Oh how many times have
I begged Papa to take my
bitter cup away
I wished for a normal life
With no ups and downs
No trials and tribulations
Oh how I wished I could
just cruise through life!
I envied other women’s journeys
With no major storms
No time spent in the furnace
No demons to fight
Many cruise through life
While it seems like I am
always in a battle
Or just exiting one
Looking back I am glad
Papa ignored my plight
Through my painful journey
I discovered my purpose
I gleaned and grew from
every dark time
Papa used my enemies
to train me
To form His heart and character within me
Papa’s plans are only to
prosper us
Never to harm us
The wilderness can be
our most fruitful time
Only when we surrender
to the process
We lean into Papa
Seek His presence
Even when the attacks
rage around us
We live from our spirit
Where deep only follows
the voice of Deep
Our flesh crucified
We know our lives are safe
in His hands
Papa will bring us to the
place of birthing every dream
He has for us!!!
Our challenging journeys
might seem hard and endless
When we think we have
arrived
Papa says no, there’s more
to learn
More idols to let go of
Till our hearts are healed
And Papa’s presence is embedded in us
We look through different lenses
at life
We are thankful for each
dark time, each enemy
Valuable lessons were learned
We paid each price Papa
asked of us
To give birth to yoke breaking testimonies
The wilderness builds our faith in unimaginable ways
Every person powerfully used
by God
Had to go through the pit, palace and prison
Till we pass every character and heart test
Till we can say “You meant evil against me, but God meant it for my good!!!”
~ Ebigale Wilson
Our Flesh Crucified
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