Inhale Exhale Repeat

Feeling unheard and unappreciated, shunned and shushed…

The deep chasm seems too wide and divided to ever be bridged again by common ground.

The endless need to always be right when everything is wrong.

Half-hearted attempts falling as flat as the air that has become thick and stagnant sucking the very life out of you.

What do you do when you have been hurt to the core?

You can rehearse the hurts or release them.

You can let those that mistreat you defeat you; OR you can gather yourself and your tears and take them to the Only One that can rightfully do anything with the dings that have assaulted your heart and soul.

The Only One that will remove the hardness from your heart and hopefully theirs too… and fully redeem and restore.

He keeps every tear you shed in a bottle.
Why does He capture them?

I believe it’s so He can turn those same tears into the refreshing and watering and deep cleansing our very heart and soul needs to fully forgive and release all the hurts.

Stand and let the Lord fight for you.

The Only One that never hurts or disappoints is God.

Exhale and free yourself from it all. Then take a deep breathe in and inhale the freshness of a reset and restart to your heart.

Feel His Mighty Spirit that promises to be our strength when we feel weak fill up all those crevices that the dings of hurt created.

He is faithful! You Can Trust Him!

—XXOO 😘 Michelle Cosby Bollom

The Grey Days

I remember the “grey days” before going with Father on my wilderness journey…It seemed like a dark cloud followed me everywhere I went. My mind was like a war zone and I never knew peace. Every “challenge” would unknowingly take me back to when I was a little girl. The only way I knew how to cope with my pain and brokenness was “anger” and retreating to my “drugs”. 

I was married and a mom, but yet I was still a “little girl”, because I never took the time to go back to visit the places of my brokenness. For mere moments light would break through and I would tread on glimpses of what Jesus had planned for me. I wanted to dwell in that place of overflow, of a peace that surpasses all understanding and a deep joy…but as soon as a challenge would come I would retreat to the little wounded girl…

More then 7 years ago, when I was at my lowest, I had a dream and in the dream a lady said to me “I am so excited about the journey that God is going to take you on”. No one ever told me that it is important to go on a healing journey.

Father had to convey this important process to me through a dream…There was something different in the atmosphere and I knew that it was time to visit the “graves” I have avoided for years and to take off my masks and to open up about my struggles and pain.

Father took me aside and we started to unpack my heart and He addressed every hurt and character trait that did not represent Him. Some things were easy to lay down and overcome and some would take time, but I pushed through the pain and frustration and I did not give up. Worship was my greatest weapon when my past begged me to give up and turn around to the familiar. When my heart was lighter, I discovered my love for writing and for mentoring women.

I remember one December morning waking up around five in the morning to spend time with Papa God and for the first time in my life I experienced the love of God. A Christian for years and I heard hundreds of teachings of His love for me, but I had to have an encounter and revelation of His great love for me. His love flowed like billows over my broken heart and I was instantly transformed in many areas of my life.

When I discovered that Jesus was madly in love with me…the shy girl with the countless issues and the low self esteem, I was changed never to be the same again. I stepped out of the shadows in His  authority, bold and fearless only because I finally knew how deeply loved I was.

I want to encourage everybody to make time to go on a wilderness journey with Papa God.

Only in Him there is a peace that surpasses all understanding and a joy unspeakable. No more “grey days” for me, Jesus filled my every void and I am head over heels in love with Him. I am forever dressed in who He says I am…an overcomer, beautiful, His warior princess, fearless, a container of His love in the earth…called and prepared for such a time as this…

— Ebigale Wilson

#HolySpiritChats 

#PoeticallyProphetic 

#EbigaleWilson

The Grey Days

I remember the “grey days” before going with Father on my wilderness journey…It seemed like a dark cloud followed me everywhere I went. My mind was like a war zone and I never knew peace. Every “challenge” would unknowingly take me back to when I was a little girl. The only way I knew how to cope with my pain and brokenness was “anger” and retreating to my “drugs”. 

