A Fraud And A Pariah

My greatest fear is that I would be found to be a fraud and then become a pariah— a man faking his faith, with no love, no knowledge of God, and no integrity. Becoming an outcast and a pariah. This is deeply rooted in me, and it steals my joy and my peace. It harkens back to a time in my life when I was a fraud, a fool, and a pariah. The memories still haunt me.

The world and Satan would love to freeze frame us and lock us into a self image based on our worst moments and our darkest days.

Our Father in Heaven and those who truly love us are rooting for us to rise up, declare the past dead and gone, and, like Paul the apostle, “strain forward” to what is ahead.  

Our past does not define us; our present reality and our future destiny are all that matter.

I would rather have a wretched past and a glorious future than a perfect past and a dubious future.  

There are many who have lived a socially acceptable life but have not bent their knees to Jesus, and all of their good works and social acceptance will be burned up on judgement day.

So the only fearful prospect in life is to be found “wretched, pitiful, poor, blind, and naked” by Jesus—his verdict on all those who rely on their own resources and refuse to come to him for their life.

When we give our lives to Jesus, he becomes our “wisdom, righteousness, sanctification, and redemption”—our everything.  

How do we know if we have made this essential transaction with Jesus? How do we know if we have made him our life?  

I suppose that it is in the quiet moments, when our hearts and our minds drift toward their default settings, that we discover who we really are. When we get off work, turn off the tv, and just rest. Then, where do we run for refuge; what do we delight in; what gives us peace and joy?

I hope that it is our forgiveness and our great inheritance that both flow from our reliance on the precious price of blood that Our Savior paid for us  2,000 years ago. It is a heritage and an inheritance that will stand the test of time and withstand the onslaught of trials and troubles. It is durable and dependable—the rock on which we stand!

~ Brad Heilhecker

In Christ we all have a Bright Future Ahead!

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Who Am I ? 

Who am I? 
            Let’s see…
Maybe I am my bank account.  
Maybe I am my popularity.  
My position?  
My status?  
                  Really now…
Am I my achievements? 
The sum of all the pleasures I enjoy?  
My good health?  
My appearance?
                     How frail we are!  
What if I lost everything – my health, my popularity, my acceptable appearance, my money, my friends, my home, my family, my mind? Who would I be?  

Would I still be loved?  
Is there something at my core that is lovable?

We were created in love, by love, and for love.  

Who’s your daddy?  
My daddy is Love.  
Does he have a last name?  
No, just Love.  
What does he do?  
He loves.  
Anything else?  
No, just loves.  
Does he ever stop loving?  


~ Brad Heilhecker 

My Everything 

Love that would reach 

past my deepest despair

Love that would see past 

the prodigal I have become

Love that looked past 

my sin and mistakes

To what I could become

He drew me in 

when I wanted to run

He drew me in 

when I clung to my past

He drew me in

He wouldn’t let go

I have gone too far, 

or so I believed

No one took the time 

to tell me it’s a lie

For years I sunk 

deeper into sin

Further and further

I drifted from His light

Past hopelessness

Past broken dreams

Shame and guilt like shadows, 

leading me further away 

from the Light

Torturing me with the 

ghosts of my past

Torturing me by the choices

I chose to make

Alone with no way of escape

I sunk deeper

I chose to believe the enemies lies

He lost his grip on me

The day Love got a hold of me

He lured me in

Captured me

Till I didn’t want to break free

He set me on a path

Of knowing Him

Amidst the daily battles I fight

Amidst the enemy pleading his plight

I have to discern whose voice 

will be louder

If I want to grow

If I want to win

If I want to meet 

one day with my King

Even when my fears want to win

When the enemy paints pictures 

of losing the battle

He invites me to run 

on waves with Him

Deeper and deeper we go

Till I surrender and let faith win

Past my fears that have kept me 

in chains for years

Past my shame that told me 

I am worthless

Past my pain that kept me in bondage for years

So that only His will, will be done in my life

He loves His son’s and daughter’s

A love that could never be compared 

by the good we have done

He will go down the gutter to

be One with us

Break every barrier

Erasing whatever keeps us 

from experiencing His heart

Nothing compares when we find Him

He is the light on my path

The air that I breath

The love of my life

My everything

~ Ebigale Wilson 

Image – Elena Kelis – Pinterest 

Restoration Stories – Joann Carpenter 

I have walked with some of the shadiest characters–drug cartels and drunken fools–and put those closest to me in danger to witness my own twisted downfall. 

I’ve suffered near death experiences through abuse from the hand of man and my own choices- I am only alive because of the Father

After hitting my knees crying out to the Father “Help me I can’t do this anymore,” HE, after allowing me to walk 24-years in rebellion, addiction and tragedy, stopped time and reached inside of me and pulled 24 years of victim mentality, addiction (smoking cigarettes and pot, drinking, occasional cocaine, and sexual desires) right out of me. YHSVH began at an accelerated rate restoring all that the enemy has taken and multiplied His goodness.

