To go through betrayal
and humiliation over
and over again
Must have been
so hard on you
You called The prophet of love, Hosea
Yet her love was never yours
Your name means deliverer
Yet you were stuck
in a cycle of rejection
and suffering
Was there ever a time
that you wanted to run
away from the calling
on your life?
That you thought
of giving up?
You must have
been so alone
Many nights and days
Only the voices of your
children looking for their mom
Tears running down their cheeks
You hiding your own
You were forced to be strong
Had to tuck your pain away
to face each day
It made you hard for a while
Till God intervened and
you discovered that there
was purpose in the journey
You wished away
Yes, there were many days
that I wanted to give up
Days that I was so overcome
by my circumstances
Days that my pain
was too much to bear
Everywhere I turned
was a reminder of my life
going nowhere
Many turned their backs on me
They couldn’t see God’s hand
alive in my life
All they could see
was my misery
It was in the midst
of unbearable pain
That I came to know
the love of my God
The God who walked me
through a severe season
of suffering, betrayal and rejection
Most of the time I couldn’t feel
His presence
Nor hear His voice
My focus more on the naysayers
Then on the promises of my God
One day light shone through
My mind was enlightened
My heart gave a leap
For the first time I saw
God’s hand at work in my life
The journey I walked was necessary
Our enemies without knowing
escort us to our destiny
Every lie
Every tragedy
Every one who walked away
They meant it for harm
but God turned it
around for my good
I wouldn’t trade the rejection
The lonely nights
The empty space next to me
I would do it all over
For what I have found
can’t be bought
It’s the road less traveled
Yet filled with His surprises everywhere
God planned my journey
Pain was part of my process
I had to follow His leading
Without reservation
Without question
Obedient even when
my life looked more like a circus
Then that of a prophet
He showed me a glimpse of His heart
Through experiencing excruciating pain
myself I came to know
the heart of the Father
And His deep love for
each one of us
When we sin
we wound His heart
Yet His love for us
compels Him to
never let go of us
Weren’t we all slaves to sin
Before His redeeming love
restored us to the position of His bride?
He hates sin but He loves
the unlovely deeply!
I hear Him say:
Today you can stand tall
in the midst of your accusers
You can withstand the heat of any fire
The severity of any storm
Love had His way in your life
The journey of discovering
My heart for the unlovely was necessary
You will now be able to handle
that which I am about
to bless you with!
~ Ebigale Wilson
“A Glimpse Of His Heart”
The Journey