I was married and a mom, but yet I was still a “little girl”, because I never took the time to go back to visit the places of my brokenness. For mere moments light would break through and I would tread on glimpses of what Jesus had planned for me. I wanted to dwell in that place of overflow, of a peace that surpasses all understanding and a deep joy…but as soon as a challenge would come I would retreat to the little wounded girl…

More then 7 years ago, when I was at my lowest, I had a dream and in the dream a lady said to me “I am so excited about the journey that God is going to take you on”. No one ever told me that it is important to go on a healing journey.

Father had to convey this important process to me through a dream…There was something different in the atmosphere and I knew that it was time to visit the “graves” I have avoided for years and to take off my masks and to open up about my struggles and pain.

Father took me aside and we started to unpack my heart and He addressed every hurt and character trait that did not represent Him. Some things were easy to lay down and overcome and some would take time, but I pushed through the pain and frustration and I did not give up. Worship was my greatest weapon when my past begged me to give up and turn around to the familiar. When my heart was lighter, I discovered my love for writing and for mentoring women.

I remember one December morning waking up around five in the morning to spend time with Papa God and for the first time in my life I experienced the love of God. A Christian for years and I heard hundreds of teachings of His love for me, but I had to have an encounter and revelation of His great love for me. His love flowed like billows over my broken heart and I was instantly transformed in many areas of my life.

When I discovered that Jesus was madly in love with me…the shy girl with the countless issues and the low self esteem, I was changed never to be the same again. I stepped out of the shadows in His  authority, bold and fearless only because I finally knew how deeply loved I was.

I want to encourage everybody to make time to go on a wilderness journey with Papa God.

Only in Him there is a peace that surpasses all understanding and a joy unspeakable. No more “grey days” for me, Jesus filled my every void and I am head over heels in love with Him. I am forever dressed in who He says I am…an overcomer, beautiful, His warior princess, fearless, a container of His love in the earth…called and prepared for such a time as this…

— Ebigale Wilson

#HolySpiritChats 

#PoeticallyProphetic 

#EbigaleWilson

All That You Do

Let all that you do be done in love.
~1 Corinthians 16:14

In Love.....❤️

Not…..

Anxiety
Angst
Apathy
Boredom
Bullying
Haste
Hostility
Hate
Regret
Remorse
Rage
Routine
Guilt
Grief
Guardedness
Ulterior Motive
Jealousy
Desire
Despair
Loneliness
Manipulation
Lust
Outrage
Panic
Pity
Pride
Worry….

ALL that you do….do in LOVE ❤️

—XXOO Michelle Bollom

The “Ites”

I have added a new “ite” to the list from my studies. Being that the truth of Gideon is highlighted for the upcoming Hebrew New Year, we would do well to understand the Midianites.

Why does God say we must DISPOSES the “ITES”?

Well 👉🏼 let’s dig into who they are….

But 1st ☝🏼 let’s look at the definition of DISPOSES

to dis·pose (s)

  1. To get rid of, throw away, to give or sell to someone else.

Similar:
throw away
throw out
👉🏼 cast out (deliverance anyone…oh look…it’s a real thing)
get rid of
do away with
discard

The “ite’s” are the spirit dwellers of the “low land”. Red your Bible. It’s clear as day.

We however, are RAISED UP WITH CHRIST JESUS IN HEAVENLY PLACES!

🔥 WE WAR FROM THIS VANTAGE POINT
🔥 NOT ON THE GROUND
🔥 NOT IN THE FLESH
🔥 BUT IN THE SPIRIT

So….who are the “ite’s”

• Midianites 👉🏼 means strife, or a place of judgement. The accusers of the brethren. They take all they can. Your identity, your inheritance, your peace. This kind speaks word curses over your life. They torment you. They’re literally compared to a dripping faucet. Think Chinese water torture. Drip, drip, drip. However, the Midianites can only take from you, because we’ve allowed it. A Midianite spirit must be given legal access by us erecting idols in our life. They have access because we’ve placed something (or someone) above God. If left unchecked they will take everything, and you will be left spiritually bankrupt. They are compared in scripture to “a swarm of locusts”.

• Hittites – means terror – your FEAR. The Lord did not give us the spirit of fear! Are you walking in POWER – LOVE – AND A SOUND MIND??

