The Forgivable Sin

Today as every other post, headline and news story is talking about the horrific law passed allowing abortion up to full term, my heart is deeply grieved because of this decision, but it also aches deeply for every woman and man that with each post and news story is brought back to a time of deep pain when they chose abortion.

No one chooses abortion lightly.

Fear is a powerful driving force and many are forced into making that decision. It’s never an easy decision.

I believe the best voices for the future of the unborn lies in the process of letting those that chose abortion know that there is forgiveness, wholeness and restoration available to them in Jesus Christ.

Once they are Restored – they will never want anyone to suffer as they have due to abortion.

Abortion affects people just like PTSD. It has long ranging effects.

Sadly, I have been speaking out about this to leaders and churches and communities and anyone that will listen, that abortion is as much a problem for the churched as the unchurched.

I did post abortion Bible Studies in my community through the local pregnancy center. More than half of those attending were daughters of Pastors, Deacons, Elders and Bishops … all forced to have their abortions due to the shame it would bring their fathers, families and communities.

They all either described how they worked and served hard in the Church trying to prove their good works afterwards or they simply left the church completely because of the hurt they felt because no one offered them anything other than judgement and condemnation.

The Worlds churches are full of wounded women and men sitting in congregations hurting deeply over this. Another Sanctity of Life sermon and Pro-Life rant will not heal them.

Almost all that I counseled were still holding onto their secrets and shame so tightly that many turned to various forms of counterfeit comforts – hard drugs, alcohol, pills or food to try to numb their deep pain. I was one of them too for almost 25 years.

Statistics show that almost 60% of female inmates in our prison systems have had an abortion.

Where there is a woman suffering – there is also many men suffering too.

Not every man is the driving force behind the choice to abort. Many men are deeply grieved over their parts or even lack of in the decision.

I once even heard of a young college girl that was adamant on choosing abortion and when asked why, she said that her Heavenly Father can forgive her but her earthly father said he would not forgive her if she didn’t choose abortion. Her earthly father was a prominent pastor in the community.

Today, as many people around the world are incensed by this decision, may we also be just as enraged and angry for God’s daughters and sons that have bought the lies that they are horrible murderers or people because of their choice to abort.

May we be led to help them receive forgiveness and wholeness instead of simply screaming about how horrible and wrong it is.

We ALL know how horrible it is – trust me. Oprah and Chelsea Handler and every pink hat wearer claiming rights to their choices and bodies will try to spin it differently – but it is never as simple or lighthearted as they claim it is.

May we be able to show them they are loved despite the choices they made and point them to the truth that abortion is not the unforgivable sin.

Shame can only survive in silence.

God forgave Moses and David for murder and He has forgiven me and will forgive ANYONE and EVERYONE that comes to Him and repents that have made that choice too.

Please hear me!

There is wholeness and life and life abundantly available after abortion.

We must shatter the silence and shame by allowing the Words of our testimony and the Blood of the Lamb to enable us to overcome and help others overcome.

We begin to repair our stories when we share our stories.

Yes, we must

Pray for the unborn,

Pray for the lawmakers,

but please don’t forget to

Pray for your fellow brothers and sisters that are suffering in shame and silence today.

Pray they reach out and know that they are worthy of love and forgiveness.

I am not here to say abortion is ok or that we don’t have a right to voice our righteous anger towards the killing of millions of babies every year …

No, please know and hear my heart-

I am here to say that we must do more – we can always do more than simply voicing our anger over abortion. We can be committed to help restore lives by helping anyone suffering from the affects of abortion to become forgiven, healed and whole. In doing so, we can help bring about great change to the very fabric of our Nation.

If one person is bound – we are all bound!

Contact me if you need prayer, resources, or help healing from abortion.

Together-let’s make a difference.

~ XXOO Michelle Bollom

This book in the lead photo is years in the making and I hope – Lord Willing, it will be finished this year.

Restored Ministries



Our struggles are often only a product of how we see ourselves.

If you see defeated – that’s how you’ll live.

If you see delivered – that’s how you’ll live.

If you see sick – that’s how you’ll live.

If you see health – that’s how you’ll live.

If you see lack – that’s how you’ll live.

If you see enough – that’s how you’ll live.

What are you seeing? Who are you agreeing with? Who are you believing? What are you confessing?

May today we all get ANew View and start to focus on the powerful promises of God.

Even when it doesn’t look good at the moment… He promises to work ALL things out for our good!

~XXOO Michelle

Restored Ministries

Exclusive Trust

Many of us say that we place our trust in God but when push comes to shove, and suddenly things are not going how we expect them to go, that trust is quickly shifted to other things.

Like our own efforts and striving, the doctors diagnosis, popular opinions, a counselor or friends advice, our finances and resources or more countless alternatives that seem a bit more sure than an unseen God not moving as fast as we think He should.

Relying on false assurances is dangerous.

We must forsake all pride and confidence in other things and our own flesh and trust in God alone.

This type of trust takes great courage but it’s what is required of us.

God promises that when we make Him our exclusive trust we can expect to be Blessed.

Blessed is the one who makes the Lord his trust. ~ Psalm 40:4

~ XXOO Michelle

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She lived in the shadows 

Away from all eyes

Too scared to step into the light

It suits her just fine

Living away from all eyes

Nobody told her that she 

was here for a purpose 

Born to have the Father’s 

heart beating through her

To carry His presence 

wherever she tread

Born to lead wounded daughters back to the 

Fathers heart

Voices kept her in chains

Fear wrote her life story

There was no one she 

could turn to

No one to rescue her

Just the sound of people

judging her

Years went by

Religion her lifeline…yet she 

stayed bound

A yearning to taste freedom 

awaken in her

She was born for relationship

Born to encounter her God

Yet dreadfulness clinged to her

Generational tombs held 

her hostage

She couldn’t fathom the love 

of her Creator

She could not believe that 

Love was always here

Begging her to step out of 

the shadows

Would He love her enough 

to linger for a moment?

