The Seed We Carry

“The enemy is after the seed you carry” I heard these words loud and clear a few days ago. While talking to Papa God and going back and forth. He asked me why do I think the attacks on certain people in the Body of Christ where so horrendous and cruel over the last especially seven years. 

The enemy did everything in his power to make us despondent with one attack after the other. The attacks got more intense as time went on, because we were persistently holding on to the promises of Papa. Unknowingly Papa trained us to endure more and more pressure. Our faith grew to heights we never thought possible, our character was tested and transformed and Papa had His way in our lives in the presence of our enemies.

This was crucial training and the lessons learned will be our yoke breaking testimonies forever. The enemy tried to stop the seed that each one of us carry from growing, but he actually helped us to carry our seed full term. We now realise the battle was never about us, but what Papa has deposited in each one of us. Many personal and private sacrifices of obedience Papa asked from many of us, our lives were disrupted in different,  painful ways, but we did not give up on His dreams for us.

It was never just about walking out difficult journeys, the dark times formed Papa’s heart and character in us, that no other journey would have. We came to a place we never thought possible where our minds are at peace and our hearts are free and no amount of attacks would ever be able to take us back to our past. We have awakened to higher levels in the Spirit, we hear His voice clearly and our eyes and ears are alert to every plan of the enemy. We were trained to fight from a position of rest, knowing that every battle is the Lord’s. 

The seed we carry will impact countless people, every sphere of society, governments, nations and our families. Generations will benefit, because of the price we have paid, through our obedience.

This is the last stretch where training is fast, at times it will feel like our heads are spinning, because Papa is dealing with issues in our lives that were left unattended for so long. There will still be attacks to stop us from giving birth, but we will fight from a position of rest, because the battle is the Lords.

We will give birth to every promise Papa has for us, in the presence of our enemies.Satan could not stop us, and he knows that the seed deposited by our Father is going to set the world alight. Keep your focus, lean into Papa and rest in Papa. 

Ecclesiastes 3:1

To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven.

Revelation 12:11

And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony, and they loved not their lives unto the death.

Romans 8:19

For the earnest expectation of the creation eagerly waits for the revealing of the sons of God.

Romans 8:14

For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are the sons of God.

 

~ Ebigale Wilson

The Seed We Carry

The Journey

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Changing Me

You said You would 

change me

It came as a shock

I thought I was perfect 

Scales over my eyes

Deaf to Your voice

I thought I knew You

Hard to admit,

but I never did

Oh how I was deceived

I said all the right words

Knew my bible by heart

Yet I did not live it

I flowed in Your gifts

Yet I did not know You

I only knew what others 

told me of You

Looked through blurred lenses

While You were waiting for 

me to know You intimately

It would have happened 

sooner if I was brave enough 

to face my fears

You knew me better 

than anyone else

I lived in a bubble

A dark cloud followed 

me everywhere 

I had so many issues

I thought this was my lot

Passing down a baton of religion 

to the next generations

Oh how I was blinded

I held on to temporary fixes

Yet every time pain would 

come knock on my 

hearts door

Healing and breakthrough 

were waiting in the letting 

go of everything I held dear

The price You asked me to 

pay was too high

Then You

unannounced 

disrupted my life

You got my attention

Separated me unto Yourself 

Here I found myself facing 

every fear

That I for so long chose 

to ignore

When You looked at me

You saw the blood washed daughter You created me to be

You saw my journey of healing 

and dying many deaths

You saw me scared and crying 

and longing for the familiar 

You knew with You by my side 

I could eliminate every demon

In my deepest pain 

You interceded for me

You never let go of my hand

Not even when I begged You to

When I broke through the barricades trying to stop me

You were the Light 

surrounding me

That was the day I discovered 

that all I ever needed was 

You loving me

In my denial and selfishness 

In my rebellion and pride

You reached out to me

Using my deepest challenges 

and pain 

To bring me back to You

I will never comprehend 

the love You have for me

I wanted You to change 

everyone around me

In my ignorance I thought 

I was perfect

In Your kindness You 

reached out to me

You are so, so good to me!