• Girgashites – means dwelling on the clay soil – 👉🏼 OPERATING IN THE FLESH. Are we dwelling on the lusts of the flesh, not putting on the righteousness of Christ and living by the Spirit??

• Amorites – means “the talkers OR the sayers” – those LOOPED TAPES – the words or thoughts not of God – the lying voices of deception. This includes 👉🏼 the gossipers, the liars, the slanderers! This includes ANY voices speaking contrary to what God says about you.

• Perizzites – means wild fruit/nomad/ wanderer – this is the “homelessness” mentality. This spirit attempts to keep your inheritance from taking root. People operating under this spirit are often moved by every wave of doctrine – they have a need to “belong”. No home. Orphan mentality

• Cannanites – to bring low or subdue – this spirit tries to hold you down. The spirit of heaviness. These are trading spirits. Traditions traded for TRUTH. Lies for Legacy. Breakthrough for breakdown. JOY for sorrow. Gardens for Graves!!

• Hivites – means False Life Giving… speaks life but for selfish gain – these are tent dwellers – pulling you into their tent mentality. Their “team”. They travel in gangs. Provision but for their personal agenda. They preach Christ but for selfish ambition, power, prestige, and a personal platform.

• Jebusites – means the down tramplers – the spirits operating in and through people who try to keep you from the Truth of God. Suppression. Powerlessness. Sadness. Depression. The victim mentality. Poor me.

These “ites” co-mingle. They love mixture. They operate together, rarely traveling alone.

They often sound like YOUR OWN VOICE.

Do NOT be fooled!
THATS NOT YOUR VOICE.
THATS NOT YOUR FATHERS VOICE.

DO NOT COME INTO AGREEMENT WITH THE LIES!

What are these “ITES” trying to keep you from?

The Promise Land 👉🏼 the promises of the land

THE PROMISES OF GOD!

Brooks & Rivers – Washed clean and flowing with The Spirit of God

Milk – The Abundance and Blessings of God

Honey – The Sweet Things of God. Taste and see that He is good!

Olive Oil – The Anointing of God & The Gifts of Holy Spirit

Pomegranates – Good Fruit & Inherited Royalty

Wheat & Barley – The Bread of Life & Total Sustenance

We must come into agreement with HIS GOODNESS! Even when the land is full of giants – FOCUS ON THE PROMISE and just KEEP WALKING! Your Father fights for you and with you! This is your INHERITANCE!!

The dominion mandate – YOU RUN TOWARD THE GIANTS 👉🏼 NOT FROM THEM! RESIST THE ENEMY AND HE MUST FLEE!

HE FLEES 👉🏼 NOT YOU!
HE RUNS AWAY FROM THE HOLY GHOST IN YOU! ⚔️ 🔥

THE COVENANT IS OUR DEED TO THE PROMISED LAND!

AND NO UNCIRCUMCISED (lack of blood covenant) PHILISTINE IS GOING TO KEEP ME FROM IT!

How about you?

—- Kingdom HD – Heidi Davis

Back To Life

I can stay here forever
In Your holy presence
This space in You
Reserved for me
Nothing compares
To knowing You
Tears fill my eyes
Remembering my past
Of how far I have come
When my world caved in
You showed up
You always did
To pick up the pieces
Of my shattered heart
You knew what to do
When I had no clue
Human intervention was not necessary
All I needed I found in You
You walked me through the valley
of the shadow of death
Your love tamed my wild emotions
Worship my greatest weapon
Till I ran on waves with You
A revelation of Your love
Brought me back to life
A lifetime will not be enough
To worship You Jesus
Every day I fall more and more
in love with You
I found myself
When I found You…

—Ebigale Wilson

Surrender Each Moment

Are you drowning in a massive “To-Do” list?

Are you finding yourself tired and worn out with not enough hours in the day?

Has your mind been wracked with fear and worry?

God will give you the grace and strength you need for each moment surrendered unto Him.

Stop fighting the currents and working against the tides.

Surrender each moment of doubt, worry, fear, and control to God, and allow Him to carry you safely where He needs you to go.

Things are never forced with God.

~ XXOO Michelle Cosby Bollom

I give the moments of my life over to You, Eternal One. Rescue me….~Psalm 31:15 The VOICE

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