After the Angel of The Lord came to me in 2011 revealing who I was as a prophet and oracle, He began to train and equip me for the revealing of this position, laying a foundation for what was to come. I have been anointed and equipped with the honor to serve the King of kings, Lord of lords, opening the blind eyes, deaf ears and command the lame to walk into the deeper, hidden mysteries of heaven, revealing our true identity. It is here, His original blueprints over our lives and all of creation manifest on earth as it is in heaven.

I am a sister, mother, daughter, wife, YHSVH (Jesus) friend, minister, Kingdom Dweller, Son(position) of G-d, Author of a New upcoming book  “NAVIGATING THE ASHES-Discovering Your Blueprints”, owner of Arising Sons of God and public speaker. I operate from the Government of Heaven as an administrator/legislator—All for the advancement of the Kingdom of Heaven, as it is all about Him and His Glory to be revealed. All of Him, none of me.   

Some Scriptures I really love:
He said to them, “Therefore every teacher of the law who has become a disciple in the kingdom of heaven is like the owner of a house who brings out of his storeroom new treasures as well as old.” Matthew 13:52 NIV

For in Him we live and move and exist [that is, in Him we actually have our being], as even some of your own poets have said, ‘For we also are His children Acts 17:28 AMP

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6:33 KJV

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WORTHY THOUGHT: Be a Tomorrow Thinker. 

The only thing worse than being blind is having a sight but no vision.-Helen Keller

Dreams of tomorrow help us to persevere through adversity of today, endure criticism, and finish strong.  
And the Lord answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tablets, that he may run that readeth it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry.-Habakkuk 2:2-3

Tomorrow thinkers get the most out of everyday. Be patient even during difficult times 

God is always at work planning for our future. Trust in Him for He is directing all things for His purpose.

~ Angela Lipe-Pattengill 

Our Time To Be Loved 

Deep down we all are the same

We just walk with our masks on 

our faces

Pretending to have it all together

While inside we sit with our 

scars and our pain

We cover the scars, try to hide 

the pain

The bandages wet with our tears

There’s no time to deal with heart issues

No one to listen

No one to talk to

We drift in the background 

Clinging to our pain like a prize

We are in this rat race leading 

no where

While we run further away

From the King of our hearts

Tormented in our minds

Our hearts never free

To taste the depths of His extravagant love

Our time to be loved is now!!!

Long enough, were we bound up 

in robes of our past

Holding us captive

With no sign of freedom

While He wants to dress us in robes of His love

He is wooing us, to find the path to His heart

Step out of your grave clothes

Take off your mask

Trade your ashes for a love journey 

with Him

Trade your pain for freedom unknown

In Him you will find what you need

He will calm every storm you are facing

Together you will win many battles

Your King has summoned you to 

His presence

He extended His scepter to you

You are deeply loved and favoured

He will take your brokenness and make you whole

He is a covenant God

He paid a high price for you to be free

He will meet you in your deepest pain 

There is no time to waste!!!

For your time to be loved is now!!!

He will erase all your pain with a stroke of His love

Others still bound up are waiting 

for you

To step into their lives

Their freedom is bound up in your surrender

Stop wasting your time on things 

of the past

In Him you will find a brand new start

I see your face radiant with joy

His peace invading your whole being

You are finally free to love and be loved

There is a new song on your lips of redemption and love

You have exchanged your rags for a garment of fine linen and silk

You have made yourself ready

As your eyes lock with His, 

and you are finally free

You step out to rescue other bride’s

For their time to be loved is now.

~ Ebigale Wilson  

His Word Never Fails 

Again I looked and saw all the oppression that was taking place under the sun: I saw the tears of the oppressed— and they have no comforter; power was on the side of their oppressors— and they have no comforter.~ Ecclesiastes 4:1 NIV

For we all struggle. We all venture the hills and valleys, the periods of dark places, the unforseen places, ones that draw up every emotion – good and bad.

Don’t we all understand those places? Many are experiencing those today. 

If you find yourself dealing with difficult circumstances, unanswered prayers, death, sickness, or brokenness, my heart just goes out to you. 

More so, God’s heart goes out to you. He knows and understands and he wants you to know….. HE IS HERE. 

He is in this difficult time, he understands the areas that you find hard to face because they are unknown. And he is working all things out for his good, his word never fails.

For no word from God will ever fail.~Luke 1:37 NIV

May the Lord instill his peace and comfort into your heart, mind and soul. May he bestow the very blessing of his word onto and into your circumstances. God’s will has always been to accomplish the intended plan for your life. So grasp onto his hand. Walk and talk with him, during this season.

