me

You quiet me with Your

Amazing Love

Nothing in this world compares

with knowing You

~ Ebigale Wilson 

My Everything 

Love that would reach 

past my deepest despair

Love that would see past 

the prodigal I have become

Love that looked past 

my sin and mistakes

To what I could become

He drew me in 

when I wanted to run

He drew me in 

when I clung to my past

He drew me in

He wouldn’t let go

I have gone too far, 

or so I believed

No one took the time 

to tell me it’s a lie

For years I sunk 

deeper into sin

Further and further

I drifted from His light

Past hopelessness

Past broken dreams

Shame and guilt like shadows, 

leading me further away 

from the Light

Torturing me with the 

ghosts of my past

Torturing me by the choices

I chose to make

Alone with no way of escape

I sunk deeper

I chose to believe the enemies lies

He lost his grip on me

The day Love got a hold of me

He lured me in

Captured me

Till I didn’t want to break free

He set me on a path

Of knowing Him

Amidst the daily battles I fight

Amidst the enemy pleading his plight

I have to discern whose voice 

will be louder

If I want to grow

If I want to win

If I want to meet 

one day with my King

Even when my fears want to win

When the enemy paints pictures 

of losing the battle

He invites me to run 

on waves with Him

Deeper and deeper we go

Till I surrender and let faith win

Past my fears that have kept me 

in chains for years

Past my shame that told me 

I am worthless

Past my pain that kept me in bondage for years

So that only His will, will be done in my life

He loves His son’s and daughter’s

A love that could never be compared 

by the good we have done

He will go down the gutter to

be One with us

Break every barrier

Erasing whatever keeps us 

from experiencing His heart

Nothing compares when we find Him

He is the light on my path

The air that I breath

The love of my life

My everything

~ Ebigale Wilson 

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A New Beginning

Gather my daughters

Call them by name

Let them come from afar

Shake the dust of the wilderness off

Let them run from their caves for their time of reward is near

I have invaded your life for a reason

There was seed in your pain

The illness, the job loss, the wayward child

The loneliness, the divorce, the struggles unending

When you were at your lowest

You found I was your greatest gain

Tell them their pain was not in vain

They went through trials, tests, and much warfare

Thought that they would never make it

When the pain and darkness became unbearable

They clung to Me with so much tenacity

They knew that if they hadn’t had Me

Life would be meaningless

Because of our covenant they could face every onslaught coming their way

Clinging to Me

Trusting in Me

Never doubting Me

Covenant does what no man can see

Now you’re on the threshold of a new beginning

You have ran this race faithfully

Laid out before the foundations of the earth

Though it looked messy at times

With no light in sight

You held on to My words spoken over You

You like a bride waiting on your Bridegroom 

to sweep you away

You know you have paid the price

Brought the sacrifices I have asked of you

With tearstained eyes

Wedding gown way too big

Your hair a mess

Falling over your two feet

We started this journey of exploring My heart

You have found your place right in the middle somewhere

Discovered how precious and 

loved you are

When you came to the end of yourself and let Me reign free

You discovered how beautiful

surrendering can be

Your face radiant with joy

Your dress fits like a glove

No trace of the past

My love covering you like a veil

You are ready to take your place 

by My side

Looking back you know the processes were necessary

For in the wilderness your desperation drew you closer to Me

Your first love

I needed you to go on this journey

Unsure, scared, alone

Yet you never gave up

You had to experience My heart

and deep love for you

Now you can go out and represent

My heart

To a lost and dying world

Who needs an explosion of My love

It was worth all the pain 

For now you have gained

Wholeness in Me

You know Me in ways

You never thought exist

All because you died and found

Me to be true to My word

I see you running and dancing 

and leaping with joy

Shouting out a victory cry

I have resurrected every dead place in your life

You discovered My waters of rest

Do what I have called you to do

A new beginning awaits you

         ~ Ebigale Wilson 

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Warrior Bride 

Our journey of love 

has brought you to this place

Where you are totally abandoned to Me

You went through fire, 

persecution and pain

Stood firm under the onslaughts of the enemy

You took your place in My kingdom

Often standing alone

Taking your place as my warrior bride

The enemy wouldn’t back off

Neither would you

For too long he stole what belong to Me

My armour your strength

The war cry on your lips, 

pulling you through

Dancing your way through 

every onslaught, coming your way

I was your safe place 

in the midst of the storm

There were day’s you wanted to run 

back to what was familiar

I wouldn’t let you

It made you strong

You clung to Me with your last breath

At times so drained, 

but you never let go of My voice

Guiding you

Strengthening you

Cheering you on

At times you felt alone in the fight

My presence felt distant, 

but you persevere

You knew you had to bring a sacrifice 

that would cost you everything

It was worth all the frustration

It was worth all the unanswered questions

My love for you, 

wouldn’t let you give up

You grew stronger day by day

Your eyes focused on the end goal

You couldn’t compromise, 

you knew that it was a kingdom fight

That had to be won

Your obedience to Me was important

You couldn’t trade it for the opinions

of men

Many giants had to fall

You had to fight and give it your all

Generations struggled enough, 

with ghosts of the past

Day by day you were battle ready

You wouldn’t go down 

The cost was too high, 

you fought with all your might

Gained ground in the kingdom

Left your mark in heaven and hell

Our journey of love test your obedience

Our journey of love exposed your heart

Limping and crawling you persevered

I can put you on display

As a vessel of honour

Displaying My heart

It’s time to take your place

My darling daughter 

To gather the spoils

The grain and the oil

To do our wedding dance

I have found you faithful

In running this race

Joy will be your portion

My presence your rest

Forever we will be inseparable

Captivated by a love that could only be found 

in a surrendered life

Totally dead to self, 

but burning bright in Me

Our journey of love was worth all the detours

The highs and the lows

You are my warrior bride

Trained to win each fight with Me by your side

~ Ebigale Wilson

Finding Me 

Surrounded by darkness

No way of escape

Tormented by demons

Holding me hostage

I trample on love, mercy and grace

I wouldn’t allow it to stick to me

Darkness clings like a wet blanket 

I can’t shake it off

It became part of me

Through the choices I made 

And the choices that were made 

On my behalf

My heart ruled by fear and hopelessness

Not a flicker of light in sight

I am sinking deeper and deeper away in despair

Darkness took over every part of me

Dark thoughts

Dark words

Dark face

Far from the life I imagined I’d live

Then all of a sudden there You are

Like a beacon of light in the dark

Stepping into my life

You are dressed in glory

You glisten with love

I try to hide, but I am overtaken

by Your holy presence 

I am numb by the peace 

enveloping You

You take a step closer to me

Till I stand in the shadow of Your

passionate love

Darkness had to flee at the sight

of Your majesty

I am so aware of my brokenness

So aware of every disappointment

So aware of the pain I have caused You

I wait for You to judge me

Instead Your love draws me in

Giving me a glimpse of Your heart for me

An all consuming fire flowing from Your being, 

Burning away all that has clung to me

Replacing darkness with Your light

I am free at last

I am overwhelmed by Your presence

Speechless that You came looking for me

Nothing could stop You from finding me

In Your gaze I found myself

I know that I am deeply loved

My dress once torn and stained 

is now replaced with royal robes

My face once immersed with pain

Now glistens with Your love

My whole being is lavished with 

Your kindness and grace

I am free to be Your bride

I am redeemed

I am deeply loved

Nothing could stop You from finding me

~ Ebigale Wilson