Pouring Out Our Story 

  
I am as full of words as the speediest writer pouring out his story!

I poured out my fasting story – all 40 days of downloads. Today is #40! 

I recently sent a version of my story and had it sent back to rework and edit for a feature spot on a dear friends blog. I know it needs to be done, it was just a rough cut. I just sort of poured out the story.  

When I have to edit all the submissions to this blog, from all the stories pouring out, the editing is the not so fun part.   

Even editing my own stuff is not fun.  

I was invited to do a recorded television spot for our local TBN (Trinity Broadcasting Network) on how TBN has impacted my life. The first take seemed effortless. God spoke through me and they cheered and then the retake…..

I am a swayer when I talk so they wanted a second go round. That retake did not feel as smooth.   
I know It is all up to God. They will send it on and will notify me if they decide to air it or use it. 

  I just poured out my story. 

All these recent things on pouring out our stories and words…. 
Words

Ugh! 

God is always dealing with me on my words.  
To speak up and use them or to shut up or choose fewer words.  

I love how the verse says, my heart is overflowing with a beautiful thought.   

That is usually how it starts. I have a beautiful thought and then I sometimes just get it out and am done, but most of the time we have to edit or do a retake. I love how God speaks to my heart through His word.
I am so so with poetry, but I am for sure full of words! 

We all have a beautiful story- our testimony. We may just have a beautiful thought, but God will weave the rest of it out for His Glory. 

Trust Him with it all, the good, the bad, and the ugly. You always can edit or a retake if you need to.  
Just begin by pouring out your story! 

This is the beautiful final verse in my fasting experience downloads and it couldn’t be more fitting. 

My heart is overflowing with a beautiful thought! I will write a lovely poem to the King, for I am as full of words as the speediest writer pouring out his story. You are the fairest of all;Your words are filled with grace;God himself is blessing you forever.  ~ Psalm 45:1-2 TLB 

                    

Be blessed everyone! 
Thank you for coming on this journey with me.  

                ~XXOO Michelle Bollom 

The Lion The Witch And The Wardrobe 

  

 
   

I am not concerned with a lion, planned parenthood, Donald Trump or any other news story that gets millions of people all anxious and rowdy and riled up over.  

When we start comparing things against each other we put ourself right into a position of being critical and making unfair judgements. I surely am saddened by it all. I also grieve over them because I believe it all grieves God’s heart.  

What I choose to do instead of reposting vile videos and blogs and weighing everyone’s opinion on what is worse or more worthy of drawing our attentions to, is I am choosing to pray for them all. 

I pray for the hearts of the people that felt the need to do the dishonest hunt against this lion and I pray for this dentist that needed a trophy kill and his pride and greed got the better of him.

 I pray for planned parenthood and all the evil greedy deeds that have allowed them to profit off abortions and selling of aborted baby organs and tissues. I pray it will be exposed and that God will intervene on behalf of the people who are involved. I pray that God will allow me the divine encounters to speak about choosing life over abortion to many girls and women so that they won’t feel they have no other option. 

 I pray for Donald Trump to take a moment to weigh his words before he speaks and while he is well meaning and has spoken many truths, he has also misspoke and categorized people unfairly which makes it hard to retrieve the words once spoken.

 I pray all these stories and people involved will come to know the restoring and transforming power, love, and grace of Jesus Christ.

 I pray for the media that has continued to spin the truth on many many other news stories to turn from their lies and begin to speak truth. 

I pray for all people including myself to retire their soapboxes, their criticisms, judgements, dividing doctrines, religious spirits and finally be on fire and riled up for Jesus and wanting to get busy getting on with the Father’s business- which is to Love God, and Love others’ as yourself.  

I pray that I will choose to be a light to others in this dark world and not be tempted to spread and share the darkness.  

I pray that I will remember to be humble and that we have all been guilty of greed, pride, and unworthy words on some level at some time in our life.   

