That Feeling

Make sure your alignments are right for God’s assignments!

When we trust Him to do it – He will always do it far better than we could of hoped for!

~XXOO Michelle

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Far Better

I got super wounded recently.

Someone’s true motives were exposed that turned out to be so different than what I had thought and I felt duped and shock and hurt, But I was determined not to get offended or take the bait.

I was crying out to God and bawling and snotting a bit over it – teetering back and forth from mad to hurt to starting to get offended to back to praying for them and their ministry

when God spoke to my heart…

”Trust me Michelle! – whatever you feel you lost or were hurt or rejected by is My hand positioning you for more and better alignments – It’s for your ultimate protection and for something far better.”

REALLY, how could that be? The devil must have gotten a hold of this person to do this… I have pretty HIGH LEVEL Discernment, How did I not see this coming?

Honestly y’all ….I wanted to shout from the rooftops that this person had Done Me Dirty! Then, when I found out they also had flat out lied to me on top of things I really felt like they had Double Done Me Dirty!.

But, God kept saying,

Let Me Fight Your Battles!”

I wanted the last word, I wanted instant vindication, I wanted them to apologize or pay or feel sorry for what they did. I wanted them to be exposed for their lies so no-one else got HoodWinked or hurt by them.

God wanted me to Forgive, Release, Bless, Pray for them and sit back and keep my mouth shut while He worked it all out for my ultimate good.

It was a few days and somedays I trusted, other days my head space got wacky and I had to step back and praise and dance through my disappointments and trust and worship Him when I felt defeated or discouraged or not seeing what possibly was He doing in this situation to speak to me or teach me or was He really doing anything about this injustice I felt had been done to me, HELLO.

I obeyed and chose to

do it God’s way.

I prayed. I forgave them for lying to me. I forgave them for doing what they did. I prayed for them and their family, their ministry and released them to God. I released the hurt and toxic emotions every time they creeped up and in. I thanked God for seeing what I didn’t and for removing this alignment.

I also unfollowed them so I wouldn’t have to see their face for awhile while God did His complete work in healing my heart.

(So, you may need to do that too to some folks.)

Within days… literally mere DAYS later I had 3 specific big answers to prayers I was waiting on from God. He answered in Crazy Big ways that I would not have even dreamed possible.

He partnered me with a couple of amazing people to finish some big projects. He even showed me a couple of crazy “God Winks” by number sequences aligning up in a HUGE blessing to me and Restored Ministries that will bless many others through this special alignment.

As I sat there just MIND BLOWN – God said –

“Who and how you thought about alignment/s is NOT how I am doing things” …. “Thanks for trusting Me and letting Me remove the old to make way for the new.”

He has taught me to Look again and Look closer… To release my control because His ways are so much better than my ways.

He taught me to wait. To Trust. To keep doing what I needed to do amidst the hurt and betrayal.

On this side of the hurt feels Oh’ so much better!

I was like, “OH YEAH…High Five Myself… BYE FELISHA …God Gots me! Oh, Won’t He Do It!!! Boom Shaka Lakka Boom. Yep, God is THE BOMB DIGGITY … and SO much more.

But I realize as I can celebrate now in my wounding, some are still deep in the betrayal and hurt side of things. Some may have not even gotten there yet. But we will, I will, you will, we all will, at some point be hurt and disappointed and hoodwinked and betrayed again.

As a dear friend felt alone and wounded and just about to throw in the towel, I told her my story and how God worked it out. That’s how we overcome, by the words of our testimonies and the blood of Jesus, and by being real and raw and taking things to God and trusted friends and praying and letting God fight our battles.

God may not work hers out the same as mine, He may do something even grander and over the top, because that is what I am praying for her. Exceedingly and abundantly more than she could hope, think or even ask for.

But, whatever it is…

God is not a respecter of persons and what He does for me He can do for her and for you and anyone else.

Hey, even for the one that “Did Me Double Dirty”…

He still loves them too.

Trust God to fight your battles. Let Him remove those alignments…Hold on loosely…and regardless how hurtful or shocking the betrayal..do the work to keep your heart unmoved by offense, stay humble, and alway Forgive, Release & Pray/Bless those that hurt you.

~ XXOO Michelle

Look Closer

Have you ever seen a display or bowl of fake fruit or food?

They can look so legit, until you get closer and inspect them. Sometimes, they are so authentic looking that you may even have to touch it or taste it to realize it is a counterfeit. A big ole FAKE!

The counterfeit market is such a big problem. I saw a documentary stating it was a multi-billion dollar industry.

People passing off fakes as authentic items and getting lots of money to dupe and lie to people.

People duping people, people using people, people lying to people, all that is not something new and not just happening in the designer watch and purse markets. It happens everyday, even in Christian circles, churches, and ministries.

We have all discovered those wolves hiding in sheep’s clothing.

