The Story I Tell

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Micah Tyler – The Story I Tell

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Restoration Stories – Emily Rosen

I have gained and lost 100 pounds

a few times

Up and down, down and up

My body has stretched

and shrunk rapidly

More than I knew

it could

Definitely more

than I ever wanted it to

To those who have never

had their weight fluctuate dramatically

it is hard for me to try and explain

what it’s like to be the same person

in so many different bodies

And it is really hard to explain

what it’s like

to have people treat you

completely differently

based solely

on how they see you

and your body

I remember

arriving at college

painfully slim

eager to please

and hungry

And I remember

when my best friend

passed away unexpectedly

just a few months

into my freshman year

finding myself eating

out of garbage bins

I put on 30 pounds that month

I couldn’t stop eating

I would stuff my face quite literally

till I was so full I would pass out

almost blacking out

from a food coma

and the pain of being so full

and so empty

simultaneously

I have been so thin

I could only shop

in the children’s section

for pants that fit me

And I have been so big

I could no longer fit into a size 16

It is not a fallacy

that people treat people differently

based on how they see them

and what they make that mean

I remember walking down

the hallways of my college dorm

50 pounds heavier than I had been that fall

and people who once greeted me gleefully

pretending not to see me at all

I was bigger

taking up more space

and felt invisible

When I was smaller

I would hear the whispers

the judgements

the speculations

and was constantly being questioned

about what I ate

And I was often celebrated

and attacked

in the same breath

by women who wanted to know

“my secret”

I haven’t weighed myself in 5+ years now

I plan to never weigh myself again

My weight has stabilized

drifting up and down a little

seasonally

But it’s so important to note

that weight

is not

an indication of healing

not necessarily

often not at all

I didn’t know what my body would look like

when I finally stopped starving, binging and purging

I had to trust it would find its way

and that was the hardest deep breath

I ever had to take

As I got healthier

I gained weight

And I remember sitting on the floor

of the bathroom

often

willing myself

not to purge

It was so hard

especially as people started commenting

on my weight gain

assuming I was binging

when I was actually eating less

than I had in years

I do want to stress that

someone’s weight

tells you very little about their relationship with food

There can be such a wide range of reasons

psychological, emotional, mental, hormonal, biological

for why someone’s weight

is what it is

I have been told

I looked “average” and “normal”

even “very healthy”

when I was secretly purging

60 times a day

I have been told I was too thin

when I was eating plenty

but was just so lit up by life

and in love with everything

I was rapidly burning off

everything that crossed my lips

In this picture

I was eating no more than 1,200 calories a day

and working out an hour a day

But my body was so freaked

it refused to drop

even the littlest bit of weight

It was sick of my abuse

and simply refused

to shift even a little

We do not know what someone “should” weigh

We do not know anything

about what is going on for a person

internally

just by looking at them

And we aren’t doing anyone a favor

by judging them

telling them how they should be different

or assuming we know

what is healthy for them

“Tough love” when it comes to body size

is often just a backhanded way

to make shaming okay

And as far as I am concerned

body shaming is never okay

Not to mention

it never actually helps people

get where they want to go

even if they do want to change

The road will always inform the destination

So my suggestion:

Get curious instead

with those around you

and yourself

Our challenges with food and body

are a doorway into

what might really be going on

They’re not something getting in our way

They are the way

And in my experience

they are presenting

for exquisitely tender reasons

reasons that might otherwise be missed

in the business of our day to day

Be gentle

Be kind

Be generous

Be smart

This is how we get to the heart of the matter

always with love and respect

for infinite mystery

I know for one

the girl in this picture

would have so appreciated

a question

instead of

endless assumptions

I imagine often

how different my twenties

would have been

if I knew what I know

now

and if I had been

questioned sincerely

instead of told often

that something was wrong with me

I suppose in many ways

if not all ways

this is why I share in the way I do

so those like me

don’t start thinking

they are crazy too

We do things for a reason

you and me

and there is nothing wrong with you

for reacting

and taking care of yourself

in the ways you know how to

It just might be time to do things

a little differently

if you are wanting something different

Be willing to go deep my friends

Be willing to do the work

And learn to love

the beautiful mystery

that is your body

❤️ Emily Joy Rosen

Image above of Emily referenced in her post

Lead image is Emily now.

Connect with Emily at The Empowered Woman

Chowder Time

Shrimp Corn Potato Chowder

4 white potatoes cubed

White mushrooms finely chopped

1/2 white onion

3 stalks celery

2 carrots

1 bunch green onions (reserve some for garnish)

Sautéed veggies in butter and

Cajun seasoning or seafood seasoning

Cut 4 ears of corn off cob

Sauté corn with 1/2 large jalapeño seeded

3 lbs shrimp or crawfish sautéed

Combine everything and add 1 1/2 cartons of chicken stock, veggie stock or seafood stock/broth

Add 1/2 cup heavy cream.

I place it all in a big crockpot and keep on warm so the family can enjoy it as they come and go.

For a special treat make some cheddar biscuits to go with the chowder!

~ XXOO Michelle Bollom

Listen

WORTHY THOUGHT: God’s heart holds a heavenly kingdom of wisdom, love, and joy that He wants to share with you if you will listen. Fix your mind on His Words, And the God of peace will be with you.

