Houston We Have A Problem 

  
By now the world has heard of Houston, TX and the traffic distraction of the naked dancing queen. I admit I got a good chuckle out of all the Meme’s floating around the net. 

Interesting though that when I think of her… I feel this overwhelming sense of not only compassion but a sense of wonder and hope surrounding it.    

First I wondered how she kept her footing so well, as a larger woman myself, I know that was not an easy job, so I like to think she had some Divine assistance with that and protecting her from harm. 

Second, I wonder if the surrounding motorist were pissed because she had hindered them and taken up almost two hours of their time, or if they relaxed and just enjoyed the show or stopped and prayed for her and all the children that may have caught the show.  

Third, I even laughed because if you have been anywhere near Hwy 290 lately and the mess it already is with congestion and construction, it would make you want to strip your clothes off butt naked and run- not dance.  

I saw the lead image from a friends Facebook page that captured the shot of the lady’s pose with her arms stretched up over her head.  

I wondered….

Was she surrendering to the freedom she felt high above the other cars and distractions of her life, unhindered from the binding and restrictions of her clothes now shucked, and just experiencing the happiness of the breeze blowing away every care at that very moment? 

That was the thought that I wanted it to be for her, for me, for everyone watching…..

But sadly, I doubt she could grasp a hold of any thoughts. Her mind was either plagued by the demons that have been raging within her or possibly the drugs that altered her sense of acceptable behaviors when stuck in traffic.  

Rumors circled the net along with the meme’s that she was a psych patient that had left the hospital and other reports were that she was driving erratic and had caused two other fender benders before bailing out and baring all her goods before she climbed up that poor guys rig and began dancing to the music only she heard.

I can’t help but wonder, what music did she hear?

What message was this to deliver to us? 

Those offended and pissed, where was their empathy and compassion? 

All the YouTube videos, snap chats, tweets and Facebook posts swirling- but did anyone put down their phones, get out of their cars, and try to reach out to her instead of pointing and laughing? 

I am not sure why this is all swirling around in my head this morning but I do know that God has a plan for this. God has a message much deeper than all the surface skin level that we all saw and the world has seen now by all the media coverage.  

I believe that it just isn’t Houston, but the World that has a problem when others are not led to compassion or empathy for those hurting, regardless how they choose to express that pain.    

Dancing Queen, whomever and wherever you are I pray that in that moment of arms held high that you felt God in that breeze that hit you girl! I pray that the demons or addiction or just the mental break from whatever life’s events caused you to do this that you will come to know Christ, be delivered, set free and be renewed in your mind, and come to have the mind of Christ. I pray for the world watching that didn’t reach out or respond with empathy and compassion would get a good heart check. I pray for all the little eyes and others that just didn’t need to see all this that you would protect their minds. I pray that I will keep seeking the lessons you are wanting to share with me over all this.  Lord, forgive me when I only think of myself- let me be led to reach out more. 
                ~XXOO Michelle Bollom 

Restoration Stories-Gabriela Teran  

   
Just like many others, I was born into a broken family. My parents divorced when I was still an infant. My mother was never really there for me growing up. My sister and I were raised by my grandma. At age 10 I decided to move in with my mom and her new husband and 2 kids later, my mom had another 2 kids after that so it was a total of 6 of us. 

I was so broken and always felt like there was something missing, like I needed to fill that emptyness inside of me. I was pressured by my mom to help her care for the rest of the kids. 

I started drinking and partying at 15 and soon moved out at 16. I never really went to church, it was very rare and all I knew about God, was my emergency God, the one I would cry out to when in need, but still doubted if there really was a God.  

At 16 I was still going to school and was working part time. I had so much freedom. I was partying even more with smoking now added to the mix. At 17 I moved back home with my grandma in South Texas to finish my Senior year.

Finally back home with my grandma, she really tried to keep me out of trouble but it was too late. I continued to try and fill my emptyness with alcohol, drugs and sex. I started living with someone that finally cared, or so I thought really cared. I was deceived in thinking that living with him was going to fill all that emptyness. He was controlling , possessive and extremely jealous. I was mentally and physically abused.  
After leaving that horrible relationship I was suffering with anxiety and depression. To cope I quickly went back to my old ways of drinking and partying every day.