~ Baring His Beauty,

    Tiffany Thomas 

He Knows The End 

I make known the end from the beginning, from ancient times, what is still to come. I say, ‘My purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please.’ Isaiah 46:10 NIV

When I reflect back into my past, when I share my testimony, it’s hard to believe that I lived in such darkness. Moreover, it’s incomprehensible sometimes to think that God preserved something in me, creating a resilience that I never understood was there.

In various trials and in my greatest losses, I felt alone. I was abandoned in wonder, while questioning so many things.

For me, much of life never made sense. I existed in an environment that left me feeling empty and covered in shame. I was lost in desperation, continually searching for something that I couldn’t describe to anyone, let alone to myself.

I’ve learned that I was never alone. 
Everyone. Has. A. Story.
Even. Jesus. Had. A. Story.

The pain that He suffered for my sin still doesn’t make any sense to me. The fact that he chose me and loves me enough for a price such as life? How could that be?!

But [God] in [completeness], created a perfect way through the life of his only begotten son. In humble adoration, I can’t help but to honour him for finding value in me, especially when I still do not deserve such a gift.

There is no way for me to comprehend this kind of love. In efforts, I am incapable.

Yet, I have come to accept that some things are beyond my power and control, no matter my state of understanding.

Some. Things. Just. Don’t. Make. Sense. 

Yet, God knows….He created the end from the beginning. For he has a purpose for you and for me. And someday, we will all meet him face to face. He will reveal exactly what will be.

Lord, we come to you in a reverent love, finding peace in knowing that you know how our circumstances end. You know what our life looks like in eternity. Bless ALL who call upon the name of Jesus and who selflessly surrender to your will.

In your precious name, Amen.

Baring His Beauty,

Tiffany Thomas 

The Hard Way 

For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few. Matt.7.14.ESV

For many years, I lived limited in my surroundings. As I considered and lived out who I thought I was, I found myself feeling unworthy and without purpose or direction.

Traveling on roads that are covered with debris and obstacles, can cause one of two things. Either you look at what is there and decide it’s not worth moving and then head back, or you start moving the debris and obstacles out of the way, clearing a path so that you can continue on.

I admit, that I have turned back several times. Low confidence resulted in missed opportunities, undeveloped personal growth, missed relationships, and reaching others. I didn’t understand who I was, or the light that shined inside of me.
I couldn’t accept that God created me for him.

But thankfully, about five years ago, God met me in the dark. He replaced the enemy’s lies with his own truth, and a stagnant placement with a passion for innovation.

He told me who I was in him and then guided me to where I was able to learn it for myself. He led me to the narrow road.
He said, “I delegated you for my people, and the only way to press forward is by getting up.”

“You have to be standing before you can move.”

God, allow us to experience your gate which is narrow. Remind us that living the hard way leads to life which is in you.

May we find life abundantly today.

Baring His Beauty,

Tiffany Thomas

Approximations Of Our Future 

Our heart’s desire – to finally be able to cease from toilsome labor and just enjoy life, to work on building relationships, to delve into the depths of our partnership with the Almighty, to know God as Father and friend, Savior and Lord. We want to develop our hobbies and passions, to re-create ourselves, to become new, fresh, and enthusiastic about life. We need time to think, to pray, and to dream. We desire time to just be without having to do.

If nothing else, heaven will be restful. 

 Here on earth, Our Father gives us glimpses of our heavenly rest as we meditate on his word and his ways, as we explore paths of peace and love, and as we set our ambitions and affections on the things of the kingdom. If earth is the appetizer, then heaven is the five course meal, a banquet of love. If earth is our apprenticeship, then heaven is our full partnership with all that is holy and good, and with all who have been adopted into the royal family.

We are told to cease striving and to be still and just know that Our God is GOD, that he will be exalted in the earth. He is the strategist; he is the master tactician. Military geniuses, master chess players, and corporate giants are only mere shadows of our creator, sustainer, and vindicator. The Lord, the King of kings, not only sees 10 moves ahead, but he sees the end from the beginning. He knows what he is going to do today, and he knows what he is going to do on the last day of mankind’s final revolt against his authority.

We can hardly imagine the paradise awaiting us, the bliss that is our inheritance. We are so accustomed to life’s toils and troubles, we might wonder what we would do with our lives if we weren’t having to overcome some difficulty. We might wonder how we would feel if all negative emotions just ceased to exist. We might wonder what we would see if everything around us was all of a sudden infinitely beautiful.

To see the eternal, the infinite, to be children of light, to live in a kingdom of light and love, to be immortal, eternal beings like our Father – this is our inheritance. Power beyond imagination, peace which passes understanding, love so strong that it would make the mighty faint – these are only approximations of our future. We will surely be like God, for we will see him as he is.

~ Brad Heilhecker