All she had ever desired was a diamond ring to display her worth and a family to worship God with.
She had dreamed of a husband sitting beside her on the pew with his arm lovingly wrapped around her.
She looked forward to having friends over & dining out regularly with other couples who they both knew and enjoyed equally.
None of this came to pass.
So much time had passed that she was spent with the waiting.
Every time she was in a social setting with other women she made sure not to have her left hand within view if at all possible.
That plain gold band seemed to shout of unimportance.
She knew that it was the symbol of covenant and the importance of that but her ego, heart & finger felt naked, empty & humiliated.
Over the years she had grown accustomed to not being invited to the parties and couples gatherings from her church friends since she attended church without her husband.
He had not been going with her since the first year they married.
It was going on twenty nine years so she knew the drill and felt every bit of the rejection from each celebration she would not be attending.
The sting of it all sometimes felt unbearable.
Her life was unbelievable to her.
So many dreams aborted.
So many services alone.
She felt like a leper in the house of God.
Shunned, silenced and uninvited.
These things ought not be so!
So many women feel similar to this.
So many mothers sitting by themselves watching families standing, worshipping together.
Church can be painful for women.
Marriage can be twenty nine years with a gold band screaming into the loneliness and darkness.
You can not fit in when you feel worthless.
I might not have a diamond or a strong warm arm around my old cold shoulder at church but I have a living, loving Savior who happily lives in me, sits with me & shines brighter than a diamond through me….
Who knows my name, weight and every stretch mark I have earned….Who adores me with all of His precious heart ❤
Ladies, you are never alone. Sometimes it just seems so. In those times is when our faith is truly tested. I believe in Jesus Christ alone and He has been my companion. He is the stone that the builder rejected so He understands the diamond dilemma too. Perhaps I should lovingly refer to Him as my “literal” rock of ages allowing Him to be seen instead of fretting over a temporary stone that is not eternal and could never pay for me.
His purchase of us is what makes us so valuable. Lord, help us to see the diamond💎
~ Krystal Lynne ❤️