I ran into You
My nakedness uncovered
for all to see
I am the clown, my life a live show
I couldn’t escape there was no where to go
My spirit was crushed
My emotions ran wild
My heart torn to pieces
The pain so surreal
Did it happen again?
Or was it just a nightmare?
Was I revisiting the tombs of my greatest distress?
Felt the pain I have forgotten,
all over again?
What kind of God would bring me
to this path again?
Why do I have to rewrite this test again?
“I no longer live here God”,
I cry through my tears
My only escape, is to surrender to
Though my flesh shouts “No!!!”
I will heed to His call
For He knows best
He sees further than me
As He put me in the fiery furnace again
I release my will and I just let go
While I softly whisper “break me and mold me, and have Your way”
I am Your servant daughter
Have Your way in and through me
Till I am totally dead, but alive in You
Invade my life with Your Spirit Lord
Till I am no more, but its all about You
And all you want to accomplish through a broken vessel,
That has been put back together by Your Spirit alone
One day I will look back and
see your plan along
I will shine with Your brilliance
Totally dead to self
I will know that it was never about my pain and my fear’s
It was what You wanted to accomplish
Through my laid down life
As I move from darkness into Your light
May I resemble Your heart to
a dying world
~ Ebigale Wilson