I pray that I will always extend Grace and forgiveness because I have been forgiven of much and given God’s Amazing Grace.

 Will you join me in praying ? 
                      -XXOO Michelle Bollom 

Finally, brothers and sisters, fill your minds with beauty and truth. Meditate on whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is good, whatever is virtuous and praiseworthy. 

                     – Philippians 4:8 The Voice

“Don’t pick on people, jump on their failures, criticize their faults— unless, of course, you want the same treatment. That critical spirit has a way of boomeranging. It’s easy to see a smudge on your neighbor’s face and be oblivious to the ugly sneer on your own. Do you have the nerve to say, ‘Let me wash your face for you,’ when your own face is distorted by contempt? It’s this whole traveling road-show mentality all over again, playing a holier-than-thou part instead of just living your part. Wipe that ugly sneer off your own face, and you might be fit to offer a washcloth to your neighbor.” 

                          ~Matthew 7:1-5 MSG 

Bondage

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Define:
Bondage can be defined as slavery or involuntary servitude; the state of being bound by or subjected to some external power or control; the state or practice of being physically restrained, as by being tied up, chained, or put in handcuffs, for carnal gratification.

Affirm:
“For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God.” Romans 8:20-21

Recall:
A few weeks ago, 50 Shades of Grey hit the theatres. As I conducted online research for topic of the week, I noticed that there are new conversations around bondage. It appears that the dialogue around the book series and the movie…has sparked a deepen interest in the topic of bondage. The story plot of the book/movie is interesting. It introduces us to the world of bondage… (I will let you conduct your own research) Typically, when we think of bondage or being tied up- it is not fun! In other words, it seems that slavery has somewhat resurfaced as something popular.

I am amazed by how we, as a society, as a culture are so attracted to drama, reality TV shows, hurting people, stories about crisis, death, illnesses…you get the point. Let me give you some insight, with our eyes wide open, this carnal attraction seeps into the crevices of our lives, and before long we are surrounded by the same thing we once saw on television or read in a book. Before long, we feel choked, tied up, slapped, beaten, burned, speechless, helpless, abducted and then we feel hopeless, empty, lonely, and meaningless. Because we’ve experienced shattered dreams, broken relationships, faulty friendships, deadly illnesses, and loss of finances also, we adopt the story plots from movies and books as “my” story instead of “his” story. We say to ourselves, “I can understand…”

Although on the surface, I did not see 50 shades of Grey as my story. As I continued my research, one critic intrigued me of his description of the movie’s main character, Christian Grey. Grey is a man tormented by his own demons and consumed by the need to control. I stopped there. That sentence slapped me in the face! I replaced Grey with Lereca. Lereca was a woman tormented by her own demons and consumed by the need to control.

God always has a way of getting my attention. Ha, his story quickly became my story. God quickly showed me not to pass judgment on others and that he is still also working on me. He then whispered “change the name to HE/SHE.” HE/SHE is a man/woman tormented by his/her own demons and consumed by the need to control.

So here’s the message…Does your life reflect a drama novel? Is the enemy tormenting you? Do you feel consumed by the need to control? Brothers and sisters there is hope.

You do not need to feel tormented anymore. There is power in the name of Jesus and we are freed through Christ. God wants you to dream again, mend your relationships, bring your friends back, heal your body, increase your finances…Let him bless you!

This week, I challenge you to put down the drama novel. I challenge you to turn off the reality show. I challenge you to call on the name of Jesus. I challenge you to plead the blood of Jesus over every aspect of your life. HE WILL BREAK EVERY CHAIN.

Instead consider meditating on this…

http://youtu.be/-pD2zIuiC2g

Expression:
Dear GOD,

There is power in the name of Jesus and I am ready to be healed. I give you every area of my life and I call on you to break every chain that is keeping me in bondage. I declare today that the enemy will no longer torment me and I declare your control over my life. Lord, thank you so much for giving me hope and setting me free.