I didn’t want to feel sober because I was scared to have to deal with all my anxiety and depression.  

I moved to Houston in 2013. I worked for my cousin and it wasn’t long until I found new people to lead me back in to my old habits. After dating another guy for a little while it soon turned into another broken and unhealthy relationship.  

I finally had hit rock bottom.

Monday October 27, 2014 after a long weekend of partying and I had no idea how I even got home, I woke up crying out and praying to God. I had no idea what was wrong with me and I had never cried like that before or even prayed.

I had such an unexplainable feeling of such peace wash over me. My emptiness from my entire life was gone. That morning I was a changed woman. On my way to work I decided to listen to Christian music. Still very confused on what was going on or happening to me, I begin to cry out during worship in my car. With tears streaming down my face I could feel the healing and restoration begin. I didn’t feel like my old self. As I saw my cigarette box sitting there full, I was so disgusted to even look at the box. 

That morning began my restoration journey. I was placed in a ministry at the time that helped me be delivered and grow my spiritual walk with the Lord. I was saved October 28, 2014 and accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. 

God can restore what is broken and turn it into something amazing. 

God doesn’t call the qualified He qualifies the called.  

It’s not about doing religion, it’s all about a relationship with a real living and loving God. 

If God can change my life in one day, He can do it for you. Nothing is impossible for the highest most loving and caring Jesus. That’s my God, the God I want everyone to meet and experience.  

I’m currently a leader and sing in worship at Iglesia de Adoracion, a Spanish service for Houston Worship Center. I’m also involved with Standing in Faith Ministries, a Prison ministry, bringing hope to others by sharing my testimony.   
  ~ Gabriela Teran 

 

For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again. So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer. Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:The old has gone, the new is here! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting people’s sins against them. And he has committed to us the message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christ’s behalf: Be reconciled to God. God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. ~ 2 Corinthians 5:14-21 

 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God. ~Ephesians 2:8 

The Chief And Choice Parts 

  
Have you ever thought about a kaleidoscope? All the little pieces of intricate glass swirling about. They seem so insignificant at first but as it is adjusted and moved they begin to fit together reflecting and displaying such multifaceted layers of light and beauty in such a wonderful pattern. 

That is the image God gave me of not only our lives, but also all His wonderful dimensions.  
We already know the different names for God are endless- some of my favorites are 

Healer, counselor, friend, Daddy, supporter, savior, bridegroom, protector … 
So as I read today’s verse, I was thinking on those lines. 

For the reverence and fear of God are basic to all wisdom. Knowing God results in every other kind of understanding.~ Proverbs 9:10 TLB 

I can’t really explain it other than I know this to be true because of a season when a huge storm forced me to be very mad at God and to deny or want any part of Him. I could only see God as a cruel punisher for taking my brother from this earth. 

 I also know that during another time when two really huge storms, just two years later, God was all I had. I clung to Him with everything I could, and some days it wasn’t much, but I clung to Him and His Word and God revealed great understanding to me in many other areas and on many different levels. He became my protector and my healer after having a stroke. He became my Daddy after my earthly Father died suddenly. He continues to be my supporter and friend and bridegroom and a whole list of other things.  First and foremost He is always my Savior. So the deeper I know God on all those levels, it does produce a greater understanding in all other areas of my life.  
I continued to unpack in other translations-

The reverent and worshipful fear of the Lord is the beginning (the chief and choice part) of Wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight and understanding. ~Proverbs 9:10 AMPC 

The [reverent] fear of the Lord [that is, worshiping Him and regarding Him as truly awesome] is the beginning and the preeminent part of wisdom [its starting point and its essence], And the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding and spiritual insight.~ Proverbs 9:10 AMP 
What really caught my eye on the first of these two translations was – chief and choice parts. 

