Stepping Out Of The Shadows

Her mind was always 

a battleground

Since very young

anxiety ruled her life

She lived in the shadows 

most of her life

Where many live and hide, 

because of fear

The enemy knew what 

Papa deposited in her

Keeping her chained to 

her fears, suited him just fine

Without her knowing she 

was feared in hell

All of heaven knew Father’s 

dreams for her

Would she ever wake up 

from her deep sleep?

Would she ever exchange 

fear for faith?

Would she ever embrace change and find her voice?

There was something 

different in the atmosphere

She could feel and 

sense an urgency

Fathers voice calling her 

to go higher with Him

Something had changed

Something had shifted 

She started to wake up from 

her deep sleep 

When the biggest crisis 

came knocking on her door

She knew it was orchestrated 

by Papa

She could be an Orpah and 

cling to her past

Or she could be a Ruth

step out and make the future 

her home!

Everyone thought she 

would panic and fail

That she would run to the 

shadows and die there

They didn’t know the 

God she served

He ministered to her 

in her darkest hours

Her Knight in 

shining armour

Walking her through 

the valley of death

Leading her to His 

waters of rest

He was her Rock

He had her back

He made her brave!

When anxiety and depression wanted to control her life

He held her close

He calmed every storm

Oh how Papa believed in 


Her pain introduced her 

to her purpose

Her enemies trained her 

in spiritual warfare

In her darkest season she 

found her voice

The deeper she went Papa 

cleared her mind

Every fear fell to the ground

She is ruling in once 

defeated places

No greater love is there than 

the Love of our Father 

Looking around her she can 

see how Father is awakening 

sons and daughters

He is calling His Bride to 

go higher with Him

They sense the urgency to 

surrender completely

Stepping out of the shadows 

To go on a life changing journey with Him! 

— Ebigale Wilson

Stepping Out Of The Shadows

Worthless Life

It may be the universal fear: to be found worthless in the eyes of God and man, to be rejected as unfit for fellowship, ministry, or communion.

This may be a healthy fear, not an irrational fear or paranoia, for if we will face this fear and overcome it, we will be ready to scale mountains, face down giants, and lift up the lowly and oppressed.

So, what is the antidote to this fear? How can we ever truly know that our life has intrinsic value to God and others? May God keep this next statement from being trite or banal; we have worth because we are created in God’s image.

Just as your children are invaluable to you, God’s children are invaluable to him. And not just the born again ones. Every living, breathing soul is precious to Our Father. To be sure, he is pleased with the righteous, and he is angry with the wicked, but even God’s anger is born out of a broken, loving heart. He does not share our propensity to despise and disregard the weak or the sinful.

They are the chosen ones, the objects of his gaze and the desire of his heart.  The young and the strong, the bold and the beautiful, the righteous and the wealthy are often tempted to ignore God, and so God may not be able to do much with them or for them.  However, the weak, sinful, and needy are constantly on his mind and heart. He is forever devising strategies to win their love.

Worthless. Unusable. Rejected. This judgment may indeed be the fate of some who despise God’s goodness and kindness, and with their dying breath curse their maker. However, by God’s mercy, we have escaped this judgment. Let us rejoice in our blessed fate. Let us not fear rejection, but let us cling tightly to Our Father’s hand and rest contentedly in his arms, lying close to his heart.

All he wants from us is our trust in his love. He knows that we have no love or virtue of our own. He just wants us to be willing recipients of his love and mercy. Then we will be worthy companions of God and man. Then we will be free from fear. Amen.

—Brad Heilhecker

Keep Running

Run… I really dislike running. In high school when I had to, I did well. I wasn’t great, but I wasn’t terrible. I have friends who run. Friends who are running marathons. My husband enjoys running. My son has started to enjoy it as well. I want to like running. I want to enjoy it. I really wish I could. But I don’t.

And yet, the main concept in life is that we have to keep running. We have to keep moving forward, and “run the race.” To be honest, this makes it a struggle for me. Since I don’t like running, the thought of pushing through the tough times and to keep running is difficult. Perseverance is not a strong point for me. I often “give up.”

The Word makes it clear that we must continue on… We must persevere through the hard times. When the trials come we have to keep on going. Let the cloud of witnesses cheer us on. Be thankful in the hard times.

My encouragement to you today is to keep on going. Keep on trusting. Keep the faith. Don’t lose heart. At some point there will be a line to cross to say you have completed the tasks and finished the race. You might not be the first one to cross the finish line, but you completed the race. You endured.

Keep running friends. Keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Hebrews 12:1 So then, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us, too, put aside every impediment — that is, the sin which easily hampers our forward movement — and keep running with endurance in the contest set before us,

Roman’s 5:3 But not only that, let us also boast in our troubles; because we know that trouble produces endurance,

2 Chronicles 15:7 But you, be strong, and don’t slack off; for your work will be rewarded.”

~ Rose Horton

Keep Running

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Tormenting Thoughts

I feel the Father’s heart today for those who are experiencing TORMENT IN THE MIND.

