We featured Gypsy Dallas Smith on our May Restoration Stories but wanted to share more of her wonderful testimony with you again.
I am a people person, always have been. People intrigue me, and I have a desire to know about each person. Probably why one of my favorite jobs was at the mall. I would meet practically every type of person on a daily basis. And it some how filled my heart to get to know each of them and somehow make there day special. I didn’t always understand why, but as I look back, I can see how God was able to use that to speak to many who would not have been spoken to otherwise.
Lately as I look around, I see all kinds of people. They range in age and background. Some have money, some are doing there best to get by. Some are very educated and some have little schooling for one reason or another. But, one thing that they all have in common is that they all have a past. As far as I know, none of us, were just beamed down one day from the heavens.
And with a past, comes some sort of baggage.
Now, maybe some of you only have good baggage, and that’s great. But, it has been my experience that most folks tend to carry the beat up, dirty, stinkin’ kind of baggage from their past with them as they go through this life. I mean the good stuff is in there, but our day to day lives tend to be affected more dominantly by the things that went wrong in our past, the things that we would change if given the opportunity. And this kind of baggage, is the kind that is heavier than we were ever meant to carry.
The kind that causes us to have mental, spiritual and even physical issues that change the very way that we live our lives. If we let it.
When I was around 7 or 8, I had an experience happen to me that changed who I was. I don’t speak of it often, unless the Lord brings it to mind for use in His Kingdom, so not many people know this about me. It was something that happened with a man who crossed a line physically in an appropriate way, and for me, it was like a switch was flipped on in my life that I was not emotionally or mentally equipped to deal with.
And here is what it ultimately did. It changed who I was on the inside. And it changed who I became on the outside. One moment after it happened, I was changed. The little girl who was innocent and care free, became confused and tainted…in a moment. And it muddied up everything else in my life as I went forward. It took me down a road that I never should have gone down. And I began making life altering decisions based on this one moment in time.
The enemy began to use this encounter as a weapon of confusion against me for many years. And it contaminated the young woman that I was supposed to become.
In that moment, which was literally a smaller time frame than it takes to microwave a cup of coffee, the enemy tried to take my purpose.
In John 10:10, it says that the enemy comes to “steal, kill, and destroy”. And on that day, he tried to do just that, take the purpose from a little girl, before she even knew what the word “purpose” meant.
And just like he has done to so many others, starting way back in the garden of Eden, he handed me a set of lenses and said “put these on, and you’ll see things more clearly”.
But, really, everything and everyone began to look distorted and I became very confused about life and the value that I held in this world.
I became broken on the inside.
Years later, the Lord showed me something that changed the way that I processed my original experience.
He took me back to the place where it all began, to the place where I was hurt. He asked me if I felt justified to keep feeling hurt and angry. I told Him that I did. I was hurt, and I was just a kid, so, yes, I deserved to feel hurt. I was a victim so if I went into a court of law, I would win the “case” against the person that hurt me.
He said, “you are right, you are completely justified on all levels. But…if you choose to carry ‘being right’ in your bag, there are things attached”. What did He mean?
He said that if I continued to carry my hurt, my confusion, my anger, my trauma, justified or not. I had to also carry shame, bitterness, heaviness, brokenness, and all the other things that were attached to it. And ultimately, the enemy would use those things as a doorstop, to prop open the door of my life to the things that HE wanted me to carry…I would then be serving HIS purpose. He said that I would carry it in my mind, my spirit…and ultimately my body. And eventually, it would contaminate everything in my life going forward, it would even make me sick in body if I continued down that road.
And with that choice, I could never grow in Him…not fully. The weight of what I was carrying, would be too heavy for me to bear and go forward in Him. I would continue to walk in circles, never forward, never completely free. It would be like a bungee cord that would pull me right back to the start every time I tried to step into what He had for me.
I began to cry, but through the tears, I began to think about what I valued more my broken past…or HIS victorious future. I wanted what God had for me and I wanted to be free from all that the enemy had put in my bag so many years ago. And once I understood, that I had to lay one down, to pick the other things up, it got easier.