~ Ebigale Wilson

Changing Me

The Journey

Beautiful Daughters

Beautified daughters are 

taking their place 

Like caterpillars we were transformed into butterflies

Ready to spread our wings

Suddenly we were summoned 

to this place of transformation

We said yes without hesitation

Though most were caught in challenging situations

We did not hesitate 

We did not look back

We did not negotiate 

We surrendered everything 

for the most important journey

Scared at first,

we took the first steps

In a direction opposite

from which we came 

A sacred path

Paved by Papa

That would eventually bring 

us to a place of fullness in Christ 

Deep pain in the cutting 

away of old mindsets

We kept our focus through 

the different processes

We learned how to overcome 

the noise in our minds

Learned how pivotal

each lesson learned was

As we moved further into 

uncharted territories 

We ran into His unprecedented greatness and splendour 

We gave birth to faith

with no boundaries

And discovered a Love that 

can make time stand still

We laid down our lives

Our reputation

Our will

Laid down our dreams 

Stood with empty hands, 

but peace in our hearts

In this new place we are entering nothing of the old will do

Something sacred,

set in stone

was birthed through 

our broken lives

A new breed will now arise

Focused on purpose

And not on her pain

New lenses she looks through 

Peace that surpasses all understanding her new 

dwelling place

We know the time of the 

fulfillment of our dreams 

is here

We are right on time

We are waiting on Papa’s 

footsteps

The voice we cannot

exist without

To lead us further into His 

dreams and purposes for us

This is the time that so many 

before us, were waiting for!

~ Ebigale Wilson

Beautiful Daughters

The Journey

Encountered Love

I don’t live there anymore

My past no longer 

my dwelling place 

The shadows no longer 

my hiding place

I encountered Love 

I encountered Light

I tasted a glimpse of my 

eternal life

I could never go back to 

my past

I know pain

I know betrayal

I know rejection

You name it,

every dark word 

I once lived

For too long I dwelled among 

the tombs of religion

Where dead men dwell

The signs of stagnation 

were obvious

Clinging to my fears

Hiding behind tears

I held on to regret and 

mistakes

Held on to bitterness

My heart enslaved 

Everyone could see my 

past on my face

Till that day the veil was removed

How amazing to dwell in 

the presence of the Father

To hear His voice every 

second of the day

Guiding, leading and 

teaching me

Oh’ I love how gently His 

love erased my past

 

Every challenge Papa 

turned into training 

Preparing me for my calling

The difficult processes 

unknowingly taught me 

to rule and to reign

Trained by Holy Spirit my 

best Friend and Helper 

Nothing came close to hiding 

in the shadow of my Father

I thought I would die in bondage

That my heart was beyond repair 

But Papa resurrected

my heart 

and my life

I could never go back to

my past

Now that I have encountered

the Love of my life!

My life an open book

Of an imperfect person

Who serves a perfect God

He paid a high price

To show me my worth 

I cannot be contained

Or boxed

Or Made still

I have to testify about my 

love for my Father!!

~ Ebigale Wilson

Encountered Love

The Journey

Life Changing Love

Through my darkest seasons

You never left my side

Holding my hand,

when I stood alone

Wiping my tears,

when I couldn’t go on

Interceding for me,

when I couldn’t pray

When I was too weak to fight

You were on the front lines

My Mighty Warrior

who never loses a fight

Day after day

Month after month

My faith grew wings

I was amazed by Your love

Forever changed by Your heart

Longing to go deeper still

Faith takes me to places

I never knew existed in You

Blind faith was birthed 

during dark times

In a God, I never saw

Yet, I see His hand

at work in my life

I know the fragrance

of His presence

The sound of His voice

Papa’s love healed every part

of my broken heart

In my highs and my lows

My deepest pain

and my joys

At times when giving up 

looked so appealing

He picks me up

Sings love songs over me

Reminding me of

His covenant with me

Indescribable is Papa’s love 

towards me

I couldn’t, but trust 

in a God so amazing

Supernatural peace birthed 

in the darkest of days

A reckless faith

I never knew could exist

A heart awakened

Longing only after

her One True Love

He takes me to places

I never thought I would visit

Higher and higher

I go with the One

who holds the whole world

in His hands

Yet, He chose

to chase after 

every hurting soul.

What love is this?

I may never know, but I know I was forever changed and overtaken by 

a God so amazing!

Papa never gives up

on His daughters!

He lures us into

His marvelous light

Where He heals our hearts

We only know who we are 

when we encounter Love

Everything we need is found 

in His transforming love!

Then we pass on the baton 

to daughter’s still in chains

Sharing our testimonies of 

the power of the Blood and 

His life changing love!

