Just Breathe My Dear 


I see your smile slowly fading

And the twinkle in your eyes growing dim

You carry the weight of the world

And every one else’s burdens

While stuffing your hurts and desires 

to the bottom of the pile

Made to feel unworthy by past mistakes

That others throw in your face

How long How long you cry

Till you can be free of the angst

The sadness you push down sometimes so far 

You don’t even know what it is for anymore

You perform and perfect all that is around you 

Hoping that will make things easier to bear

Or just to be appeasing to the eyes 

or not add to the stress

The stress held down by the bites on your lips

The quiver if started may not be able to quit

The flowing of tears held back by a unbreakable dam for far too long

Breaking free like a release of pressure 

long over due is your dream 

Tears cleansing and flowing can only make 

You feel better for a moment 

Then you compose and carry on 

Keeping guard of your heart 

And continue carrying all those things you shouldn’t 

You find yourself stuck between the life you thought and the life you now live

Wondering ….
Am I worthy of being loved just the way I am

Faults and flaws all beautifully broken open 

On display without need for hiding anymore

If I am truly forgiven and free 

Why do I live like I am still imprisoned  

Your heart aching and longing 

for something more

Something easy and comfortable and not 

this egg shell walking dance you perform 

Moment after moment 

Day after day

Week after week

Month after month

Year after year

Grasping at the why’s….

Why do I allow them to make me feel less than 

That I don’t deserve respect and honor

That I am here as a stomping mat to

step all over 

Why do I stuff it all down till I blow 

Why do they fling these dings at my already worn out armor

Why do I keep these calluses formed on the edges of my heart from every hurtful word slung my way

Dreaming of wants …..

I want to look in the mirror and see joy and light 

I want a purpose and freedom

I want to see laugh lines instead of these 

tear stained crevices 

I want to feel love and care and comfort

wrapped tightly around me

I want this lonely silence to be filled with praise and thankfulness instead of dread and regret

I don’t know what or how but I need…

           Something More….

I need a move from something so much 

more powerful than I

I need a Savior that can rescue me

I need a hope and a future 

I need a peace that surpasses all understanding

I need for someone to come and speak truth to my soul to replace all these lies 

I don’t even know how to invite You in

I barely have the strength to keep breathing….
Then as His still small voice pierces my darkness and fills my lungs with air 

I hear “Just Breathe My Dear”
simply inhale 

And say 

I need ….You Jesus 

as you breathe in …. 
Then as you slowly exhale 

breathe out ….

You are Enough 

As you continue do that over and over 

Remember

                  My Beloved ….. 
I hear your cries

I hear your wants

I hear your wondering and your whys 

I hear you…..

You are 

enough 

worthy

free

forgiven

loved

redeemed

Keep breathing Me in …. 

Moment by moment 

Day by day

Week by week

Month by month 

Year by year 

I am here. I am always here. 

I am just a breath away


           Just Breathe My Dear 

         ~ XXOO Michelle Bollom 

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The Emptiness Of The Universe 

Watch out for people who try to dazzle you with big words and intellectual double-talk. They want to drag you off into endless arguments that never amount to anything. They spread their ideas through the empty traditions of human beings and the empty superstitions of spirit beings. 

But that’s not the way of Christ. 

Everything of God gets expressed in Him, so you can see and hear Him clearly. You don’t need a telescope, a microscope, or a horoscope to realize the fullness of Christ, and the emptiness of the universe without Him.

When you come to him, that fullness comes together for you, too. His power extends over everything. ~ Colossians 2:8-10 MSG 

I just love how the Message translation states that middle part: You don’t need a telescope, a microscope, or a horoscope to realize the fullness of Christ, and the emptiness of the universe without Him.

The emptiness of the universe and our lives will never be filled by searching, researching, testing or looking to anything other than Christ. 

                  He is the Fullness of life. 

                  ~ XXOO Michelle Bollom 



Rescue Me 

Alone in a dark room

I awoken to this nightmare

I could smell the stench of sin

It became a part of me

No one came for me

I am someone’s child

Did they even look for me?

Or was my life just a vapour

Here today, and gone tomorrow

My dress is torn and stained

My face a picture of unbearable pain

My heart is aching more than the scars on my body

I long for hope

Does it even exist?