And I was able to move forward.
It was on that day, that I laid my hurt, brokenness, confusion, insecurities, anger, and all else that came with it, at the foot of the Cross. Since I did that, God has been able to use me in ways that I never dreamed.
I will not say that I never revisit those wounds. But, I will say that when I do, it is much like a scar. It is numb to the touch, and it is only visible enough, that I am able to show others how far God has brought me so that they can see hope for the wounds that they may be carrying.
See, scars show up, so that others can see where we’ve been, but they are no longer bleeding wounds, when our healing is complete.
I will not allow the enemy continue to use them as a weapon against me. I will not even give them a forum, unless God is using them to help someone else. I will not speak of them as though they belong to me BECAUSE THEY BELONG TO JESUS! And if I continually revisit them, it’s like I’m taking them back, and I don’t want them back.
I had to forgive the person that hurt me, because hurt people, hurt people, and to be forgiven, we must forgive.
My prayer for whoever is seeing this, is that if you are hurt, ask the Lord to give you strength and wisdom to let go of that hurt. Unload your bag of hurts at His feet. Don’t allow the enemy to use them against you for one more second!
And let Him heal those places in you that have kept you going in circles.
A tethered bird can never leave the ground…It can never fly.
You were meant to fly.
Don’t settle for the enemies sad imitation of life on the ground, lean in and let God give you wings!
In Him is not only Life, but LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY!! (John 10:10)
“He RESTORES my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.” (Psalm 23:3)
~Stephanie Copeland Palmer
“Leave Them There”
How many of us have had, or still have, such incredible Pain, gut wrenching pain?
Denying its existence is as absurd as denying we have an enemy. What we don’t do is allow pain control. Jabez made Pain known. Both he and Job give us HOPE, right? Anyone else, besides me, ready for Restoration?
Personally, I have known pain, through uncommon losses, since I was a little girl. I lost my best friend when I was only 5 years old, my sister and my father before I was even 20 years old. Then nearly losing my own life in my 20’s while pregnant in an abusive marriage. I’ve lost family, friends, suffered pain all of my life. In the last year and a half, I’ve lost my mother, my pastor/prophet Kim Clement, and most recently my little girl in fur, Mya. But, my deepest pain comes from losing my only child, having my daughter leave consumed with anger, 5 very long years ago. Clearly, pain has been a part of my process and without a doubt, I have questions. Who doesn’t?
But, in the midst of it all, there is a deep love for God, wrapped in mammoth size trust, laced with eternal purpose. It doesn’t mean I understand; I don’t. I don’t have all the answers. I hurt in ways no one knows but God; yet, I choose to “trust”.
One thing I have learned; I have learned the importance of altars.
I’ve learned that NO ONE can take what I offer to God. I have offered much to HIM on those altars, including my daughter. I gave her to Him before she was ever born and several times since. So, again, with my heart aching, I lift her to God saying,
“I will not offer YOU that which cost me nothing.”
I’ve also learned, there is another altar and I can’t forget it. I must build this altar and then I must crawl up on it myself. Just as I am. Because it’s me God wants, just me, all of me.
“So, Here I am Lord. Consume me; Withholding Nothing.”
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I’ve suffered near death experiences through abuse from the hand of man and my own choices- I am only alive because of the Father.
After hitting my knees crying out to the Father “Help me I can’t do this anymore,” HE, after allowing me to walk 24-years in rebellion, addiction and tragedy, stopped time and reached inside of me and pulled 24 years of victim mentality, addiction (smoking cigarettes and pot, drinking, occasional cocaine, and sexual desires) right out of me. YHSVH began at an accelerated rate restoring all that the enemy has taken and multiplied His goodness.
After the Angel of The Lord came to me in 2011 revealing who I was as a prophet and oracle, He began to train and equip me for the revealing of this position, laying a foundation for what was to come. I have been anointed and equipped with the honor to serve the King of kings, Lord of lords, opening the blind eyes, deaf ears and command the lame to walk into the deeper, hidden mysteries of heaven, revealing our true identity. It is here, His original blueprints over our lives and all of creation manifest on earth as it is in heaven.