I did not have to head to the dictionary because I knew chief was the top, the head, the beginning, as the next translation calls it the starting point. Choice I knew to be the finest, the very best, and again the next translation summed it up as the essence of.  

I understood that a reverent fear of the Lord, which is simply worshipping God and regarding Him as truly awesome, that is the chief and choice, the beginning and preeminent, the starting point and essence of wisdom. Once we have wisdom down, we continue staying close to God and we will grow in more understanding.  

The Message translation tied it all together for me:

Skilled living gets its start in the Fear-of-God,

    insight into life from knowing a Holy God.

It’s through me, Lady Wisdom, that your life deepens,

    and the years of your life ripen.

Live wisely and wisdom will permeate your life;

    mock life and life will mock you. ~ Proverbs 9:10-12 MSG 

It is through wisdom, having that reverent fear of the Lord, and through skilled living that our life deepens. As we grow closer to God and see Him on every level meeting our every need, the years of our life ripen.  

All our fruits of the Spirit will ripen too! 

We become wise, but not in our own eyes.  

As we learn to live wisely and skilled, wisdom begins to permeate every area of our life. 

My second verse that had me stirring to unpack was:
Then when you realize your worthlessness before the Lord, he will lift you up, encourage and help you.~ James 4:10 TLB 

Humble yourselves [feeling very insignificant] in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up and make your lives significant]. ~James 4:10 AMPC 

Humble yourselves [with an attitude of repentance and insignificance] in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up, He will give you purpose].~ James 4:10 AMP 

So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he’ll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it’s the only way you’ll get on your feet.~ James 4:7-10 MSG 

For a person that struggled with pride, and sometimes still does, this is such a great verse. 

From the various translations I unpacked it in, I came to these final thoughts: 

God can’t help us, raise us up or even encourage us until we recognize our worthlessness, humble ourselves by knowing our insignificance, and have an attitude of repentance for our sins. We must purify ourselves and stop dabbling in sin. All sins! There are no insignificant sins. We can’t play the field. We can’t have divided loyalties. We must get serious, really serious. The only way we’ll ever get back to our feet is first getting down on our knees before God. 




Lord, I want to recognize all the chief and the choice parts of You. I want to grow so deep and close with You that I am continuously in the flow of Your spirit. I want to hear Your voice clearly. I want to be able to examine all the pieces, like a kaleidoscope, to grasp and understand Your love and Your will for me. Remove all pride from me. Help me to stop dabbling in sin and become purified in every area. Only flat on my face before You will I ever be able to stand.  

           ~XXOO Michelle Bollom 

Utter Foolishness 

  

fol·ly

ˈfälē/

n. lack of good sense; foolishness.


A man’s own folly ruins his life, yet his heart rages against the Lord. ~ Proverbs19:3 

I heard someone say Folly means “Utter Foolishness.” So when I saw today’s verse I would have to agree, that our own “utter foolishness” will ruin our life. 

I started thinking about my earlier life experiences when I kept God in little compartments where I wanted Him to operate in and not interfere with me on other areas.  

I wanted to keep God on the periphery of my life like a lawyer on retainer. I wanted a convenient God who was there when I needed Him and also wanted Him to leave me alone when I didn’t.    

When I finally hit rock bottom and was drowning fast, I was mad and angry with God, my heart was raging against Him. Why? How? How could You let this or that happen? Where were you? Hello!!!, I need You to fix this mess I made…NOW!! 

What I know now is everything that matters to us, does matter to God, but we can’t live like a heathen 6 days a week and only give God a few hours on Sunday’s and expect all to go well. 

We must let Him be the integral and intimate foundation of every area of our life before troubles come so we are able to withstand the storms of life and make our way back up to the surface for another breath before we drown. 
We have to allow Him free reign in our lives in every area If we ever want to be restored and live in wholeness.  

Don’t let folly ruin your life. Release every area and struggle to God. Invite Him to take up complete and permanent residence and have His full way in every area of your life. 

