A Fraud And A Pariah

My greatest fear is that I would be found to be a fraud and then become a pariah— a man faking his faith, with no love, no knowledge of God, and no integrity. Becoming an outcast and a pariah. This is deeply rooted in me, and it steals my joy and my peace. It harkens back to a time in my life when I was a fraud, a fool, and a pariah. The memories still haunt me.

The world and Satan would love to freeze frame us and lock us into a self image based on our worst moments and our darkest days.

Our Father in Heaven and those who truly love us are rooting for us to rise up, declare the past dead and gone, and, like Paul the apostle, “strain forward” to what is ahead.  

Our past does not define us; our present reality and our future destiny are all that matter.

I would rather have a wretched past and a glorious future than a perfect past and a dubious future.  

There are many who have lived a socially acceptable life but have not bent their knees to Jesus, and all of their good works and social acceptance will be burned up on judgement day.

So the only fearful prospect in life is to be found “wretched, pitiful, poor, blind, and naked” by Jesus—his verdict on all those who rely on their own resources and refuse to come to him for their life.

When we give our lives to Jesus, he becomes our “wisdom, righteousness, sanctification, and redemption”—our everything.  

How do we know if we have made this essential transaction with Jesus? How do we know if we have made him our life?  

I suppose that it is in the quiet moments, when our hearts and our minds drift toward their default settings, that we discover who we really are. When we get off work, turn off the tv, and just rest. Then, where do we run for refuge; what do we delight in; what gives us peace and joy?

I hope that it is our forgiveness and our great inheritance that both flow from our reliance on the precious price of blood that Our Savior paid for us  2,000 years ago. It is a heritage and an inheritance that will stand the test of time and withstand the onslaught of trials and troubles. It is durable and dependable—the rock on which we stand!

~ Brad Heilhecker

In Christ we all have a Bright Future Ahead!

We love to share wonderful #RestorationStories – Testimonies.

If you are ready to share yours – contact us here.


Evangelist Sugar Trask is bringing together powerful women of God to inspire and encourage others at the debut of her WWHOA Conference. It will be held Friday 4/8/2016 & Saturday 4/9/2016 in North West Houston (Tomball, TX) area at the 4 Corners Conference Center 130 Agg Rd, Tomball, TX 77375 

Founder & Evangelist Sugar Trask of Scarfree Ministries cordilly invites you to

  “The Experience” 

A chain breaking conference where you will experience Powerful Praise & Worship, Prophetic Healing, Signs, Wonders & Miracles.


 The conference line up is filled with women who will ignite a fire of hope and faith in you like never before. 

You Will Not Leave the Way You Came!

Men are welcome to attend.

Childcare available for children ages 2 to 10 years old. 

Vendor Booths available for $40.00. (first come basis)

Conference T-Shirts Available

Link Here will allow you to purchase tickets to conference. 

Read more here about Sugar Trask and her ministry

Come and reserve your spot and get your tickets today! Restored Ministries is so honored to be a part of this amazing conference.

               ~ XXOO Michelle Bollom 

He Will Not Despise 


Have you ever felt inadequate of God’s full attention, for his love, forgiveness, and direction? 

Have you ever asked, “What can I do to get out of this dark place, how will he ever be able to forgive me?”  

If there was a call for eligible participants entering into a contest titled, “Failed Too Many Times To Count,” I could run to be the first in line.

For much of my life, I felt like an unworthy soul. 

I desperately wanted to find the heart of God, to be called by him.
I just didn’t know how to find the relationship I was looking for, nor did I know how to get there. Many years, I thought it was about achieving what I could do. At one point, that wasn’t enough, so my focus was performance being the way. Everytime, doubt would come and I would question if I was even loveable or forgivable.

 Discouraged, I would get frustrated and stop trying for some time. Then I would find myself needing more, so I would try again. It was years of the woven woes. My heart never seemed to be at a place to hear God’s call. And the enemy made me feel certain I would fail, at that too, if it were a requirement.

After some time to heal, and mourn my own losses God called me up. Little did I know, he would call me towards his heart. He wanted to free me of my guilt and shame. 

-NO MORE wasted years – He wanted my heart.

“You mean you want a relationship, with me, Lord?” Well, what is that exactly? You of anyone, already knows that I’m not the best at relationship, or at the least, do it well enough for you.”

Have you ever read about David’s life in the bible? He loved God with everything in him, yet he failed with the deepest wounds engraved upon his heart. They left him in the darkest emptiness. He wanted so badly to live out the heart he had for God. But his own shame and guilt was overpowering. His mourning for his sin was authentic and real. David learned God would not despise a contrite heart.
I’ve found, my own sin, doing that to me.

On one hand, it had robbed me of a life rich and full, in my God. On the other, It has brought my heart to be humbled, not only for myself, but also for others. It was never about what I couldn’t do. It was about who I could become in Christ, strengthened by the King. 

I’ve discovered that being a failure leaves little room for rising above. To be able to get up and walk again, leaving darkness behind, means understanding the light that exists in completeness. In that fullness we find our heart, God’s heart and the example to pass on to others.

Mark 12:30 NIV
Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’  

This blessed me today, and I hope it blesses you too, my friend. 

Continue to join me Tuesdays. I’d love to hear about your journey, where you discovered rising above, where you felt inadequate, or any prayers you may need to forge ahead. One thing I have learned is that when we can connect, being authentic and real, truth and learning become apparent. It has been one of the biggest blessings – other people’s testimonies. I learned I was never alone.

May we journey together as God calls us into his season.  
Baring His Redemptive Beauty,
Tiffany Thomas 

Come connect with Tiffany on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/Redemptive-Beauty-481119318742822/