I am a sister, mother, daughter, wife, YHSVH (Jesus) friend, minister, Kingdom Dweller, Son(position) of G-d, Author of a New upcoming book “NAVIGATING THE ASHES-Discovering Your Blueprints”, owner of Arising Sons of God and public speaker. I operate from the Government of Heaven as an administrator/legislator—All for the advancement of the Kingdom of Heaven, as it is all about Him and His Glory to be revealed. All of Him, none of me.
Some Scriptures I really love:
He said to them, “Therefore every teacher of the law who has become a disciple in the kingdom of heaven is like the owner of a house who brings out of his storeroom new treasures as well as old.” Matthew 13:52 NIV
For in Him we live and move and exist [that is, in Him we actually have our being], as even some of your own poets have said, ‘For we also are His children Acts 17:28 AMP
But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6:33 KJV
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However, I want you to know that it has only been since the beginning of this year that my writing ministry has taken off.
I used to write publicly for my local newspaper (faith articles) for 8 years. I had a very active ministry and was a licensed minister.
After 17years of a very unhealthy toxic marriage I went through a horrible divorce.
I gave up everything, including my ministries. I laid it all at Jesus feet. I was lied about, shunned, and condemned and ran into a cave by Jezebel and her cronies. I was completely stripped and devastated.
But Jesus never left me.
I have been in hiding and healing for the last 5 years. I have not served in any ministry nor have I become a member of any church. I have allowed the Holy Spirit to minister to me. I have been in a deep season of consecration fasting and prayer. It hasn’t all been spiritual though.
I was stubborn and God had and still has a lot of work to do in me. Years of ridicule, abuse, control and manipulation do not go away overnight.
Jesus has been such a gentleman and gently pulling one layer away at a time. I am sharing this with you because I want you to know that we all have our seasons that we must go through.
Some longer than others.
Over the last 2 years I became a Personal Trainer and opened my own fitness studio. It was a blessed business where I had to turn clients away I was so busy. But secretly I missed writing. God asked me to lay it down. So I did at the end of last year.
Since the beginning of March I have had more happen to me, through me and for me in ministry than I can even wrap my head around.
God is opening doors that I could never open on my own. He is making room for my gifts of writing and stretching me through making videos and teaching through webinars.
Friends, it is all happening so fast and I am in awe of what God is doing.
My prophetic voice has opened like never before.
God is RESTORING everything I lost and gave up. He is blessing me and I am so excited for this time.
I used to look at others being blessed and used by God and wonder, “when is my time Lord?”
Well, I can tell you the time is now. Many of you have experienced the same hardships, the same cave, the same wilderness time.
I am here to tell you that we are in a season of RESTORATION God is restoring.
He is paying you back. You will get back double for your trouble in less time. You are not going to have to work hard for these blessings. You won’t have to go looking for opportunities, they will come looking for you. Your time is now, your healing is now, your blessings are now, your opportunities are now!! We are in a season of NOW.
A season of suddenlies.
Get ready for the downpour.
God isn’t saying look at what I am GOING to do for you. No, He is saying, “look at what I HAVE done for you.”
You are going to be completely undone this year with Gods goodness. It will overtake you and you will be on your face in awe of His love for you.
Get ready NOW!
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. ~ Romans 8:28 NKJV
~ Gypsy Dallas-Smith
Year Of Restoration
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The adversity he has overcome and is still overcoming daily has not been an easy path.
Growing up amidst the grips of alcohol on both his parents; Earl lost his mother at just 10 years old due to her alcoholism.
Alcohol was all Earl knew.
Alcohol was his coping mechanism taught at a very young age.
Earl’s dad Bo, would later only become sober after two DWI’s.
As history has a way of repeating itself within families, Earl continued on that same destructive path that caused his wife of 20 + years and his two children to be separated from him and at his lowest point he chose to drown his sorrows of spending the upcoming Holiday alone with a day of drinking.