Commit to the challenge. I DARE you.
#mydearestsister #Idareyou #restoredministries #itstimeforachange#anewyou #LiveRestored ~ Lereca Monik

The Right Energy

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The atmosphere around us is our energy field. What is released out into our surroundings can either positively or negatively affect us.
I tell my children that when they listen to a song that has bad lyrics or a bad television show or movie they are affecting not just themselves but also the atmosphere of our home. I recently tested this when I felt that I could watch a scary movie on television. It was far from the other movies I used to watch, it was not even that bad in comparison to some, but afterwards I could not shake that movie. It only confirmed that I, like David want to not look with approval on anything that is vile. I want nothing to do with evil. I don’t want any crazy plots stuck in my mind or head for days. I believe those types of things can not only release stuff into our atmosphere but they can also be a foothold for the enemy to develop a stronghold in people’s lives.

Do you agree? What are your thoughts on this? What are ways that you protect your mind and atmosphere?

I will sing of your love and justice;
to you, Lord, I will sing praise.
2 I will be careful to lead a blameless life—
I will conduct the affairs of my house
with a blameless heart.
3 I will not look with approval
on anything that is vile.
I hate what faithless people do;
I will have no part in it.
4 The perverse of heart shall be far from me;
I will have nothing to do with what is evil.
~Psalm 101:1-4 NIV

~XXOO Michelle Bollom
© RestoredMinistries

Prime Time

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My family and I have always been big Bear Grylls fans. We were so excited to see his new show “Running Wild” come out that we recorded a season pass not to miss a moment of the action. The best two so far for me have been Zac Efron and his openness about recovery and my latest favorite is the one with Deion Sanders. Not the hilarious part where he runs from the snake squealing like a girl. I was so happy to see that they did not edit or cut out the part where he is overcome with some fear over climbing the mountain and he says he needs a moment to pray. He does not just lift up a little canned prayer or a quick Lord Help Me, no, not at all. Deion begins to pray in the Spirit. He prays in his heavenly prayer language and it is all captured for Prime Time television.

As a person that did not believe in this sort of stuff for many years, I was overjoyed now. Let me take you back to my experience.

Years ago my dad and I would make fun of the whole talking or praying in tongues. We did not believe it was real. All I knew was that it was called talking or praying in tongues. I thought it was a made up practice for those really far out there religious freaks. When I came back to The Lord in 2006 after living a life of doing religion and not wanting anything to do with God for a time, and now learning about a relationship with Jesus, I dived deep into my bible and into learning all I could. I had never really read the Bible before. I was stunned to see there were so many translations and that I could actually understand it. I also found great Bible teachers out there. Not wanting to shake things up too much we left the Catholic religion and joined a Bible based church for years before joining a Spirit filled church. I was memorizing and declaring scripture over my life and God delivered me during that time from a smoking addiction and that just made me want more and more of His power working in my life. I had never heard of The Holy Spirit living inside of you. I had no clue about Baptism of the Holy Spirit. I remember thinking that was so cool and why had I never heard of this. I was not so freaked out by the speaking in tongues phenomenon thing now, so I decided that maybe some really do have it and some don’t. It just was not for me. Fast forward to several years later. I had become a mighty prayer intercessor. I prayed daily. I prayed all the day long while going about my day. I was growing in The Lord but I still was convinced tongues were not for me.
I was at my wits end on a subject and felt that God was just ignoring me. I did not even know how to pray so out of frustration I begin praying out loud and I thought my tongue got tied up and a strange word slipped out. I was startled and thought, that is weird. I did not give it much thought until about 6 months later I was reading my bible in Genesis 16. I came across the story of Sarah and Hagar, and the point when Hagar had run away. The next verses I read were:

So she called the name of the Lord Who spoke to her, You are a God of seeing, for she said, Have I [not] even here [in the wilderness] looked upon Him Who sees me [and lived]? Or have I here also seen [the future purposes or designs of] Him Who sees me? Therefore the well was called Beer-lahai-roi [A well to the Living One Who sees me]; it is between Kadesh and Bered. (Genesis 16:13-14 AMP)

When I sounded out the word Beer-lahai-roi I instantly was taken back to that time that the strange word slipped out of my mouth. I ran to my commentary to find out what it meant. Simply it meant, THE GOD WHO SEES.

