My life wasn’t wrapped up so beautifully from the start. Growing up I was a foster child, raised in more foster homes than one could imagine. I suffered tremendous pain stemming from every aspect of abuse; physical, sexual, and emotional the entirety of my childhood. These were many homes with just a kid, ‘just passing through’. Around the age of 16 my biological parents located me and without fear of who theses strangers were, I ran away to live with them having the false pretense, ‘They finally came back! I knew one day my parents would come back! I’m rescued’. Yes, all children want the fairy tale ending with absent parents; naive I was.
Long story short, it was a horrid time 16 years old up until last year (I’m 35 now) with my biological parents. I witnessed drugs, fighting, prostitution, jail visits, and my parents continually high or drunk. Upon crossing into adulthood, all abuse stopped and yet the situations changed to a complete emotional struggle when I was old enough to move out. The emotional toll taken on me as I continually tried to, ‘parent’ my parents, was massive. I knew my parents really had great hearts, they loved me, yet just so lost in addiction they were powerless to express it or be proper role models and care takers.
You can imagine my life would’ve been tough to keep on the straight and narrow, but I did, through the protection of Christ alone. I saw the ramifications of drug use, criminal activity, and abuse, so I chose to never engage in those. In my early 20’s feeling depressed as ever, extremely withdrawn, I felt as I had exhausted all emotions and decided to give this thing called, ‘church’ a ‘try’. Yes, the first visit changed my life forever as I came to salvation that very day. Throughout the years I have been on fire for Christ, entering into ministry teaching on abuse, addiction, abandonment, identity, self-worth, and more than anything, forgiveness. I’ve made myself very transparent as to give God glory for his restoration and turn around (that He alone did in my life) so that I can inspire and reach the hurting and lost. What the enemy meant for harm in my life has been the very testimony of the greatness of our God now leading so many to hope, change, and salvation.
My adulthood has been spent winning souls to Christ through witnessing, teaching, and as many would say, ‘Just keeping it real’. However, an unfortunate tragedy occurred in my life this previous year as I lost both parents to suicide. The emotional turmoil ended as my mom passed and three days later my father, unable to cope with the death of my mom, took his own life. It was the horrid shock alone upon my mom’s passing as that was so difficult to come to grips with. Then the second wave hit three days later, I had lost my father as well to suicide. The single funeral being planned now turned double and it was such a traumatic time. HOWEVER, guess what? There is GOOD news! The enemy never took me out once, didn’t even come close. Why? Because I’m anchored in Christ alone. The only one constant, never changing, expressing endless love, restoration, and comfort, is Jesus Christ as this I had received so many years earlier post salvation. This is yet another tragic circumstance used to glorify Christ as I minister this story to those depressed, addicted, battling suicide, and many other deep emotional issues. The message is clear, “Hold on, rescue is in route!” Allowing myself to become so transparent has proven a massive healing agent for people battling suicide. Hear from the ‘victims’ mouth the pain caused for those left behind to deal with the unnecessary death while also sharing the purpose of God’s plan for our lives has helped and healed so many. Glory to God for allowing me to be His mouthpiece!
With all of this being said, throughout every trial in life, my passion & relationship has only grown stronger in the Lord.
We’re ALL, ‘called to be prosperous’ in EVERY arena of our lives because our Father is the King of ALL Kings and He took sickness, disease, and poverty to the cross! We are called into victory with a race that has already been won! May we never be victims, only victorious, over every trial and circumstance in life. Glory to God!
Be encouraged in Christ today,
Jessica Drown resides in Phoenix, Arizona. Besides staying proactive for the Kingdom, she is a teen minister, PE teacher, Christian music manager, single mom of two teens, and currently manages a busy corporate office in the city. She loves Jesus, family, friends, and has a passion for ministry, wellness, fitness, and nutrition. Her goal is to help lead the lost and encourage the saved in Jesus Christ!
“Discipleship (via the Gospel) didn’t just put us into the eternal plan of God, but amongst other things, it enables us to live a prosperous life.”
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