November 27th, 2013 was the day that resulted in him making an almost fatal mistake of drinking and driving. Although he doesn’t remember the events, he spent 43 days in a coma and doctors doubted he would survive after he suffered what doctors refer to as an internal decapitation.
Earl is not sure of the significance of the 43 days lost in a Coma, the loss of his independence, the loss of his main source of income by losing his job of 15 years, and the loss of his marriage of 23 years, but he trusts God fully with the plans and purposes of it all.
Although his story didn’t turn out as he had wished or planned, he was charged with a DWI and had to re-learn how to walk and talk, but is thankful for each day that he is still here and given another chance at life.
Earl is learning to live life within a new normal. He is learning to trust God and grow deeper with the Lord.
Earl doesn’t dwell on all the loss as he has now gained so much more.
Earl has been delivered completely from his desire for alcohol and is determined to break the hold of alcohol on his life, his families life, and future generations. He desires to educate others on the importance of not drinking and driving.
He hopes by sharing his testimony it can help others overcome their struggles and losses.
I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. ~ Philippians 4:13
“Be still, and know that I am God. ~ Psalm 46:10
Even in hard times when things are not going the way you want have faith that God has bigger plans ahead. -Earl 8:15
To schedule Earl to speak at your school or youth events-contact us at Restored Ministries.
For March Restoration Stories we have a special treat for you.
The Delusion ladies headed out and had some car trouble. A nice man pulled them over to help and Laura Gallier captured his testimony on the video below.
“It became more than roadside assistance. It was a divine appointment we didn’t expect on our way to our destination.”
“Sometimes disappointments can be made into appointments.”
You can check out the Delusion by Laura Gallier and the project we are working on HERE
Coming soon to a bookstore and coming sometime not as soon to a theater near you
Lead image is us hanging with next new friend Tommy Brasher at Brasher Motor Company of Weimar, TX
He helped us get the job done faster and we got to our destination just a little past check in time.
There were times I would feel so unsure about my life, and I would often question God. I would ask God time and time again “why me?” Why were all of these things happening in my life?
It seemed like every time I turned around something bad kept happening.
I often remember thinking to myself, all I wanted was to have the typical life: the American dream. Get married, have children, a beautiful home, a nice car, and a decent job.
I really felt like I wasn’t asking for too much.
It seemed like I started out going in that direction and then suddenly there was a change in plans.
I remember asking God to use me to be a blessing to His people and His Kingdom.
I didn’t realize what was going to transpire in my life, in order for God to do what I had asked Him to do.
I’ve always had a heart for families and marriages. I never liked hearing about divorce and families being broken up. I told God how tired I was of seeing the devil destroy marriages and families.
With that being said the devil launched a serious attack on my marriage and my family.
I experienced so much pain and hurt in my marriage. I’ve had to deal with infidelity, trust being broken, having un-forgiveness, and communication being totally shut down.
I’ve also experienced several deaths back to back.
One of the hardest deaths I’ve had to overcome was the death of the man who was my spiritual leader, my mentor, my confidant, and my uncle, we shared a bond like no other.
For the first time in my life I felt my heart truly break. I just couldn’t seem to recover. It took me a long time to bounce back spiritually because I leaned and depended on him so much spiritually.
I tried so hard to work on my marriage, fix my husband, and recover from a devastating loss all at the same time. It seemed like the more I tried, the more I failed at it. I felt like all the fight had just been completely drained out of me.
Notice I said “I”, I had to finally come to the realization that it was going to take God to change the situation not me.
I also had to come to the painful reality that I went about everything completely wrong.
I did not do any of it the right way which is God’s way.
I remember being filled with so much hurt, pain, anger, regret, guilt, and shame. I felt like such a failure in life because my American Dream had turned into what seemed to me a nightmare, I felt so helpless and defeated. I remember my grandmother telling me “you’re not going through all of this for you, you’re going through all of this to help someone else.”
Then she gave me the scripture Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to His purpose.”
I remember asking my grandmother and God, “How could anything good come out of all of this? How am I going to be able to help someone?”
