“Lord, I have chosen you alone as my inheritance. You are my prize, my pleasure, and my portion. I leave my destiny and its timing in your hands.” Psalm 16:5, TPT
A few weeks ago, my husband and I were lost together in worship. I love to hear my husband sing, and I was ushered into the Presence of God as he sang over and over the words, “You’re my portion, YOU are my portion…”
While singing, I entered into some kind of open vision. Before me I saw two things. First, I saw a giant pizza-pie, like the kind I would be excited to eat in the New York area. It was topped with everything that I love on pizza, and there was one giant slice that was removed from the whole and just sitting on a plate near the pizza. I also saw one of the largest, longest tables that I have ever seen.
The table was incredibly inviting and covered with all of my favorite foods from across the globe.
I turned back to the pizza and went to grab the plate that held the already cut-off slice, when I heard the Holy Spirit speak to my heart: “Why are you going for that one piece,” He said gently. “Why would you reach out for the one slice when you can have the whole pizza? Don’t you know that the entire thing is for YOU?”
Then my vision switched back to the long table covered with food, and He reminded me that He has actually set a FEAST before us in the presence of our enemies (Psalm 23:5-6).
Song of Songs 2:4 says, “He has brought me to His banqueting hall, and His banner over me is love” (NASB). And in the gospels, Jesus Himself compares the Kingdom of God to a giant wedding feast!
When I came out of the vision, I asked the Lord to speak to me more in-depth regarding what I saw and what He had to say about it. He is so faithful and indeed spoke some very personal and wonderful things to my heart. Here are a few things that He reminded me of, which I am happy to share as an encouragement to anyone who needs it.
1. Sometimes, we need to change our perspective on what our personal portions are “supposed to” look like. God so graciously reminded me that I am a DAUGHTER, and not an ORPHAN. He said to me that Jesus came to give me abundant life (John 10:10), so why wouldn’t He want me to have the larger, more abundant portion? Luke 11:11 speaks of the relationship between a father and son, and that a father would never give the son a snake if he asks for a fish. Father God wants us to have abundant portions, not left-overs! A child is not polite either – a child takes as much as she/he wants because they know that they are a son/daughter in the house.
2. We cannot be afraid to eat it ALL! John records several times in chapter 6 that Jesus is the “bread of life.” Why wouldn’t we want more of Jesus? A healthy daughter or son will take all the cuddles and kisses that they can get, because that’s what a child does with their parents.
When my Mom gave me a plate of my favorite food, I never feared the consequences of eating every last bit of my favorite food on that plate! I ate it all because it was her delight to give it to me, and it was my absolute pleasure to partake in all of its yumminess. The same can be said for any portion of any blessing that the Father wants to pour out upon us.
3. You don’t have to work for your portion. “Come, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy? Listen diligently to me, and eat what is good, and delight yourselves in rich food” (Isaiah 55:1-2, ESV). We don’t have to work for our salvation (it’s a free gift), or for God’s approval (thanks to Jesus!), or for our inheritance as children of God. Therefore, we don’t have to work for our “portion” of His Presence.
He longs to give us more and more. He longs to have us seated at His banqueting table, in the presence of our enemies at that! You are seated, with Christ (Ephesians 2:6), in the highest place of honor far above all powers and authorities (Ephesians 1:20-21). You are seated in Christ, which means you are seated with Him at the right hand of the Father. And He delights in giving you ALL of Himself. Don’t settle for the smaller portion; the whole “pizza” is yours!
“…God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever” (Psalm 73:26).
~ Mandy Woodhouse