“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable— if anything is excellent or praiseworthy— think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me— put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”~Philippians 4:8-9

~ Angela Lipe-Pattengill

Overcome Evil With Good

Paul was such a fantastic man and teacher. In Romans 12:20, Paul stated, “To the contrary, “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for it is by so doing you will heap burning coals on his head.”Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.”

It seems natural to become offended by others who have hurt us, judged us, haven’t agreed with us, or don’t live in a way that we think that they should. I have had many moments where I have become offended and not only by the people in the world but even those who are dear and closest to me.

I am wondering what life could look like if we chose to live in the teachings of Paul? What if we decided to investigate the reasons why a person behaved poorly against us instead of wasting time being offended by them? What if we chose to live out the message of love in the way that Jesus did?

Jesus, thank you for providing your message of love. Thank you for loving all of your children, no matter where they’re positioned in their life, or what they have done in the past. Thank you for loving us even when we seem unlovable. You were the perfect example, and we are incapable of fully understanding such a love as yours. As we learn more, by who you are, may we choose to deny ourselves and take up your cross. In your precious holy name, Amen.

Baring His Beauty,

Tiffany Thomas

My Faith Fireball

You know

I hold the whole earth

in My hand

I move the planets

I put the stars in place

I calm the stormy seas

Will any challenge that you’re

struggling with, be too hard for Me?

Or come as a surprise to Me?

No, never My child

I knew you before you were born

I knitted you together in your mother’s womb

I was so excited about your birth

I had so many plan’s and dreams for you

Then life happened

I knew it would

I planned every detour,

Every stop sign I erect

You thought it was for your bad

but I knew it would be

for your good in the end

I only have good plan’s for you My child

Plan’s to prosper and not to harm you

Your future is hidden in Me

Many times your pain and tears

were too much to bear

Many, many times you let go

of My hand because you didn’t know

that there was purpose in your pain

Hadn’t you gone through

the processes of life

You would not have been

the person you are today

I smile when I look at you

I am amazed at the person

you are becoming

You’re like a light in the dark

A safe place for the hurt and rejected

You are My faith fireball

It trickles over to every one

you come into contact with

You step into the unknown territories

Recovering what was stolen

You don’t back down

The processes made you discover

how precious you are

You discovered your strength

in the midst of your pain

Discovered your worth

through rejection and loss

Discovered how valuable you are

when I carried you

through many challenges

Would you have been part

of My endtime bride

if your life was perfect

and without any challenges?

No lessons learned

No growth

Your sword gathering dust

You just walking the earth

without sending demons to flight

No My child,

I am amazed

at how far you have come

There is purpose in your pain

You are ready to reign

in every sphere

you have overcome

You had to go on this journey

To discover your strength in Me

There is no short cuts

My anointing doesn’t come cheap

I ask a high price of My remnant bride

Mantles are released

Joy now your portion

Run with Me into the unknown

Trust Me fearlessly

Together we will slay giants

Set captives free

Bind up the broken hearted

Bring restoration and healing

We will do the uncommon

Before I return

Hold tightly to Me

So that no one will take your crown.

~ Ebigale Wilson

My Faith Fireball

The Journey

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Did You Ask

Did you ask the Lord for patience?

Did you plead for it in prayer?

But when tribulation tried you,

Did you think He didn’t care?

Oh, my child, He heard and answered,

Answered full your earnest cry:

“Tribulation worketh patience!”

Now you know the reason why.

Did you ask Him for submission?

Did you ask for it in prayer?

But when suffering came upon you,

Did you think it wasn’t fair?

Ah, my dear, He heard and answered,

Though not how you wished, ‘tis clear;

For we only learn submission

By the things we suffer here.

‘Twas unselfishness you wanted?

Did you plead for it in prayer?

But the sacrifice He asked for,

Did it seem too great to bear?

Ah, He cared, He heard and answered,

Answered full your heart-felt prayer;

For we learn to be unselfish,

By the sacrifice we bear.

Did you ask the Lord for victory?

Well, He took you at your word!

Tho’ when the battle raged around you,

You wondered if He’d heard.

Ah, my child, He heard and answered,

And He gave you your request:

For how can you win a victory

If you never face a test?

Did you ask to be made humble?

Not to have self-righteous pride?

But then wonder when He published

All your failings far and wide?

Well, my child, that was His answer

To your prayer of desperation:

The surest way to be made humble,

Is to bear humiliation.

Judge not God with mortal’s judgement,

When your prayers are answered so;

For the truest paths for Christians,

Often lead through vales of woe.

And the answers that He gives you,

Will be truly good and fair:

Though you may not understand them

Till you view from over there!

–Josephine Hope Westervelt

Poem from Streams In The Desert 2 Devotional by JH Westervelt

~XXOO Michelle

Whatever things you ask for in prayer …

Believe!

“For this reason I am telling you, whatever things you ask for in prayer [in accordance with God’s will], believe [with confident trust] that you have received them, and they will be given to you.”“Whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him [drop the issue, let it go], so that your Father who is in heaven will also forgive you your transgressions and wrongdoings [against Him and others].- Mark 11:24 – 25 AMP

Be Anxious For Nothing

Worry is a form of pride. It takes concern upon oneself instead of entrusting them to God, who cares for His people.

So Don’t Worry-Be Happy!

“Happy” is always a Choice.

~XXOO Michelle Bollom

Turn all your anxiety over to God because He cares for you. ~ 1 Peter 5:7

Do not be anxious about your life – Luke 12:22

Be anxious for nothing.~ Philippians 4:6

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