We usually discover it not by seeing a little zipper exposed or a raveled thread. Although our discernment may pick up on those things; it usually happens by personally being wounded by someone that appeared authentic, but instead really turned out to be an abuser or user.

So, the moral peeps –

L👀k Closer!

Inspect the fruit!

or food, or purse or watch or person….

L👀k Closer!

It can seem robust and lush and shiny and beautiful or enticing and authentic, but once you really inspect it, touch it, spend some time with it, and maybe taste it, it could be just a Big Ole Fake!

I saw this funny Meme… It said,

“Try to remember the greener grass across the fence may be due to a septic tank issue.”

Discernment is key!

Lord, thank You that nothing hidden stays hidden. Reveal to us those counterfeit alignments and associations that are not for us. Bring us the authentic real alignments and Divine Connections You have designed for us to carry out Your assignments, plans, and purposes. Give us discernment and clear vision to recognize those counterfeits and wolves in sheep’s clothing. May we move in boldness and courage to walk away and release them. We trust You to sift the wheat from the chaff.

~ XXOO Michelle

Don’t Bite

A Humble Heart Shall Not Be Moved

This has become my favorite phrase lately!

You see, the enemy wants us offended. If we can get offended that will divide the body of Christ faster than anything.

A divided “anything” isn’t very strong. James 3:16 says:

Where there is strife there is every evil thing.

Unity really pisses the devil off.

He likes strife.

John Bevere’s best selling book “The Bait Of Satan” is so perfectly titled and truly depicts exactly what offense is and does. When we take the bait of offense it keeps us crippled and captive. It really is a deadly trap.

So, what do you do when you are stung by someone’s actions or words?

Being hurt or disappointed is very different than being offended – but it can feel very much the same and

can turn into offense if you let it fester.

You can either speak up or stay quiet – which many choose the latter because speaking up is not always well received, but what is crucial is you MUST release the emotions to God.

Let Him remove them and heal you.

Ask God to flood your heart with love and humility so that your pride doesn’t want to call the shots and tempt you to bite and take the bait.

Also, singing this Promise helps!

Great Peace have they that love thy law and NOTHING shall offend them. ~ Psalm 119:165

Try it the next time you lose your peace or feel a sting!

Spit the hook out and say with me…

“A Humble Heart Shall Not Be Moved”

Lord, help us let go of hurts and disappointments today so they don’t fester into offense and resentments. Help us to always abide in love.

~ XXOO Michelle Bollom

That Clinches It!

4 years ago I was in a tough season. I felt like a boxer getting that uppercut or left hook out of nowhere and I was teetering big time. I was spent and tired and told God I needed a word or I wanted to quit.

I did the ole Bible flip – not gonna lie … and as I released it opened to this verse.

“That clinches it—help’s coming,

an answer’s on the way,

everything’s going to work out.”

~Psalm 20:6 MSG

So I want to encourage you.

If you are barely holding on today and you need a word … claim this Promise for yourself today!

~ XXOO Michelle

Keep Your Focus – The Shift Is Here

I have an excitement in my spirit for what Papa is about to do in this season.

Papa has really done a deep work in our hearts, the scalpel went in deep to get rid of everything that might hinder us in the future.

Where Papa is taking us, our character, fruit and motives will expose us if we didn’t go through the process. 

Hearts and character training will be swift if we surrender to the process, lean into Him and spend time in the secret place.

A few days ago we had a challenge in our family. One moment we were still hurt and shocked, but the next moment, I felt something stirring within my belly and right there my flesh collided with Holy Spirit and Father did a swift work in not only me, but our family.

Things that we have been struggling with for years, Papa will deal with quickly, because He knows our desire is to change and be more like Him.

He has also been speaking to me that many of His sons and daughters feel that they have missed His visitation and promises in previous seasons.

Many feel they are no longer on Papa’s time schedule because of the detours they took or mistakes they have made.

He wants you to know that you are right where you are supposed to be.

Every mistake, ever hindrance, every attack, won’t stop His promises and dreams for you.

You are so close, keep your focus. This is a season of acceleration and suddenlies. 

In a vision I saw how we’re on our journeys, dressed in rags, tired, at the end of ourselves at times, but then without us knowing Papa would pick us up, caress and kiss our faces, then put us down to complete our journey.

I believe it’s in these times that Papa imparts His strength and joy within us to walk out our journeys in the midst of our trials and brokenness.

Father is also revealing secrets to us through dreams, visions and prophetic words, this is to help us to stay on course and to keep our focus, in the midst of the enemy raging.

We already know what the outcome will be, so rest in Papa, while He fights your battles.

His thoughts are higher then ours. Papa will bring us to the place of birthing if we are led by His spirit.

May the joy of the Lord be your strength as you walk through the last stretch of your wilderness.

Father is cheering us on, not to give up because He knows we were obedient and faithful in the midst of our pain and struggles.

He is so proud of His remnant, set apart bride that didn’t give in under the pressure and persecution of their enemies.

