Don’t Cry For Me

You kept quiet 

You never said a word 

Don’t tell me you didn’t see 

the pain in my eyes

When your words would 

pierce my heart 

Didn’t you recognize one 

of your many demons you 

chose to ignore 

Following me like a cloud

Oh how you spoiled me

Gave me everything I wanted

Yet my real needs were 

never met

All I needed was to hear that 

you are sorry for the part you 

played in my pain

You had high expectations 

of me, but not of yourself

With your mask on your face

you masked your scars

Played the part of a 

perfect parent 

Was it too hard to search 

your heart?

To admit that you never 

dealt with your past?

Was it so hard to face the 

demons tearing us apart?

You should have known 

you were passing it on

You should have known

I would wear your scars

This dark cloud following 

me would take me to 

places I hated to be

The cutting, the drugs, 

wrong friends would

numb the pain for a while 

Then reality would hit me like 

a ton of bricks

I am alive 

Yet not seen

Seems like every demon 

terrorizes me

Like a yoke on my neck

I am carrying that which 

you ran from

They say I have this illness 

They say I have that illness 

They say I am a lost case 

All these labels they put

on me

I say all I needed was a 

listening ear

One present, healthy 

parent who put me first

Who believed in me

If only you would deal with 

your demons

I’ll just do what you did

Bury my head in the sand

Let pride take me on journeys  

I was never intended to be on

It was never about me

Always about you

Your pride was worth far 

more than my pain

Don’t cry for me.

— Ebigale Wilson

Don’t Cry For Me

The Journey

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