Instantly I knew that God had definitely seen my situation and answered our prayers even though I had not thought of that strange word slip till there it was again in my Bible in this story of Hagar. I began studying Glossolalia, the proper word for this phenomenon. I was curious about it. Then some friends and I bought The Baptism of the Holy Spirit teaching by Joyce Meyer. It was weeks after that conference that I finally listened to the teaching while running on my treadmill. At the end, Joyce encourages you to stop, put your hands up and ask The Lord to fill your mouth with your heavenly prayer language. So I stopped the treadmill, raised my hands, asked The Lord to fill my mouth…..a few seconds later some stuff slipped out. It kind of startled me and I thought, that is strange. Then I closed my eyes and did it again. This time I was speaking some strange language and it just kept flowing. I thought, hmmm this is strange; I will keep this to myself for a while. I started noticing when I would sense the need to pray my throat would get a burning sensation.
For weeks and months following I could not wait for my family to leave each morning so I could start praying. I prayed and prayed and had no clue what I was saying. I then started to get a sense of a situation, not necessarily a person, some days a person, but mostly situations that I would have to pray about. I knew that God was having me pray in this prayer language because I needed to get out of my own head and let Him pray perfect prayers through me interceding for my friends and family. Another thing about praying in the spirit or praying in tongues is that it edifies you. God is building you up in your spirit and strengthening you. Boy was God’s timing perfect. It was my Prime Time moment for prayers. I had a lot going on in my life. My husband’s work hours and commute kept him away from home about 16-17 hours a day. I was raising my teenage twins basically solo during the week. My mom and twin sister were having lots of health issues, and I had lost some family members to cancer. I know that I would not have survived it all without this prayer language. It is powerful and amazing. I don’t even think those words do justice to adequately describe it. I laugh sometimes and think, boy my dad would be shocked, but he is in Heaven so I am sure God already filled him in on it too and he has his language.
I was fearful to share it with my family for a while, but they were all very open about it and not freaked out a bit. I shared it with more close friends and they too did not seem to mind. I found that God brought other people in my life that also experience and have this gift so it helps to not feel like you are going crazy, that it is a real true thing. Even ABC Nightline did a report on it. See it here http://youtu.be/NZbQBajYnEc
They showed that the brain area where speech is generated is bypassed or diminished when someone is speaking in tongues. So really someone else is praying through them. That someone is the Holy Spirit, praying His will and Perfect prayers through you building you up to withstand the blows of life better. I was a non-believer for many years. I am 100% a believer and know for a fact it is true and not something made up. I pray almost daily still in my prayer language and it has changed my life.

Many scholars may disagree and spin it to fit their doctrines, I get that, and I did it for many years. Not everyone believes or agrees, but I know differently based on my own personal experience.

Here are a few verses from the Bible on this subject to check out for yourself. I won’t try to convince you; I will let God do that. Ask Him and He will fill you in and fill your mouth!