So that they too can be changed 

by Papa’s transforming love!

~ Ebigale Wilson

Life Changing Love

The Journey

Keep Your Focus – The Shift Is Here

I have an excitement in my spirit for what Papa is about to do in this season.

Papa has really done a deep work in our hearts, the scalpel went in deep to get rid of everything that might hinder us in the future.

Where Papa is taking us, our character, fruit and motives will expose us if we didn’t go through the process. 

Hearts and character training will be swift if we surrender to the process, lean into Him and spend time in the secret place.

A few days ago we had a challenge in our family. One moment we were still hurt and shocked, but the next moment, I felt something stirring within my belly and right there my flesh collided with Holy Spirit and Father did a swift work in not only me, but our family.

Things that we have been struggling with for years, Papa will deal with quickly, because He knows our desire is to change and be more like Him.

He has also been speaking to me that many of His sons and daughters feel that they have missed His visitation and promises in previous seasons.

Many feel they are no longer on Papa’s time schedule because of the detours they took or mistakes they have made.

He wants you to know that you are right where you are supposed to be.

Every mistake, ever hindrance, every attack, won’t stop His promises and dreams for you.

You are so close, keep your focus. This is a season of acceleration and suddenlies. 

In a vision I saw how we’re on our journeys, dressed in rags, tired, at the end of ourselves at times, but then without us knowing Papa would pick us up, caress and kiss our faces, then put us down to complete our journey.

I believe it’s in these times that Papa imparts His strength and joy within us to walk out our journeys in the midst of our trials and brokenness.

Father is also revealing secrets to us through dreams, visions and prophetic words, this is to help us to stay on course and to keep our focus, in the midst of the enemy raging.

We already know what the outcome will be, so rest in Papa, while He fights your battles.

His thoughts are higher then ours. Papa will bring us to the place of birthing if we are led by His spirit.

May the joy of the Lord be your strength as you walk through the last stretch of your wilderness.

Father is cheering us on, not to give up because He knows we were obedient and faithful in the midst of our pain and struggles.

He is so proud of His remnant, set apart bride that didn’t give in under the pressure and persecution of their enemies.

Keep your focus, let Papa be your place of rest, the shift is here!

Romans 8:14

For all who are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God.

Nehemiah 8:10

The joy of the Lord is my strength.

~ Ebigale Wilson

Keep Your Focus – The Shift Is Here

Our Flesh Crucified

Oh how many times have 

I begged Papa to take my 

bitter cup away

I wished for a normal life

With no ups and downs

No trials and tribulations

Oh how I wished I could 

just cruise through life!

I envied other women’s journeys

With no major storms

No time spent in the furnace

No demons to fight

Many cruise through life

While it seems like I am 

always in a battle

Or just exiting one

Looking back I am glad 

Papa ignored my plight

Through my painful journey 

I discovered my purpose

I gleaned and grew from 

every dark time

Papa used my enemies 

to train me

To form His heart and character within me

Papa’s plans are only to 

prosper us

Never to harm us

The wilderness can be 

our most fruitful time

Only when we surrender 

to the process

We lean into Papa

Seek His presence

Even when the attacks 

rage around us

We live from our spirit 

Where deep only follows 

the voice of Deep

Our flesh crucified

We know our lives are safe 

in His hands

Papa will bring us to the 

place of birthing every dream

He has for us!!!

Our challenging journeys 

might seem hard and endless

When we think we have 

arrived 

Papa says no, there’s more 

to learn

More idols to let go of

Till our hearts are healed

And Papa’s presence is embedded in us

We look through different lenses 

at life

We are thankful for each 

dark time, each enemy

Valuable lessons were learned

We paid each price Papa 

asked of us

To give birth to yoke breaking testimonies

The wilderness builds our faith in unimaginable ways

Every person powerfully used

by God

Had to go through the pit, palace and prison

Till we pass every character and heart test

Till we can say “You meant evil against me, but God meant it for my good!!!”

