Have you ever thought you were at a pretty good place of having it all together. Things are going well in your family. People may even look to you at times for encouragement or direction.
The Faith Factor is registering high and you can conquer anything. Or maybe it is at its lowest possible degree of belief. I found myself high in believing for great things one day and then low without a thought towards any good thing another day.
This is what I have discovered on this roller coaster ride this past month.
You DON’T really know how much faith you have until a circumstance or crisis knocks on your “faith” door. It is usually a NEW circumstance. One that you might not have ever faced before.
Most of the times you don’t even recognize that you are operating in fear and not faith in the these new situations.
You have a choice.
A new circumstance comes a knocking….👊🏼👊🏼
Do I open my heart and allow faith to take control over the crisis or circumstance?
Do I slam the “faith” door? Then take over and attempt to manage the crisis or circumstance in fear or worry.
We can even gather up our closest troops to help us manage the situation in prayer or discussions that we think will lead us to an answer or a solution.
I tried all these when my new circumstance came a knocking. At first it brought me temporary relief to go over and over my frustrations and concerns with listening ears. It helped to pray and calm myself down with friends. These things are helpful to a point. I think God was waiting and waiting for me to just ask Him about the situation and ask Him what His thoughts were in the matter. Why do we wait so long before we really ask God what’s up??
He woke me up during the most inconvenient time in the middle of a night to give me answers to the questions I was asking. Maybe because I was still and not complaining to Him did He finally respond back the me.
I got up and wrote down some frustrations about the person I was worried about. He reminded me to look back at the scriptures where I had inserted this persons name. Some were from years ago and some were recent.
He reminded me who God is, was and always will be. His Word does not return void and is sharper than any two edged sword.
Faithful is His name
I don’t have to put my trust in the person I was fretting over or anyone else surrounding that situation.
I just needed to trust and put my trust in a Faithful God.
He had proven to be Faithful.
That was enough.
Bottom line, He whispered into my spirit…
“Do you want to keep walking in fear or do you want to enter into my door of Faith?”
My faith at that point had plummeted into fear and was turning into anger.
I needed to do the exchange.
Trade in my fear for faith and quit complaining about the situation.
If only I had done this two weeks earlier, I would not have wasted so much sleep, time and energy.
Many of us can quote all the scriptures on faith and how we are to cast all our cares upon Him. It is not until we BECOME what we say and read that the exchange happens. Fear for faith. It is just empty words on a page or meaningless words we utter until we BECOME the Word.
I’m not talking about becoming God or Jesus. We become “Christ in us” the hope of glory. We can do all things through Christ which strengthens us. Somehow it must move from our head to our hearts. The “faith” must start pumping through our blood which gives us life. I don’t have it all figured out yet!! I do know once I walked through that door of faith, I was no longer worried and I found rest.
Do I have to keep doing this??
Yes, yes and yes!!!
I think in those weeks you could describe me as a bit of roller coaster ride. One day I was high with my hands in the air praising God. The next day I was headed down that same track holding on for dear life screaming get me off this ride.
I did get off that ride and walked on to the next one.
It is called…
God is Faithful, hop on!!
The seats are lined in scriptures and the lap bars are locked with Love.
That’s a whole another part of the faith journey. God is faithful and God is love.
Hold on tight,
Kelley Allison
Restored People Community 