You allured me into the wilderness
The last place I wanted to be
So many other choices I fancied
The front seat
A stage
Fame and fortune
Why did you have to take me this route?
I thought I was Your darling child
Handpicked for greatness
With my coat of many colours
Ready to show off my knowledge
My pride
My ego
Without realising…my downfall
You saw further than my head knowledge
Gleaning and talking of other’s testimonies
Making it my own
Though I never wore their shoes
When You called me away from the crowd
I saw it as punishment
Not knowing that my life would be
forever wrecked by Your heart
You knew I still needed to wait for a while
The stage and the front seat
Would be my downfall
My character did not portray Your heart
Oh I could sound very “christianese”
Yes!! I could even play the part
Yet, I could not copy
When deep calls unto deep
When she is overcome and undone
by a brush of His presence
When she worships without borders
and her heart is changed
In the presence of her King
I had to surrender to my wilderness period
Let go of my head knowledge
Fall on my face
Till I was wrecked by the power
of Papa’s love and
His kindness towards me
Till He became my closest companion
The One who completes me
Who would have thought that the wilderness held the key to every dream Papa had for us
Fruitfulness is waiting in the wilderness
The more I let go of my flesh
The more You unpacked greatness within me
Hiding all along under my pride
my ego, and my will
You are worth more than the scraps
I was willing to give
Chasing after fame and fortune
Was never Your dream for me
You want to hold my gaze
Your presence should be
my most prized possession
Where I am emptied
but filled to the brim by Your love
Today I am Your covenant daughter
Betrothed to You forever
Stripped of what I thought
was important
Emptied but filled to overflow
With grain
With new wine
With fresh oil.
~ Ebigale Wilson
The One Who Completes Me
The Journey
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