I Do Declare

Today’s blog is by Kelley Allison. Kelley is a wife and mom of three from Cypress, TX. Kelley was a former elementary teacher. She shares some great insight about her oldest heading off to college. This will encourage you Mom’s & Dad’s facing that same transition soon too.

I Do Declare

I am really quite comfortable sticking my head in the sand. I don’t have to listen to any distractions or worries around me. It’s actually a happy little place of delusion.
As long as I keep my mouth and eyes closed and focus on the sand and not the matter at hand.

In the real world that we are forced to LIVE in I gotta at least pop up my head and take A looksie around and see that yes indeed it is reality.

My Daughter is Going To College

Okay, I said it!!!
Friends ask me, “How are you doing KNOWING THAT Peyton IS going away to school SOON?”. I reply, “fine” and just like the floppy ostrich dipping it’s head down to get a drink of water……Plop there goes my head down, back into the denial river.

God keeps tapping me ever so gently on my clearly seen shoulder that is sticking up out of my safe little place of refuge. You know, keeping so busy and occupied SO I don’t have to think about her leaving. He asks me when I am going to resurface so He can remind me of a couple tidbits that might bring me some relief.

I figured since I don’t have much time left, I better look UP and see what He has to say. It was getting a little dark and lonely down there!!
Crabs and sand fleas. Itchy and scratchy!!

I am prompted by the Holy Spirit to remember that I never really had any complete control over Peyton. Believe me, I have tried!! I can’t protect her every move and be one step ahead of her to clear the path for her safety and comfort.

I wrote down all my fears and worries in my trusty little journal of aspiring thoughts. This goes beyond the regular list of worries. How do you let your daughter with a seizure disorder go live on her own away from you? That really was the reason for the whole ostrich antics. I wrote it all down one uncertainty at a time.

God wants us to share what’s burdening our hearts. So He heard it ALL!! I asked myself the question:

How does this make me feel?
Caution: High level Risk Feeling

Now what do I do with these feelings of no batteries in my “life remote control”?

News Flash
Commercial Break

I remembered that I am only me, but He is He!!
The Great I Am!!

Since I choose to follow Him and make His Word my map for my life I probably should remind myself who God is to me and what that Map has to say about all this doubt and fear.
I first wrote down all of the amazing provisions He proceeded to put in order before Peyton has stepped ONE foot on campus.
That’s a long glorious list of amazing little details that add up to big blessings!!!
So I poured it all out written and spoken to God and stuck my head back in it’s designated hole in the sand.

Safe and Sound. My favorite Jazzercise song ringing in my muffled ears of uncertainty!!

Since I only have 9 days till D day!!
I thought I would open up my journal today and see what I would do with that dang purple elephant SQUATTING in the corner of my mind.

God keeps taking me back to the “spiritual snapshot” He gave me a couple months ago when Peyton got her acceptance letter to college. He knows I’m visual and will remember pictures over words, actions, thoughts or conversations. He’s actually quite the master teacher. He knows each of us individually and uniquely. He knew how to get my attention and help me remember that He has provided a way for her to go and it was my job to be her #1 cheerleader!!
I hadn’t really deposited it totally in my heart and believed it until today.
I think I just didn’t really want to face the inevitable until I was forced to.

I really don’t want to share with everyone the picture I woke up with that next morning back in April.
You can delete this part if you wish, because you are not too sure God can give you a tangible picture in your mind’s eye to speak to you. I understand totally. I didn’t really know He could work like that until recently.

Fast Forward Here (if desired)

I woke up one morning after the great news of the happy college acceptance. I was pretending to be happy, but deep down I was petrified. God knew my fears and met me in the morning with my own personal news flash.
It’s the moment that one wakes up, but still has their eyes closed. That’s when my little reminder came from God. There was a flash like an old picture showing on a screen that appeared and disappeared as quick as it came in my mind’s eye.
There it was–
a megaphone, black and gold pom poms
setting on a simple table.
Proof it was gone.
I knew it was from God. How? I just knew. It puzzled me because He didn’t give any explanation or script.
I remember that His Word says, “Ask
and it shall be given to you, seek and you shall find.” So I asked and seeked and no find!!!

Later that day when I was pulling out Peyton’s TLU college folder with all her papers and brochures I noticed that the school colors were black and gold. Immediately, like a flood it came to me!!

It was a soft whisper that sounded like my own thoughts with the answer that I was seeking.

You are to be Peyton’s biggest cheerleader. (TLU Black and gold Pom poms). Use your voice and shout out the declarations I have in My Word for her to hear. (Thus, the megaphone)
Why on a table I thought to myself?
Psalm 23, It came pouring back to my memory, word for word.
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green [1] pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a TABLE before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest [2] my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. [3]

I was there in the pasture with my Shepherd. He had prepared a table just for me with the necessary tools I would need to fight off the fear, worry and anxiety that came every time I thought of her leaving to GO off to college.
God had my back and went ahead of me already, to every day and every minute that Peyton would be at school. I would not be there with her each day, but He would never leave her or forsake her.
The Great I Am!!
There is no time on His clock. He is in the past, present and future. He knows our thoughts before we think them. He knew us in our mother’s womb before we WERE even born. He knows how many strands of hair are on our heads. It’s all in that Book He gave us.
I had memorized Psalm 23 in high school. Today a little past high school, I jumped into the pages and got the revelation that no matter what happens His rod and His staff will comfort me. When I start to feel nervous or worried about her being gone, I just pick up my megaphone and pom poms and remember my routine.

Are you finding yourself with your head stuck in the sand? Or maybe you ARE hiding under a thick shaggy carpet until it is all clear to surface.
Just know that you don’t have to hide anymore. You can resurface and look to God for your help in need.
All it takes is an understanding of who He is for you and the declarations that are prepared for you in His Word. It’s okay if you don’t get it the first time around.

If you are not in relationship with Jesus as your Savior,
you might not quite get the whole Bible is your life map thing.
It’s okay, no worries.
The Holy Spirit actually waits and seeks us out for conversation and relationship.
He would love to meet you where you are and take you through any valleys or shadows of death that may come your way.

D day is coming!!
Hand me the megaphone
Declare Declare Declare

“Peyton will be safe and sound in His arms every minute of the day!”

Psalms 66:16
Come and hear, all ye that fear God, and I will DECLARE what he hath done for my soul.

Psalms 71:17
O God, thou hast taught me from my youth: and hitherto have I DECLARED thy wondrous works.

Psalms 73:28
But it is good for me to draw near to God: I have put my trust in the Lord GOD, that I may DECLARE all thy works.