There are two types of torment that I speak of.  For some, there are indeed strongholds that have built up over years of agreeing with the devil’s lies.  Sometimes just partnering with Holy Spirit to speak truth and tear down these strongholds is enough since the weapons of our warfare are divinely powerful for pulling down the fortresses in our minds (2 Corinthians 10:3-6).  Sometimes, we need someone we trust, who also partners with Holy Spirit, to help point out lies we are believing and “blind spots” that we cannot see.  If you are speaking to a counselor, pastor, therapist or trusted friend, WAY TO GO!  We all need people to help us realign to God’s truths.  But there are also those who are struggling with a specific spirit of torment who has been attacking thoughts, dreams, even emotions in this last few months.

I am one of the latter.

While praying in the Spirit recently, I was going back and forth between tongues and making declarations of LIFE and TRUTH over myself and the circumstances that had caused a bit of torment for me. I had a waking vision…while praying and then declaring identity truths over myself…of a beat-up looking scarecrow on a post. The scarecrow had a handful of crows sitting on it, pecking at the stuffing in its head. As soon as I would pray in tongues, the birds became greatly agitated and started to peck harder. But then as I continued to push through the torment of lies that were coming at my mind, I spoke LIFE and God’s Biblical truths over myself, and I saw the scarecrow come to life and hop off the pole! He looked like a real person. I then saw the dirty birds scatter and never return to that scarecrow.

As I came out of the vision, still praying in tongues and declaring truth, I felt that my mind was FREE from the chatter and noise. I knew the Lord had shown me something of great encouragement and importance – a new weapon to pray the tormenting lies away!

John 8:32, “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

TRUTH is what sets you free. I heard Holy Spirit say to not allow the enemy to distract you with the “what did I do wrong” thoughts, but to partner with Him to stand in victory. Keep your eyes and heart turned toward Jesus, and stay surrendered to Holy Spirit’s leading. Begin to declare LIFE and TRUTH and allow Holy Spirit to work you will soon find yourself waking up to Heaven’s truth and the tormentors will have no choice but to fly away. You are NOT an old scarecrow stuck to a pole, you are a new creation that is coming ALIVE to everything that God has for you!

Isaiah 26:3 (AMP), “You will keep in perfect and constant peace the one whose mind is steadfast [that is, committed and focused on You—in both inclination and character], Because he trusts and takes refuge in You [with hope and confident expectation].”

Peace is a promise.  It is a gift to those who are born-again and who keep their minds fixed upon Him. The tactic of the enemy is to get your mind EVERYWHERE ELSE BUT ON JESUS.  Psalm 84:11 says “No good thing does He withhold from those who love Him.”  God does not withhold peace from a born-again Christian.  It’s the enemy of your soul who tries to steal it.  Jesus has promised abundant life (John 10:10).

I’ve felt for some time now that God is issuing an invitation to give more attention to the “helmet of salvation” mentioned in Ephesians 6.  A helmet protects your head, and many scholars say that the helmet mentioned in this chapter of Ephesians helps to keep your thoughts protected.  I believe that the helmet is also a WEAPON that has gone overlooked.  It protects your mind, yes, but it’s not just any old helmet – it’s the HELMET OF SALVATION.  

As the Church grows in her understanding of the true substance of her salvation, I see that this helmet will be used more often and seen to be as powerful a tool as the sword of the spirit and the shield of faith. In conjunction with the rest of the armor of God, the Helmet of Salvation will be one of the greatest weapons we have against the tormentors of our minds because we truly are awakened to WHAT JESUS DID, in full, on the cross and beyond. The fact that we are new creations in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17), and that we actually partake in the same divine nature that Jesus has (2 Peter 1:4), and even that we are actually dead to sin (Romans 6).

I am convinced that if we let it, the Helmet of Salvation will protect our minds from the outside, and keep our thoughts turned toward TRUTH from the inside.  And as we know, TRUTH is what sets us free.

I have continued interceding for those who have battled with tormenting thoughts.  

If that’s you, I rebuke shame and isolation off you! I call out TRUTH over you, in the Name of Jesus! John 8:36 says, “So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed.” I declare FREEDOM OVER YOU, in the Mighty Name of Jesus! YOU ARE FREE INDEED. I speak over you the supernatural ability to RISE UP, CHILD OF GOD, and pray in tongues and DELARE TRUTH over yourself!!!

Hear me when I say, if you are born-again, you are a NEW CREATION IN CHRIST (2 Corinthians 5:17) and these tormenting thoughts are NOT WHO YOU ARE.  I encourage you to partner with Holy Spirit and prophesy over yourself today.  