But you, beloved, building yourselves up in your most holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit. ~Jude 1:20

For if I pray in tongues, my spirit is praying, but I don’t understand what I am saying. ~ 1 Corinthians 14:14

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. ~Romans 8:26

“But the manifestation of the Spirit is given to each one for the profit of all: for to one is given the word of wisdom through the Spirit, to another the word of knowledge through the same Spirit, to another faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healings by the same Spirit, to another the working of miracles, to another prophecy, to another discerning of spirits, to another different kinds of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues. But one and the same Spirit works all these things, distributing to each one individually as He wills.” (1 Corinthians 12:7-11)

XXOO Michelle Bollom

You Have The Control

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I love Soap Operas! I watched two for about 35 years. The Young and the Restless and Guiding Light. I watched a few others over the years, but those two were my top favorites. I did not just watch daytime soaps, oh I loved a good night time soap too. Melrose Place, Dawson’s Creek, Beverly Hills 90210, Knots Landing, and of course Dallas (the classic and the new one.) I was hooked on the shows Weeds, The L Word, Nip Tuck, and a Danish drama Borgen. I watched all sorts of movies and read all sorts of books and listened to all sorts of music. I never filtered what I watched, listened to, or said.
Several years ago the Lord began dealing with me on the importance of being mindful in what I hear, see, and speak.
First, He dealt with me on secular music. If it was not a song singing about partying, drinking, sex, drugs, or pining after an old lover it was singing about sadness, cheating, anger and revenge. I had sort of a wakeup call on two different situations with my kids. A neighbor kid and my son wanted to do a talent show with a certain song. I went to my computer to print out the lyrics and in reading them I was shocked at what the words said. Here I had been singing it and allowing my kids to sing the lyrics. I explained to them that we had to choose a different song. When my son and his friend read it they were creeped out that they had been singing those words.
I know over the years I was guilty of liking a song by a good beat that I never paid attention to the words of the song. People would tell me the meaning to the song and I would be shocked at what it was saying. I too would get creeped out.
The second wakeup call is when my beautiful daughter was sitting at the breakfast table belting out the song: Ahhh Me so Horny!. I about choked on my coffee that morning. I rushed to the table to inquire what she thought that song meant. She had no idea what the word meant, she just liked the beat of the music. When I explained the meaning she burst into tears. I asked where she heard that song sang and she said Daddy had a cd in his car that they found and were playing. I knew the CD well and knew the rest of that CD too, and it was not what you want your children to hear. For years after I would try to guard my kids ears from certain music, but I still allowed myself to listen to it. God started opening my ears to what the words were saying and I became so uncomfortable singing or listening to secular songs, so I started to listen to Worship music. I found that the words were enriching and restoring and renewing to my soul. I prefer to listen to music that Exalts God and brings much peace to my soul. When I control it in my home, car and around my kids, it makes for better kiddos too.
Then God revealed through a friend that I had the movie rating system backwards. I thought it was G, PG13, PG, R, X….and so forth. It is PG then PG 13, Then R, by the way. I had allowed my pre-teens to watch PG13 movies thinking it meant up to 13. I would always get that nervous laugh and become uncomfortable during the sexual innuendo parts while viewing with my kiddos, but I did not really pay attention to all the cursing. I cursed like a sailor and I would say the classic line, do as I say, not as I do. God had not fully begun to deal with me on my mouth yet.
One time my son came to me and I remember he asked if he could just cuss at home. That he liked to cuss too. As funny as I thought it was at the time, it was really sad. Sometimes you just can’t unlearn those mistakes as a parent you made, but God, thankfully He chose to redeem me and can change my kids too.
I even allowed my kids to watch some R movies at the persuasion of others that said they were not so bad. Big mistake. Once a child sees one R rated movie, they will not want to watch any G movies. They will love to brag to their friends and remind everyone in ear shot that you; yep you that big bad momma let them watch Wedding Crashers and the Hangover. I thought they could just un see what they had seen, but God started showing me that you can’t. I knew I had to set the example and not watch those types of movies around them either. It became so miserable that I could barely watch any movies myself. They were all so violent, with just horrible language (worse than mine) and so much vile abuse and sex and nudity and demonic activity. It would stay with me for days and I just felt yuck after seeing them. God started dealing with me and my TV shows too. I read this verse one day and knew it was my confirmation to guard what we were watching.
“The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness! ~ Matthew 6:22-23 NIV
I gave up many many shows. I still held on to a few and I would replace some with some not so bad, I would catch up on Netflix when my kids were not around, and finally I surrendered and gave them all up. This verse really sealed the deal for me.
I will not set anything worthless before my eyes. I hate the practice of transgression; it will not cling to me. ~ Psalm 101:3 HCSB
I wanted to be obedient to Him more then I wanted to know if Nick got back with Sharon and left Phyllis. I did not want to lay awake at night wondering and replaying those story lines waiting for the next season to start or be so bummed by the cliff hangers. It actually caused me stress and to feel anxious. I wanted peace to reign in myself, my family and in my home. Those types of shows bring strife and negativity into your home.
People did not really understand my decisions. Some even thought I was a little crazy to give up TV, movies, and secular music. I wanted to cleanse my mind, my ears, eyes, and words. Those things make deposits into our soul. When we are blaring bad music or bad television shows and movies in our homes, cars, etc. we are affecting our atmospheres. It is like walking around blindly at a dog park and thinking you won’t step in some doody. It clings to you! I do not want anything to cling to me or my kiddos. They will see enough on their own, so we have a responsibility to control when and what we can.
I wanted to practice living out this verse and have it come to life in my life and my children’s life.
And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. ~ Philippians 4:8 NLT