Lord, help me never to compartmentalize You. May I never keep You separated from me due to my own folly, sins, stubbornness or pride. Help me to allow You and Your presence to permeate every single area of my life. I need You every second of my day just as I need air to live. Help me to crucify my flesh and begin to live In rhythm with Your perfect Holy Spirit and resurrection power. I come fully surrendered to You. Strengthen me and settle me, make me what You will. 

In Jesus’ Name. Amen. 

                   XXOO Michelle Bollom

Serving Idols 

  
Even while these people were worshiping the Lord, they were serving their idols. To this day their children and grandchildren continue to do as their ancestors did.~ 2 Kings 17:41 NIV 

May that fear of the Lord, which is the beginning of wisdom, possess our hearts, and influence our conduct, that we may be ready for every change. ~Matthew Henry Commentary                                             

Heavenly Father, I am so ready for every change in my life You need to make. Forgive me for serving my idols even while worshipping You. Break the generational curses of my ancestors in my life and in the lives of my children.  Help me to raise up a new generation to serve and worship only You. Possess my heart and influence my conduct. Help me to recognize anything or anyone that is becoming an idol so I can remove and lay them down at Your Altar. May I seek You and Your presence above all. Make me into Your Glorious image Lord. In Jesus’ Name. Amen. 
                    ~XXOO Michelle Bollom 

A State Of Neutral 

  
Warm concrete to snuggle up to

Pavement pillows for the down and out

Human beings treated like trash! 

These are humble people

Hungry more for eye contact than …

A Happy Meal

A glimpse of kindness for the homeless

Can we look them in the eye and smile as we walk by? 

Our day is busy and we have no time to stop and listen

I judge them too

When I’m in a hurry and don’t want to feel or 

Deal with their pain!!! 

I make excuses to why they are there…..

We all do 

It is the very grace of God that we are not

They were children with hope for a wonderful life….like the rest of us

But Addictions….alcohol, drugs, sex, gambling, pornography, adultery, 

stealing, lying, embezzlement…. 

hopelessness, poor up bringing, low self esteem, 

mental illness, disease, time in jail, lack of education, poor choices, teenage pregnancy, incest, rape, stupidity…..

A combination of many mentioned contributed to their demise

We pray for them

We listen to them

Feed them

Laugh with them

Love them

But we can’t bring them home like a dog or cat….

We leave them in their state of neutral

We drive off and they are transported in our hearts with a name and a prayer 

And a seed of faith planted for their future

These people have names, stories,

Beauty and beasts within….just like us 

Jesus had no place to lay his head

WOW….He gets it!!!!! 