In the midst of all that was going on I can remember hearing a small still voice saying “I’ve called you to greatness”. I was so confused, (because again looking at my circumstances) I just couldn’t see how that would be possible. I’m so grateful to God for His love, His grace, His mercy, and His strength. I had no idea of what God was about to do in my life!
The first change that began to happen in my life was my relationship with God, it got personal. Through the death of my uncle I began to realize I had completely relied on his relationship with God and did not have one of my own. The same relationship I had with my uncle, was the type of relationship that I needed to have with God for myself.
So I started to learn about God and His ways for myself. I also found out my true identity in God and I began to get a deeper revelation about God’s word and His promises.
Then I came to the realization that my circumstances did not determine my destiny, they just played a role in me moving towards my destiny in which I’ll get into later.
I also realized, that had it not been for everything that I was going through I wouldn’t know God like I know Him now, which is definitely a beauty!
After the shift in my relationship with God, I was truly a changed woman. I was so broken, but God stepped in and started putting my broken pieces back together again. I no longer felt weak and defeated, I began to feel whole and complete. This time God was responsible for it, not my husband or my uncle.
Now I realized my uncle’s death or my husband’s actions could not change or alter who I am in God, and that it is God who keeps me together in times of tragedy or adversity.
Now I was able to deal with trials and tribulations in much better way than I had before.
Next, God started dealing with me about love, His unconditional love! This is what caused me to really want to forgive my husband. You see everything that was being done to me in the natural was exactly what I was doing to God in the spiritual realm. This painful realization had given me a completely different outlook on my relationship with God, my husband, and my children.
There Was Beauty Birthed Out Of My Pain.
One day I was sitting in my Bishop’s office sharing with him what I had spoke on at a women’s conference I had attended the week before. Bishop Miles said “Sister Lee people need to hear this, will you teach Marriage N More on Friday?” I said “sure Bishop!” I taught it about two more times after that when Bishop Miles came to me and said “Sister Lee I’ve prayed about it and God told me to place you over the Marriage N More Ministry.” All I could say was “wow” I went home that night and I prayed about it and that’s when God brought it all back to me.
It was that night everything that I had gone through, my grandmother’s words, the scripture Roman’s 8:28, and the still small voice calling me to greatness all came flooding back to my mind. I began to just cry and thank God.
I didn’t understand it then, but now it had become crystal clear. I had finally gotten the answer to my “why”. I had finally realized why my “American Dream” had gotten interrupted, because it did not line up with God’s plan for my life.
It was clear that God had a greater plan and purpose for my life, than my “American Dream.”
I then realized when God calls you to greatness there’s a lot that comes with the call.
That’s when God gave me a scripture Isaiah 61:3, To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the planting of the Lord, that He might be glorified.
It’s the pain of those trials and tribulations that fuels my passion for the Marriage N More ministry.
I’m so humbled that God has given me the awesome privilege of being a vessel for Him to use to equip His people with the tools they need to build healthy successful relationships with Him, spouses, children, co-workers, extended family, and friends.
~ Audrey Lee
Why? Because this was a new beginning.
Even though it was another two years before I went through deliverance with my Pastor, this was a day to celebrate. One of the very first sermons I remember my pastor preaching was on the Real “F” word (I’ll never forget it).
I thought to myself, no way, no how, was this happening.
I could NEVER forgive what had been done to me!!!
The staff gave the congregation sticky notes as we entered the church. As he went through his sermon, he was saying, I know you’ve been hurt, I know you’ve been treated badly, but you have to forgive the person/persons that have done this to you. I was literally bawling my eyes out thinking ‘how does he know all this about me’.
He said, you were given a sticky note when you came in today, I want you to write down the one person that has hurt you the most, the one thing that is tearing you up inside and I want you to bring it up here and put it on the stage, and then we are going to pray forgiveness and we are going to break those chains and we are going to move on.
He continued, I know you’re thinking why should I forgive this person, they are the one that hurt me, they should apologize, not me, but you have to get past this and the only way to do so is to FORGIVE.
As I continued crying my eyes out, I just could not bring myself to write my husband’s name on this sticky note, so I thought of someone else, something else, that was very low on the pain scale, but still held an anchor on me of anger and hatred.