I see those tormentors who peck at your brain FLEEING NOW.  As a body, we stand together.  We speak the blood of Jesus over ourselves today, Lord.  We take a stand, place the Helmet of Salvation over our heads, grab a hold of the Sword of the Spirit (the Word of God), putting on the whole armor – every important piece – and we say NO MORE to torment!  We reject you torment, rebuke you torment, and bind you up in the Name of Jesus!  We release the peace of God and the LOVE OF THE FATHER over ourselves.  We receive, by faith, YOUR TRUTH about who we are in Christ.  We choose to AGREE WITH WHAT YOU SAY about us.  And we remind those tormenting spirits that “The God of peace will soon crush satan under OUR feet” (Romans 16:20), in Jesus Name!

I believe that the vision that God gave me was a tool that will help others through mental torment.  Pray in the Spirit, speak truth over yourself and the circumstances (even if you struggle to believe it right away), and watch how the tormentors leave as you come alive again!  Prophesy over yourself!  Partner with Holy Spirit to find the Biblical truths that pertain to your situation and slay those giants of torment with your sword while remembering who you are as the Helmet of Salvation protects you.    

“Speak tenderly to ‘Jerusalem’ [instead of Jerusalem, insert your name here], and tell her that her season of warfare [on the mind] has ENDED….and that she has received DOUBLE from the Lord…” (taken from Isaiah 40:2).

~ Mandy Woodhouse

Larger Than Life

There is a not so subtle trap in some aspirations.  Those that aspire to be “larger than life” and immune to the limitations and frailties of earthly life put themselves in a precarious position which is unsustainable.

Even though the facade can be maintained for a season, it is fraught with dangers.  For who do we turn to for help if we are pretending to be self sufficient?  And what do we do when our crowd of admirers finally sees our “clay feet,” and leaves us forlorn and rejected?

Much better to be of a lowly spirit and run with a humble crowd. The “bold and beautiful” and the “rich and famous” just don’t need us, and they never will. They don’t even feel the need for God, much less his lowly assistants. The poor, weak, and sick do need us. Our humble Lord needs us. Let us remember the grace of Our Lord who “though he was rich, for our sakes he became poor, that we through his poverty might be made rich.” He is our benefactor, not the rich and powerful of this world.

One day we will all be “larger than life.” In the resurrection, we will receive glorified bodies, souls, and spirits. Our fleshly bodies with their accompanying temptations and humble frailness will be replaced with our bodies of light. We will still be ourselves, but we will be the 2.0 version. At this time, we will lose all desire to return to our fallen earthly vessels. We will be limitless.

Time and space will be eliminated as obstacles. Pain and heartache will be gone forever. Yes, my friends, we will be larger than life as we carry on face to face communion with “The Father of Lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.”

— Brad Heilhecker

Remove Anything That Hinders

Living an abundant life sometimes requires that we get rid of a few things first.

Sometimes we must delegate, relinquish control, cut it out, or simply say “no” to some things so we can say “yes” to God and what He has purposed for us.

~ XXOO Michelle Bollom

We have all these great people around us as examples. Their lives tell us what faith means. So we, too, should run the race that is before us and never quit. We should remove from our lives anything that would slow us down and the sin that so often makes us fall.

—Hebrews 12:1 ERV

A Single Mother

You will find her alone

Mostly away from the 


Trying to mend the broken 


Of her hurt children 

Picking up the pieces 

left by wounded grown-ups 

In the background 

She feels safe

No funny looks

No bad vibes

No married women that think 

she is on a mission

to break up their homes

She is a single mother

Or a “single” married mother

Not by choice….but she 

steps up

With Papa by her side, she 

can conquer the world 

She fights her own demons 

away from all eyes

Puts her “I have it all together” 

mask on in front of her children

Protects them with her whole life





She is always on duty

Her love and support their world

Changing roles instantly 

comes naturally to her

A mom

A driver

A teacher

A nurse

To more advanced roles

She can handle them all

Away from all eyes

Father is mending her broken heart

Little by little He restores 

her children 

As she leans completely 

into Papa

He leads her to His waters 

of perfect rest

Sometimes the road is dark

Her load heavy to carry

Her emotions running wild, 

but she is learning to rule in 

deep waters

Holy Spirit is mentoring 

her to raise children who are emotionally healthy

Perfectionism is out by the door

Her children needs a mother 

that loves them unconditionally 

A mother who is present 

Who celebrates their growth

Loves and guides them through 

their mistakes

She dedicated her children 

to the best Father 

Together He guides and 

leads her to raise them

As she goes through her 

processes, so do they

Together they heal

Together they take back what 

the enemy meant for their harm

Collecting the spoils left by 

past generations

Every generational curse

under their feet

Father knitted her together 

in her mothers womb

Everything she would need

He deposited in her

Though she started out 

alone and scared

He walked her through 

every season

Calmed every storm within her

Holy Spirit was truly her Helper

Her Teacher 

Her best Friend

She is raising children with 

high morals and values

Children who put Jesus first

To the world she is just a 

single mom

With her ponytail

Worn clothes

Face without make up

To her children she is their 

safe place

Their oasis of love

Their super hero

A representative of Christ

She laughs at the days to come 

She knows the One intimately 

who holds her families lives in 

His hand!

~ Ebigale Wilson

A Single Mother

The Journey