Sobs racing through her body
Alone on the bathroom floor
Tears streaming down her cheeks
She is hiding away
From all eyes
No one must know
about the enemy she is fighting
Alone in her own home
The one she thought would protect her
with his life
Chose to cause her much pain
All because she does not know her worth!
No one must see the deep wounds in her heart
No one must see the bruises she is covering
No one must know about the double life she lives
It is her little secret to live with
All because she does not know her worth!
She does not know what hurts more
Her bruised heart
or the scars on her body
No hope in sight
She is caught in his lies
Life goes on
or should she say
her nightmare continues
It is a small price to pay
for the happiness of her children
It is her job to keep her family together
To take the emotional, mental and physical abuse
And maybe, just maybe, it’s her fault anyway
All because she does not know her worth!
He makes it his daily task
to break down her soul
Little by little he lets everyone know
That she is worthless and deserves
what comes her way
The nightmare she lives out each day
Continues year after year
While the look in her eyes grows dim
Joy and hope now only words
she knew long ago
All because she does not her worth!
Where is all the promises he made to her?
Down the drain, like her self-worth and dreams
Instead to be treated like his queen
She had a taste of hell each day
All because she does not know her worth!
The woman she once was
won’t regocnize her now
She has lost her will to fight
It suits him just fine
Instead of facing his demons from long ago
It was easier to make her his scapegoat
and hide
While she whole heartedly agrees
Why would she allow him to do as he please?
Allow him the right to put a price tag to her worth?
All because she does not know her worth!
The children grow up
Their smiles fading away
For no one really gave them a say
Dad did as he pleased
Mom silent as a grave
I am ready to explode
Suppressed anger
leading me down the same path
We, a dysfunctional family
who never knew our worth
No one thought of the effects
of this generational curse
Visiting me and robbing me
of my future in Christ
All because they never knew their worth!
No one was brave enough
to put an end to it
Mom thought she did what a godly wife
was supposed to do
Many times our eyes pleaded with her
To stand up to him
To show him our worth
To break free from this cycle of abuse
She was so caught up in the abuse
that she made it her truth
While darkness unnoticeably moved in
Through our silent voices
that were never heard
Yet the effects of his anger
and the effects of her silence
Gave the enemy an open door
to steal, kill and destroy
All because she did not know her worth!
~ Ebigale Wilson
All Because She Does Not Know Her Worth
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