We really don’t 

but that’s ok

He doesn’t expect us to relate 

He expects us to extend Him to them
                         ❤️Krystal Lynne 
  

Boy On A String 

  
Lured by the seen and unseen

Catering to voices that speak on the inside

Incarcerating your mind

Your dreams and visions 

Inhaling poison to fill the void

Turning up the music 

To silence the noise of your heart

Begging for mercy 

Desiring flight from the cage

You’ve encased your feelings

In the small child within 

Crying whimpering and trying to reach you 

Amidst the walls that separate you from him
Boy on a string

Dangling in the wind

You are tossed to and fro

Without destiny

Wayward and wandering day by day

Living night of the living dead

Except sadly this is your life

Not a movie

This is your final act on a stage made of sand

Beware of your adversary

He is an undertow

Coming fast like a train

Stealing your soul 

Running straight towards hell and the grave

As you were taking your final bow

You’ll be hit from behind

Fast And Quick

Knees buckling

Stomach upchucking 

The liquor you love

And if that were not enough

The strings are now tighter

Entangled in the deception you believed

Trapped in the web your choices are weaving

The devil in disguise

Laughing at you and your life

Pulling the strings 

While you stood still and allowed him

Boy on a string

Who’s at the wheel of your machine 

Manipulated to the left

Persuaded to the right

On your knees you’ll be tonight 

Calling out to your maker

Acknowledging Christ 

Your Savior

Requesting His cleansing blood

Forgiveness

The gift of love

His mighty arm reaching 

To clip the strings of sin

Lifting you from this heaviness

Gently placing you in His loving arms

Rocking you to sleep tonight

Your name now in the book of life

Boy on his feet and standing

On the Rock of Ages

A sure and sound foundation for you 

To begin your history

Following the Leader

Christ Jesus

Placing your future in His hands

Boy isn’t it a relief

Not having to fear anything

Trusting the Lord with everything and

Experiencing peace from within

That’s what I call a natural high

Supernatural psychedelic 

Without a price 

Your call

Your quarter

Your mind

Your dollar 

You’re the boy

You decide

❤️ Krystal Lynne 

        5.7.96

Freedom

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Freedom!; Take a hold of my heart.

Spirit of God come fill this place…

Oh that line in this song really gets me charged up!

Recently, I had several friends all going through some things and I was praying for them and felt the need to play music softly while I prayed.

This song shuffled and somehow hit me somewhere in my spirit because I had to set the song to repeat over and over as I pressed in and continued to pray for them. The lyrics are amazing!

He brings peace in every storm…
A hope that’s deep within my soul…
Oh, the strengths of Your love…
Tear down walls… Tear down strongholds…

Enjoy this weeks #SongSundays

Shores- Bryan & Katie Torwalt

http://youtu.be/d5UHAOtAZPU

Lyrics:
Oh depression wash away
On the shores of your great love
And let addiction and all shame
Be laid down at your feet
Come awake, awake my soul
I feel justice rising
Breathe new life into these bones
I can feel your heartbeat
Chorus:
Freedom, take hold of my heart
Spirit of God, come fill this place
Jesus, You’re all that I want
Have your way
And you bring peace in every storm
‘Cause you are my anchor
A hope that’s deep within my soul
Oh, the strengths of Your love
Tears down walls, it tears down strongholds
That keep me back from You
Perfect love that’s never ending
It leads me toward You
Bridge:
All creation knows that
You alone are God
As we sing Your praises
God, let our hearts respond

~XXOO,Michelle Bollom

Michelle’s Restoration Story

Michelle’s Restoration Story

Sometimes I don’t even know where to begin to share my story. God has brought so much restoration into my life and He continues to Restore me daily. Like many mom’s & wives we lose ourselves and pour into our families that we rarely leave any room for ourselves. We put our health on the back burner and burn the candle at both ends. We buy the lies of the enemy and grieve our losses without the Hope that Christ offers us. We are wounded and broken and don’t know where to turn. In 2008 I found myself overweight and overwhelmed. I suffered a stroke which led to a overload of doctors and diagnosis and finally ended with the words diabetes & thyroid disease. I joke that God took away my smoking addiction, He took away alcohol, and He took away my cake too! But what an awesome blessing it is because it forces me to take better care of myself as well as, to keep my focus on Him. Little did I know that most of my health issues and the extra weight I carried were just manifestations of trying to keep a secret buried. I revealed the secret to only a select few over the years, but it wasn’t until I released that 20 + year old secret to God and got honest and obedient to Him that He could do some of His best Restoration work in my life. My secret effects 1.3 + Million women each year. Many churches and communities promote the Sanctity of Life, but rarely have I seen churches or communities doing anything about trying to help Restore these women’s lives after the effects of Abortion. There are far too many women not operating in their God given potential because they are carrying around a heavy bag of shame from trying to hold on too tightly to their secrets. Whether that secret is an abortion, an unplanned pregnancy, not finishing high school or college, yelling at your kids, angry at your spouse, vainness, a critical or judgemental spirit, cursing like a sailor, having an affair, sexual abuse, struggling with self esteem, hurting yourself physically, turning to pills or alcohol or sex or shopping or food for escape or comfort. It doesn’t matter what it is if you release it all to God. My desire is to let women know that God can and will use you if you let Him. He can breath new life into those dead dry bones. He can turn every ounce of your pain into an amazing purpose. God wants His daughters and sons to be Restored! Are you ready to release your secrets ? To Get Real? & let God use you?

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