Mature Audiences Only 

         warning for mature audiences only

    I got a lightening bolt revelation today!! 

It was as if both of my ears were crystal clear and open for any oncoming sounds to slip right in quickly and reverberate truth into my head of reasoning. 
There were no roadblocks of earwax or distraction today. 
It was almost like the Liberty Bell was ringing in my head back and forth with lingering chimes of new revelation. 
    Okay, here’s a better example… go to a loud concert and come home and lay down to go to sleep and you still hear the loud rumble of the concert vibrating in your ears. It is as if you are still at the concert listening to their encore again and again. 

    My ears rung over and over these words that I had read in a book by Anna Rountree called, “Heaven Awaits the Bride”. 
Ding Dong, here it goes….
Jesus says to me, ” I don’t want you to use me.”  
That was the main point of the passage. 
The author goes on to explain that a true friend desires company from one who is not trying to gain something from them. 

Honestly, I’m reflecting back on my quiet times and prayer times. What motivates me during these times? It might be a desire to ask for help, gain understanding and wisdom, perform a promise (making it a daily routine), reflect or journal. 

     Those are ALL good motives and noble causes. The Bible asks us to do all those things. So why am I so bent out of shape about wondering if I’m just using Jesus to get what I want. 

So I ask Him what do you want from me? This is coming from me. I am your daughter who desires to serve You and walk in Your steps. 

I silently hear. 
“I desire relationship with you!” 

What does relationship mean? I can ask Webster and then ask the Word. 
One Dictionary: 


:the state of being related or interrelated <studied the relationship between the variables>

2:the relation connecting or binding participants in a relationship: as kinship 

: the state of being related to the people in your family

: a feeling of being close or connected to other people

The Word has much but only picked three verses. 

Proverbs 18:24. . . there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.

1 John 1:3-4  That which we have seen and heard we proclaim also to you, so that you too may have fellowship with us; and indeed our fellowship is with the Father and with his Son Jesus Christ. And we are writing these things so that our joy may be complete.

There are different relationship types when dealing with the Trinity. The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit. Those of us brought up in the church know the obvious comparisons. God is our Father. Jesus our Savior and the Holy Spirit our Comforter. 

Those are only three of a multitude of roles that the Godhead plays in our lives as Christians and non Christians. After all He created us all and desires to draw all men unto salvation. 

Titus 2:11  For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men,

I’m just focusing on Jesus now with this revelatory thought towards Him. 
Here it reverberates again in my ears.  

Kelley, I don’t want you to USE me.”

Do I use my family and friends for what I want? 

Do I only go to them when I need something? Do I seek what I can gain by knowing them?

 How can they advance me? 

What can they do for me?

Yikes!!! I sure hope not!!
We all know or have acted like the above if we are really honest with ourselves. 

Gee Wilikers, I would be sad if my kids, friends, or family thought that way towards me. 
So how must Jesus feel if He is treated like a Santa Claus with a “been good” list or treated as someone who doesn’t merit a close relationship or connection? 
I DON’T want to use Jesus just for my prayer list or worthy campaigns. 

Jesus knows my heart and He is patient and waits for me to get to the next level of understanding. 
Trust me, He has been waiting a long time. 

Like Super Mario Brothers I just passed through one level to get to the next and and stopped at the red flagpole. It’s name is New Understanding. 

At this new level I want to have my quiet times and prayer moments start off with the satisfaction of just BEING with Him. 

I told you this was for a mature audience only. 
You have to desire to grow up in your faith and understanding of how relationship works. 

I can almost see Jesus smiling at me with outstretched arms in the midst of a happy dance shouting, 

“It’s about time you hung out with me just for the fun of it!”.
This is just beginning, 

Kelley Allison 
Psalm 42:1  As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God.