I walked up to the stage, I placed my sticky note, and we prayed, and I continued crying thinking deep down, that what I really felt most hurt by was my husband. (we were not divorced yet, but he was gone overseas already at this point)
I went back to the church a few more times, but each time, the sermons were speaking to me and had me crying and I kept thinking, how does this guy up here (the Pastor) know EVERYTHING about me.
So I quit going, because the pain of his sermons reaching me deep down, was just too much to bear.
Over the course of the next 2 years, my life was a roller coaster of deep valleys and small mountains.
More valleys than mountains as I struggled as a single mom with a behaviorally, head strong child, working, mortgage, financial worries, and going through a divorce. I began to drink a lot more alcohol to drown out the pain, to the point of passing out most nights.
Then one night in November 2013, feeling like a failure because I was divorced and still single, I had gone to a sports bar with some friends and had a few too many, like most other nights.
I was in a very low valley at that point, and as I drove myself a mile and half down the road to get home, drunk, and crying my eyes out and screaming at God ‘why? Why are you doing this to me? Why are you making my life so miserable? Why do I deserve this? I am a good person, I work hard, I’m a good mom, why God why? I just want to be happy, is that too much to ask?’ I was beating my steering wheel to death as I was driving and yelling at God. I pulled in my garage, and I said to God, ‘I’m done!! I can’t take this pain anymore!! I just want to die!’ I left my car running, I closed the garage and I placed my head on the steering wheel, still crying a river.
About 30 seconds later, I heard a voice, it said, ‘Dawn, turn the car off, and go inside and go to bed.’ I lifted my head, looked around, and said, ‘ok.’ And I did just that. I went inside, and went to bed.
Over the course of the next few months I kept telling myself over and over, ‘I need to start going to church, I need to get right with God’, but I just could not bring myself to get there.
Finally I gave myself enough lead way and said, ok, I’m going to start going to church in the New Year, and I worked myself up to it for weeks, and then come January 2014, I made my commitment to go to church every weekend, and I quit making excuses and I reluctantly went every Sunday.
The struggle was real, my daughter was not having it, she kicked and screamed EVERY Sunday. I would show up at church in tears many Sundays because the struggle was soooo real. And the volunteers at the church would recognize my struggles, and they would pray over us. As the next few months went by it got easier. Someone approached me one day and said you should meet with the Pastor, she can help you with some of your challenges. Not really knowing what they meant, I agreed to set up a time to meet because I needed help and I knew it.
The first meeting she told me that I needed to make a list of every person I could think of that had hurt me, that I was angry with, that I had grudges against and we were going to pray over each situation to forgive them…..
Here we go again with ME forgiving THEM. Reluctantly, I agreed.
Through many tears, much stress and heartache, and near death, it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do.
To forgive the person/persons who treated me so badly, who cheated on me, who lied to me over and over again, who left me abandoned with a child that I loved yet resented so badly, I had so much anger, so much hatred and so much resentment!
I hated myself, I hated every aspect of my life.
My pastors taught me that my daughter is a child of God (no matter who she was biologically) and HE would ALWAYS provide for her and they taught me that I must first forgive, even though I wasn’t at fault.
This was difficult. I struggled for years.
How could I forgive when I did nothing wrong, they needed to apologize…. NOT ME!
Finally I listened to them, finally I forgave, and FINALLY I felt the chains that bonded me to sorrow, self-pity, anger, resentment, and hurt, be broken.
Finally I felt free, happy, and loved.
I felt a stronger connection with my daughter, and we have worked so hard together to build a strong relationship/friendship that is nowhere near perfect, but 100 x better than what it was.
There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t thank God, my church and pastors for all the blessings in my life.
There also isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t pray that simple prayer that my pastors taught me for forgiveness.
You can do it too.
“Dear Heavenly Father, I CHOOSE to forgive ______, and I release them from all judgement. In Jesus name, amen.”
Until you do this, to whomever you feel hurt, angry or have a grudge against, you may never know the TRUE feeling of freedom.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. -Matthew 6:33