When God Winks

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Wink-close and open one eye quickly, typically to indicate that something is a joke or a secret or as a signal of confirmation or affection or a greeting.

Have you ever had a moment or situation that you just felt like you got a big ole wink from God? Recently I went for my six month labs to check to see how I am doing health-wise. I dread these labs. I know dread is wrong so I am working on that too…not dreading them or anything else.
I used to get labs every three months and now I get a little reprieve and the doctor has cut it back to twice a year. The problem is not the needle stick… My problem is the fear of the results. The results can reveal when I have been disobedient and in a state of rebellion. I confess I have been lacked on my exercise and on my eating. I have had a hard time being consistent in making these areas a priority lately. I have been on “vacation eating mode” for the last two years. I am not quite sure what happened to get me off track or keep me derailed. The Holy Spirit has been speaking to me about this. I want to obey and have the spirit lead me but I seem to do it for a few days or weeks but I always seem to keep reverting back to old habits and don’t fully heed the Spirit’s leading. I can’t seem to find my groove. My last two labs revealed great areas with the need for improvement. My clothes and body are also speaking to me about those choices and my avoidance of exercise. I went in convinced that no matter what the doctor said I would own my choices, apologize and promise to do better. Surprisingly I got the PA instead of my doctor so inside I was relieved. Then the PA precedes to mention the scale fluctuations and previous not so great labs. I go into my spill about life has gotten in the way, I am really busy and have not been making the best choices… Ya ya ya— blah blah blah. The PA in a very plain and firm but still polite kind of way says “you know what to do, you know how to eat, you know the importance of exercise. It is your choice, do you want to have another stroke? Do you want to die a premature death? Keep doing what your doing, it’s your choice- you get to choose.” (Ouch!)
I normally would of been offended so evidently all the work God is doing with me on being unoffendable must be taking root. I was not offended at all. I just nodded and said to her, “you are absolutely right!”

I felt in that moment God had just winked one of those side mouth clicking noise one eye closed finger pointing – aha! Did you catch all that.. kind of winks. It was not a wink of a joke or secret, no it was His loving and affectionate way of confirming what His Holy Spirit has been trying to speak to me for awhile. He needed to get my attention in a very direct way. I smiled and Thanked God for His wink!
God speaks to us all in different ways. I have resolved that I want to make choices for health and strength not just to look and feel better but so that I can be the best version of Me I can possibly be so that I can do all God has called me to do. I also don’t want to grieve or disobey God. So I dusted off some of His great Promises to focus on and prayed for God to give me some “stickitude”.
Have you had a wink from God? Tell us in the comments below.

~XXOO Michelle Bollom

You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is good for you. You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is beneficial. ~1 Corinthians 10:23 NLT

God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body.~ 1 Corinthians 6:20 NLT

For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. ~ Philippians 4:13 NLT

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