Lastly, God wanted me to be that little monkey with my hand over my mouth. He wanted to make sure that I understood that words have power. Words can heal or hurt; they can bring down or build up. They can bring life or death. For far too many years I have just opened my mouth and blurted out whatever I felt like. I would grumble and complain and not realize that I was speaking those negative things to be in my life. The mouth verses that really opened my eyes (and closed my mouth more) were:
And I tell you this; you must give an account on judgment day for every idle word you speak. ~ Matthew 12:36 NLT
Don’t use foul or abusive language. Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them. ~ Ephesians 4:29 NLT
I can’t expect my teenagers or husband to clean up their negative unworthy words if I am speaking unworthy words myself. If we have to give account for our idle words at judgment day, oh my! We have a lot of splaining to do Lucy!
The codeword in our house is Worthy Words now and we take the Ephesians 4:29 challenge often when we are beginning to let our mouths slip. I am not perfect. I slip up still. I love that God grants me grace. I also can grant grace to those people not living a life based on my same Biblical world view. God has to deal with each one on His terms, not mine. It is easy to slip so that is why God tells us:
Don’t let anyone deceive you. Associating with bad (people) will ruin decent people. ~ 1 Corinthians 15:33 GWT
I don’t want to be deceived or ruined. I am learning to excuse myself from those unworthy conversations and groups of people and not be drawn into gossip. I am learning to surround myself with people that understand and respect that I live by a Biblical World View and that is how I choose to raise my children. I am comfortable getting up and walking out of a movie or the room if someone is playing something I don’t have peace about. I also am learning to keep my hand over my mouth until I let the Lord fill it. I am able to speak up when someone uses the GD word around me and let them know that is NOT God’s name and is offensive to me. I can disagree with someone’s lifestyle and choices but still love them as a person. I am getting better at not letting the F Bomb drop and my old favorite word Dammit does not bring me comfort and peace nearly as being obedient to God does. We cannot be all God wants us to be if we are filling ourselves up with junk and not guarding our ears, eyes, and mouth.
Like the parental controls we set on our TV and computers, our Heavenly Father is setting parental controls for us in His Word, The Bible.
The ole “Monkey See Monkey Do” saying is so true. What sermon will you be preaching with your words and actions?
I want myself, my home and my family to See no evil, Hear no evil, and Speak no evil. I want us to be so filled with the word and presence of God that we shine and pour out Jesus to all we come in contact with. God is the Great Restorer and Transformer. His Word has amazing power! Let Him speak to you on the areas of your life that He is calling you to come up higher in. Whatever He asks you to lie down, rest assured it is because He has something much better in store for you and your future.
~ XXOO Michelle Bollom