Keep your focus, let Papa be your place of rest, the shift is here!

Romans 8:14

For all who are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God.

Nehemiah 8:10

The joy of the Lord is my strength.

~ Ebigale Wilson

Keep Your Focus – The Shift Is Here

My Awakening

Stuck inside a house I built…

Locked the doors and closed the shutters…

With no strength left to cry for help

I hid in bed under the covers

Stuck inside a shade of blue

Sadness was my only comfort

I didn’t know that only You

Could fill my world with all the colors…

This is my awakening

That while my heart was fast asleep

You were resurrecting me

I thought that I would never breathe

I thought the pain would never leave

But You’re redeeming everything

Now there’s a dawn at every turn

You speak to me in new beginnings

A ray of sun to heal the hurt

The music stops but You’re still singing

This is my awakening

That while my heart was fast asleep

You were resurrecting me

I thought that I would never breathe

I thought the pain would never leave

But You’re redeeming everything

Everything, everything

Mmm mmm mmm mmm

Mmm mmm mmm mmm

Oh oh oh

Oh oh oh

Oh oh oh

Oh oh oh

This is my awakening

I’m never going back to sleep

How could I after what I’ve seen

This is my awakening

There’s color now in everything

Color now in everything

This is my awakening

I’m never going back to sleep

How could I after what I’ve seen

This is my awakening

There’s color now in everything

Color now in everything…

“Awakening”

Songwriters: Amanda Cook / Jason Ingram / Steffany Gretzinger

Awakening lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Listen to song here 👇🏻

Restored Ministries

Your Healing Hour

What Kind Of Friends Do You Have?

What kind of friends do you have?

Are they people who complain or criticize a lot?

Are they people who make fun of laugh at us, gossip or put others down?

Are they flaky or are they faithful?

Are they people that live with no boundaries or moral codes and tempt you to constantly compromise? Or become a lower version of yourself? Or make you feel bad about yourself?

The kind of people we want to be will decide what kind of friends we have.

You are who you hang out with.

My daddy had a crude but true saying: “You can’t hang around 💩 poop and not expect to start smelling.”

If we want to feel sorry for ourselves, we will choose friends who will tell us how right we are and let us complain and stay stuck in self-pity or a victim mentality.

If we want to think we’re better than others, we will hang around people who laugh at and judge or gossip about others’ and think they are entitled and always justified in doing so.

If we want to be validated or feel better in our sins and shortcomings we will surround ourselves with people that have no boundaries or problem entertaining that which cheapens them.

But if we want to be the best we can be, we will pick friends who see the good in life and the good in all people. Those who will pray and encourage us to be uniquely ourselves and who will help us try harder at things that are difficult for us. Those who sharpen us on those days we are getting dull and falling short of God’s glorious standards or best for us.

Those people that don’t compete or envy and speak truth in love when we are buying lies. They don’t talk behind our backs, share our confidences with others, and always want the best for us even when we don’t see the best for ourselves in the moment.

I want to be that kind of friend.

I want to have those types of friends.

“Divine Connections”

Divinely Connected by God.

Keeping Christ first and center always. Setting each other up for success. Celebrating each other.

Crying with each other.

Holding hands up when they can’t lift them for themselves.

No pretense – no envy – no junk or gunk. No exclusion or cliques or fake and phony stuff.

Those to call me out and those that are willing to hear the hard stuff too so we can snatch others and ourselves out of isolation and darkness and bondage when we need to.

How about you?

Take an inventory of the 5 closest people in your life. What are their strengths and weaknesses.

What do you think of the moment you think of them?

Do you feel at peace and uplifted and encouraged and don’t think of having to change how you look or act before you see them?

Or are you having to feel like you must alter your authentic self in certain ways before you can be around them and have to weigh every word?

Somethings to think on today …

~ XXOO Michelle

Restored Ministries

Your Healing Hour

Turn Your Back On Worry

May you have the faith to cast your cares upon Jesus.

May you truly believe that He cares deeply for you.

May you have the grit to turn your back on worry and the holy growl to put fear under your feet.

May you embrace the peace that God provides and walk in the grace that He freely offers you.

May you believe that His promises are true for you.

You’re someone He loves.

Travel light today.

Sleep well tonight.

~ Fenich Jerry

Nightmares

brutal,

terrifyingly realistic

as I wake up calling out

someone’s name

in sheer panic

cause my dream

says they’re dead

while in fact they’re still

asleep in bed;

it’s 4am and I am

crying uncontrollably

cause I’m telling you

I now am confused,

is my dream reality

and my reality a dream…

I get mixed up

and it takes me awhile

to realize what’s real,

to calm myself down…

I am grieving a loss

that hasn’t happened;

my dream points to

intruder,

gun,

victim,

but reality is ok

although I don’t know

what’s real and

what’s not;

I’ve gotten to the point

where I dread sleep

cause I know my fears

will bleed me awake

.

.

.

.

Bethany Anne

Nightmares