My innocents was taken from me

Men come and they go

They don’t see me

They just use me

My body their relieve

My shame their gain

Has anyone looked for me?

Is their freedom outside of these walls?

I don’t know!!!

All I feel is pain so surreal

My body, my mind, my heart all trapped in desperate darkness

Was I created to be abused like this?

Was this God’s plan for my life?

Tossed away to an unknown place

Wrapped in pain, night and day

How long will I be able to cope?

Will my mind remember hope?

Before these drugs became my 

safe place

Haunted by demons night and day

Tears running down my cheeks

No one here to bring me hope

I remember long ago

When joy was still my portion

Singing softly

“Jesus loves me…”

Even in my deepest pain

I will still cling to Him

I pray that someone will come 

for me

One of His sons or daughters to 

set me free

To rescue me from this pit of hell

I will taste freedom again

I have to believe…

~ Ebigale Wilson  

An Unbroken Bond


Life doesn’t always go as we plan

Sometimes there’s ups 

Sometimes there’s down’s

We go through detours

Might run into a cul- de- sac

The road may seem dark

With no sign of light

We think that we’ll never reach 

our destiny amidst broken dreams

We let go of hope

Trapped too deep in agony 

of hopelessness and despair

Seasons come and they go

Some good and some not so good

But hold on with all of your might

Cling to the smallest flicker of light

Trying times are part of the journey

You will discover your strength 

amidst broken dreams

It is part of the journey

He is fine tuning our heart

Bringing us into intimacy

He is building our faith

Doesn’t our Father know best?

It might feel like we are more in the valley, 

then on the mountaintop

While our dreams are slipping away

Life doesn’t always feel fair

We get hurt, go through abuse

Might lose our jobs, struggle with an illness, 

a wayward child

We look to God for answers

While He points us to the cross

To die a thousand deaths

Till we are no more

We cling to our pain and we feel like giving up

In the stillness of night

When you toss and you turn

Looking for answers

Your fists clutched in despair

You hear His small voice saying 

“My grace is sufficient for you, 

for My strength is made perfect 

in your weakness”

Surrender to the process your pain and despair  

Know that I am always with you

Tomorrow you will smile again

You will know that you are, one step closer to My dream for you

That all things work together for good 

to them that love Me

You will look back and know that

When you were too weak, 

I carried you

When the nightmares, wouldn’t stop 

I sang over you

When you couldn’t pray, I interceded for you

When all hell broke loose, I didn’t run

I walked you through the valley 

of death

Time after time

You found your strength in My

gaze for you

Found your joy when I danced 

with you

The trying seasons of life didn’t break you

Instead you fell more and more in love with Me

I became your greatest need

Every one else faded in the background

They could never give you, 

what you have found in Me

In your deepest pain 

An unbroken bond was formed

A covenant was made 

and I betrothed you to Me forever

You traded your ashes for My beauty

You choose to run this race

Crying and laughing, 

through pain and betrayal

You have found the One

Who gave you His all

~ Ebigale Wilson 

Book Reviews Coming! 

  
A book has the power to transform our thinking, ignite a desire or fuel a dream. It can show us something that we have never seen before. It expands our knowledge and fills our life with more wisdom.  

There are many types of books. One of our favorites of course is The Bible. It is a book of 66 books displayed within and has enormous power in its promises and Transformational Truths -because the Word is actually not just God breathed, it is actually God himself! 

See John 1:1 – 

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 

Sometimes we like to read other books that help us transform or reform or parent better or love better or give better or serve better or deny ourselves better or just get lost in a great storyline and characters to take our minds off our to do lists.  

There are all sorts of books and all sorts of opinions out there so we thought what a great way to share those we love with you all.  

*If you are an author- send us your book and we would be glad to review it for you too!

So soon be on the lookout as we will be posting some blogs under the new Category “Book Reviews” to bring you all some reading suggestions from our favorites.  

And we know this may actually have you all rushing to Amazon a little more to pick up one of our reviews to read for yourself so why not give back to Restored Ministries at the same time!

