Years ago, a surgery that was considered common and routine, took a turn for the worst. I was experiencing a lot of pain and it wouldn’t go away. Within days, I was taken back to the hospital for an exploratory surgery. It was the only answer.
At the time, I was a single mother trying to keep life, together, within my capabilities. And for anyone who can relate to this, or to the constant juggle of life’s responsibilities, you might be able to join me in a mutual understanding when I told myself, “You don’t have time to be sick.”
I was ordered to bedrest for an indefinite time.
Easy as that right?….Um….No…Not for me…..
Deep down, I felt a strong sense of responsibility to take on the day to day activities and my pride assured me that I could take care of everything on my own. The enemy made sure doubt would be the icing on the cake. He told me, “You can’t afford not to work, who will pay your bills? No one will take care of your children like you do. What if something happens to one of them? Tiffany, you…know….you will be all alone and life will go on without you.”
An overwhelming and paralyzing fear crept in. It imprisoned my thoughts, actions, and reactions.
Easy as that!….FEAR took over…
After the third trip back into the hospital, I was exhausted, frustrated and done.
I looked up to God and I surrendered to all of who He is.
I repented for not giving my fears, worries, and life over to him.
Why is it, that we discover, at the end of a difficult season, there may have been an easier way to have gone through it? I made some of my difficult situations harder than they had to be.
Sometimes…even now….I still do.
Thankfully, God is in everything. Even when I stand in the way, it doesn’t stop Him from being ALL. Even when I took over, He was still moving.
“For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matt 11:30 NIV
God wants us to go through Him. He wants us to trust and have faith in the promises He has given so that we may have rest for our soul. If you are facing a trial today, may you find rest and comfort in Him. Be reminded that His burden is light. He wants to take your burden and replace it with His comfort.
Help me to see when I am full of pride, not considering the strength available in you. Continue to guide me, even when I try to get in your way. Thank you for having mercy and grace over my stubborn heart. Thank you for loving me when I fall short. I thank you for all of your protection and love. In Jesus name, Amen.
~Baring His Beauty,