This weeks #SongSunday has been my secret jam for months!
I am not a huge country music fan anymore but this song by Dierks Bentley featuring Brothers Osborne has a great beat – pretty good lyrics and an awesome guitar riff!
Diamonds have so many facets to them.
The spectrum of those facets and colors can be endless.
That is exactly how God’s love is for us, like radiant diamonds.
I just love that visual.
Today I started my day seeing only the black coal all around me and not the possibility of the diamonds. I awoke anxious, irritable, grouchy, sad, among a ton of other emotions.
I soon felt like God spoke to my heart:
You want to start this day your way or Yahweh’s?
I needed a reset!
So I stopped, prayed, praised and read His promises.
Soon that dark thick layer of soot was gone and I could once again see His amazing love and feel His perfect peace shining brightly all through and around me.
I no longer had angst over my husband’s drawers left in the floor. I was thankful I had a husband to leave drawers for me to pick up. I no longer despised the washer for overflowing water and praised God that I have a very petite daughter to climb on top to get in that small area to wipe it up.
As I was praising and worshipping I could feel my Joy rising again. My hallelujah’s began to multiply. Why?
Because
I have surrendered to Your design……
Not my way but Yahweh’s!
~XXOO Michelle Bollom
Multiplied – Need To Breathe
Lyrics
Your love is like radiant diamonds
Bursting inside us we cannot contain
Your love will surely come find us
Like blazing wild fires singing Your name
God of mercy sweet love of mine
I have surrendered to Your design
May this offering stretch across the skies
And these Halleluiahs be multiplied
Your love is like radiant diamonds
Bursting inside us we cannot contain
Your love will surely come find us
Like blazing wild fires singing Your name
God of mercy sweet love of mine
I have surrendered to Your design
May this offering stretch across the skies
And these Halleluiahs be multiplied
(Multiplied)
(Oh multiplied)
God of mercy sweet love of mine
I have surrendered to Your design
May this offering stretch across the skies
And these Halleluiahs be multiplied
These Halleluiahs be multiplied
(Your love is like radiant diamonds)
As a child I was raised with a father who was a challenge to deal with most of the time. He was emotionally unavailable and abusive in many ways. As an adult, I have come to realize that he did the best his coping skills would allow him to do. He met our family’s financial needs and attended every sporting event, even though at times the sporting event attendance came with a public yelling and dressing down about some failure on the basketball court or at a swim meet.
Tears were plentiful in my childhood.
As a young adult I struggled with who my other father was…my Heavenly Father. I was raised to believe that He was some old guy in the sky who expected me to be flawless before I came before Him. That I was marked for death and not life in Him. That I was something He was ashamed of due to a life of failure and sin. Much like my impression of my earthly father….I walked outside of a relationship covered in shame.
I don’t remember when or how, but in my 20’s I started to see God as more than some angry god in the sky. I think He started to change my eyes for myself and gave me His eyes. I started to see how much He loved me. How He was passionate about me and how He just wanted a relationship with me and I could come just as I am. He wanted to bring me closer to Him so that He could heal those father wounds in my heart. He wanted to be my good, good Father.
Over the past 20 years, my relationship with God has grown and struggled at times, but He has always been there pursuing my heart. Telling me to bring to Him my brokenness so that He can show me what kind of healer He is and how He wanted to be a Father who gives me miraculous gifts. And so, I put my hand in His and walk in His love and His promise that He will always be there with me.