Gather her tears in a bottle?

Would He really waste His 

time to sing over her?

He found her in the shadows

Not a trace of the woman

He knew she could be

The glory of His presence enveloped her whole being

His presence shattered the tombs she was chained to

She stood there… alone

Yet free for the first time

While He sang His identity 

over her!

She became desperate for 

His presence

Every moment she could 

she spent with Him

And every time she left 

His presence

She carried a part of Papa’s 

heart with her 

It took a journey of pain 

and betrayal

To discover her worth

A journey of uncommon faith 

To know the depths of the Father’s heart for her

He washed her with His 

costly blood

Anointed her with 

fragrant oils

Entered into a covenant 

with her

She no longer visits the shadows

Unless she must help a wounded daughter into His marvellous Light!

~ Ebigale Wilson


The Journey

We Will Rise

the year of change is here

it is now

and it is for us;

may this be the year

our beauty rises

from the ashes,

unfolds us

one petal at a time,

so the roots defining us

can help us write out

upon our lives

who we are meant to be;

we are more than our past

cause we’re not weak

as those who say we are,

we’re not trapped in pain

as our minds try to convince

us that we are,

we’re not backing down…

no, we are rising

and in doing so,

we’re cutting off anything

that’s hindering us

from our freedom

to be at peace

and we’ll uproot

anything toxic from our lives

cause nothing will stand

in our way…

we’re unstoppable

and we will crush darkness

without a thought of it

devouring our light

in our soul;

to wounds engraved

upon our hearts

causing us to bleed internally,

you will not last forever

as we will soon be healed

from the pain that puts you there;

we are ready for the battles

it’ll take us to fight and

win our war against our past

cause we won’t be taken down,

we will take it down and

bleed our wounds

healed forever,

so watch us do that very thing;

we won’t stay in the darkness,

we will rise to tune

to His freedom.

~Bethany Anne

We Will Rise

I Am

Remember: I Am is present tense

God’s Promises Have Not Expired

Eternal One: I AM WHO I AM. This is what you should tell the people of Israel: “I AM has sent me to rescue you.” This is what you are to tell Israel’s people: “The Eternal, the God of your fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob is the One who has sent me to you.” This is My name forevermore, and this is the name by which all future generations shall remember Me.~Exodus 3:14-15 VOICE

Jesus, the Anointed One, is always the same—yesterday, today, and forever. ~Hebrews 13:8 TPT

Jesus Christ is the Son of God, and He is the one whom Timothy, Silas, and I have preached to you—and He has never been both a “yes” and a “no.” He has always been and always will be for us a resounding “YES!” For all of God’s promises find their “yes” of fulfillment in Him. And as His “yes” and our “amen” ascend to God, we bring Him glory! ~2 Corinthians 1:19-20 TPT

~ XXOO Michelle


Fasting is not a big scary thing just for the ultra mature Christian.

Many will tell you how and what to do – even corporate fasts are all the rage now and can sometimes seem to pressure you into fasting.

One time my church did a corporate fast after I had done a 40 day fast and I felt pressured to join everyone – I even pressured my family to do it.

We were miserable!

I asked God “what’s wrong – why so hard to fast for 3 weeks – I just finished a 40 days fast and it was amazing?”

He clearly told me – “I didn’t ask you to fast”. I was like – “Yeah but everyone else is “… He told me – “That’s what’s wrong – everyone follows the crowds instead of following Me.”

So I only do corporate fasts if the Lord specifically speaks to me to join them now. And I don’t pressure my family to join me.

I explain it to my kiddos and others like this …”Fasting is to simply get alone with God. Take a time out.

Ask Him what is tugging at your heart more than the tug to spend time with Him.”

“What do you gravitate to for comfort besides the Great Comforter?”

If you think of fasting and the first “thing” you think of and quickly panic and say – “oh I couldn’t fast that” … that is generally and probably the thing you need to fast.

Some say fasting is like sharpening your ax, clearing and cleaning out your spiritual eyes and ears, emptying your glass to be filled up, or removing the calluses of our flesh built up on our hearts, (the last one is my own personal definition!)

I know for me when I fast I feel like I am tuning in and tuning out the static and can almost hear the audible voice of God.

Years ago we practiced Lent.

The idea is to Press in – Go Deeper – and Beyond with God during that Lent Season before Easter.

We would pig out on Fat Tuesday then cold turkey give up everything.

Ice cream, cheeseburgers, Pizza, fried foods, video games, TV, and sweets for Lent until one year God said – “how about be nicer to your husband and pack his lunch every day”…. 😳

“Uhm – You are funny God!”

But I finally did just that and it was one of the hardest but also the best seasons and turning points in my spiritual growth and my marriage when I gave up selfishness and served someone else intentionally for a season. This one actually stuck and I am still packing the hubs lunch today.

Fasting takes intention.

Every time that tug towards what you are fasting surfaces – you take the urge to God.

Pray, read the Word, Worship.

Or (Keep your nagging critical mouth shut and pack a lunch)

Soon you will find your empty cup filling up with lots of great things.

Fasting also doesn’t have to be 21 days or a month or 2 months or 7 days.

It can simply be for 1 day or 1 hour.

It’s what you and the Lord decide.

~ XXOO Michelle

I fasted for 40+ days a couple of years ago and blogged my journey. You can check it out here for a good laugh …or inspiration… or to maybe distract you while you are fasting…