~ Ebigale Wilson

Our Flesh Crucified

Her Heart Was Healed

She was searching for someone 

to heal her

To look pass the smile 

on her face

To see the longing to 

belong in her eyes 

A heart broken into a 

thousand pieces

No one saw behind her 

fake smiles

Though the pain in her heart

was on her lips

Loud and clear the negative 

sound vibrated

Yet ears could not hear and

eyes could not see

For they too weren’t free

She gave her heart to 

everyone offering her

a glimmer

of love

She loved without boundaries

She gave love her all

Surrounded by flawed 

human beings

Who could not give her what she desperately needed

Years went by, but the hurt remained

Like a dagger through 

her heart

Severe was the pain

Depression, sorrow, anxiety 

She lived through them all.

Would her heart ever taste 

contentment and peace?

Temporary fixes made it worse

No one took the time to show her, her worth

She never knew Papa held 

the keys to all her voids

She never basked in His healing presence

She never tasted the transforming love 

of our Father

Till the day she reached 

her lowest point

Darkness stole so much

of her

She had nowhere to turn

Only to Papa

She was amazed how she looked through His eyes

She traded her rags for a beautiful dress

Her heart was healed

Her life transformed

Papa’s love searches for the broken, the downtrodden, 

the rejected

He specializes in transforming lives,

Making powerful testimonies out 

of broken lives.

~ Ebigale Wilson

Her Heart Was Healed

The Journey

One Word From The Throne Room

I see them everyday

Your beautiful daughters 

Painful pasts written over their faces

Yet, I prefer to look the 

other way

Blinded by my own 

life and challenges

I don’t take the time to 

see what You see

Hear what You hear

I don’t reach out with Your 

heart beating through me

I go on with life

Forget that I am Your mouthpiece walking the earth

I saw her at sport events

Made my mind up that 

we would not be friends

Sometimes when we’re healed 

we are drawn to the strong

Forgetting that we also needed healing and love to become strong

The hurt in her eyes 

haunted me

Holy Spirit spoke to me

He is persistent when 

we are not

I thought I’ll never get a 

chance to convey His heart 

and His love to her 

Till a cold Saturday morning

Papa set me up and I had 

no excuse

I spoke His heart to her

As the words left my mouth

Her eyes filled with tears 

and so were mine

I could feel her pain, but also

Papa’s presence that invaded her heart

Setting alight a precious daughters heart

Bringing hope in an instant

Oh how relentless the love 

of our Father

I asked for forgiveness

For not portraying Papa’s heart

For being so consumed and distracted by my own journey…

Another lesson learned on 

the journey

We train, we grow, go higher

We should never think we 

have arrived

We are here to bring hope to the wounded and hurting

Grace separates us

Papa’s love connects us

Purpose always has to triumph over challenges we face

Not our emotions, our fears, our circumstances

We are called to be Papa’s representatives

Sensitive to the Holy Spirit’s voice

Papa needs His army to be ready 

at all times

There is so much brokenness around us

People in need of healing 

and hope

One word from the throne room

can change a life forever

I know…

I am a living testimony of that.

~ Ebigale Wilson

One Word From The Throne Room

The Journey

Guard Your Heart

The sound of her voice 

echoed through my mind 

“Guard your heart!”

She would say

“Guard your heart, Ebigale”

She wanted to make sure 

that I remember the power

behind these valuable words

That it finds its way through 

my mind, my heart,

my whole being

Oh how I would need these words on my journey to healing

The different stages of going

higher and deeper

Of letting go of what I thought

was important

Embracing only what Papa

allowed me to

Letting go of my dreams

my way of doing things

Till I stood empty handed,

naked, alone

Yet, I owned a peace

that surpassed all understanding 

I knew it was my time

for a visitation from heaven

To heal my brokenness

To discover how beautiful 

and precious I was

in the sight of my Father

To discover His plans and

purposes for me

I would not let anyone or anything stop me from the

most important visitation

Over the years her voice 

would pop up whenever 

I wanted to relive my past

Or when painful challenges

would stare me in the face

Or when it was hard

to forgive and let go

Her words quoted from scripture were like pearls to me

I had to guard my heart

I couldn’t let my past find 

its way back to my heart

You had me where You 

always longed for me to be

Alone, away from the crowd

I could sit for hours in

Your sweet presence

I could dance to the sound 

of Your love

I could cry my eyes out for 

all the mistakes I have made

Yet, I always found You

by my side

With arms wide open

Not a trace of the judgement 

I so many times expected

When I thought I had

lost it all 

When my heart was hurting

beyond repair

You resurrected every 

dream You had for me

I  have gained so much more

Than what I laid down!

~ Ebigale Wilson

Guard Your Heart

The Journey