You can shop Amazon Smile and give back to Restored Ministries too by following this link.
http://smile.amazon.com/gp/charity/homepage.html?orig=%2Fgp%2Fbrowse.html%3Fnode%3D502659011&ein=47-1340577
  ~Happy Reading! ~ XXOO Michelle Bollom 

Always The Call 

  
God always wants to take you somewhere else

Another path

opposite direction leading you

Through the storm, 

lighting each step with His love…

Pushing you further than you ever thought you could grow

God always demands more than you’re giving

His holiness requires anointed living

Meekness of heart

 a tongue saved by the blood

Faithfulness and generosity to those He places

Lovingly in your keep

Strangers, now friends, your family

He always says to me

“Krystal, will you feed my sheep?

 Will you feed my lambs? 

Will you move on up to where I am?”

God always moves past my plan

Taking me to no man’s land

Which is way narrow

Absolutely contrary to

Any lifestyle or road

That I would live or choose

This place lives within your heart

It is Gods Kingdom

It is where I belong

It is where He always calls me

❤️Krystal Lynne 

9/12/96

  

Psalms Of The Times 

  

Phases, plateaus 
Nobody knows
What tomorrow holds
Levels of learning
Some fast
Some begrudgingly
But we must move on
To survive
Inhale, exhale
What the hell!!!
There has got to be
MORE
Than our routines
Set the clock
Turn it off
Clean the sink
Mess it up
Fast lanes
Slower traffic
Move or be ran over
Deposit, withdraw
Win, lose, applaud
We keep wanting
Working towards
Something more
Open the Door
Calgon…Please
Take us away
To a place where we can
Rest, relax, rejoice, receive
What our hearts are whispering
Leading us & guiding us
Because we have lost our way
We must find our way back
To the shepherd
And Bishop of our souls

❤️ Krystal Lynne
2/19/96

You were going astray like [so many] sheep, but now you have come back to the Shepherd and Guardian (the Bishop) of your souls. ~ 1 Peter 2:25 AMP 

Perfect Love

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There is no fear in love [dread does not exist], but full-grown (complete, perfect) love turns fear out of doors and expels every trace of terror! For fear brings with it the thought of punishment, and [so] he who is afraid has not reached the full maturity of love [is not yet grown into love’s complete perfection]. -1John 4:18 AMP

I had a thought recently, when I was reading this verse. I began to think if God is love, He is the Perfect Love, and His Holy Spirit resides in us, therefore God; Perfect Love is already inside us, therefore there should be nothing we are to fear.
Love and fear can not coexist in Perfect Love.

So why then do I sometimes let fear take over me? Have I let something occupy more of my Perfect Love spot that is allowing fear to creep in?

As I meditated on this Promise it began to bring me a new found courage and boldness and encouraged not only myself but I also used it to encourage several friends, as well as, I prayed it over a new friend just this week.

Here is Barnes’ Commentary Notes on 1 John 4:18:
There is no fear in love – Love is not an affection which produces fear. In the love which we have for a parent, a child, a friend, there is no fear. If a man had perfect love to God, he would have no fear of anything – for what would he have to dread? He would have no fear of death, for he would have nothing to dread beyond the grave. It is guilt that makes people fear what is to come; but he whose sins are pardoned, and whose heart is filled with the love of God, has nothing to dread in this world or the world to come. The angels in heaven, who have always loved God and one another, have no fear, for they have nothing to dread in the future; the redeemed in heaven, rescued from all danger, and filled with the love of God, have nothing to dread; and as far as that same loves operates on earth, it delivers the soul now from all apprehension of what is to come.

But perfect love casteth out fear – That is, love that is complete, or that is allowed to exert its proper influence on the soul. As far as it exists, its tendency is to deliver the mind from alarms. If it should exist in any soul in an absolutely perfect state, that soul would be entirely free from all dread in regard to the future.

Because fear hath torment – It is a painful and distressing emotion. Thus men suffer from the fear of poverty, of losses, of bereavement, of sickness, of death, and of future woe. From all these distressing apprehensions, that love of God which furnishes an evidence of true piety delivers us.

What are your thoughts on this verse? How can we make sure we always have Perfect Love residing in us to cast out fear?

~XXOO Michelle Bollom
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